Venting Still awake sadly, feels like I’m one of the only ones on here who just wants death rather than to self harm

[FuneralCry]

I don't relate to people on this site, honestly this place seems to be mostly about self harm and things like people's relationships these days, it just reminds me of why I was never meant for the futile and torturous burden of existing as a human. Even a lot of the things on a supposed "suicide" site are repulsive to me personally, I just find this human species so tiresome as well, I was never meant to exist, I'm only meant for eternal nothingness, I don't wish to self harm or be harmed in any way.

I don't want to think, feel or experience anything, any kind of existence is beyond undesirable and I just don't wish for it, instead I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity, there's no value in being burdened with existence. I hope I fall asleep soon, I'm tired, it's sad how I'm still awake but the ultimate tragedy is how life even existed, I wish this meaningless existence could just disappear into nothingness, I want to sleep, humanity really is an abomination with so many humans just making me want to die even more, I wish I was peacefully unaware rather than still writing on here.

 

[AbsentMindedHuman]

Isnt it cruel how humanity finds a way to make us feel some kind of way even though we have no desire to continue with life. Why is it acceptable for those with 'teminal illnesses' to be appropriately assisted in death, but for those of us that live our lives with no desire to continue yet have no easy way to escape, we are trapped and forced to stay.

I stopped feeling emotions or any sense of joy after my first attempt at ending my life and since them I have only continued to exist for others selfish desires. Why mush we continue to suffer for the selfish emotions of others. There is no overall effect that we have in existance and I want out.

 

[willitpass]

Glad those of us who self harm repulse you. Lovely to be told we're such an abomination for struggling in a different way than you.

 

[thenamingofcats]

Glad those of us who self harm repulse you. Lovely to be told we're such an abomination for struggling in a different way than you.

She said no such thing here and those accusations are not fair at all.

 

[willitpass]

She said no such thing here and those accusations are not fair at all.

"A lot of the things on this supposed "suicide" site are repulsive to me personally…I don't wish to self harm or be harmed in any way" in one sentence. All said in a post saying she feels like one of the only ones who doesn't self harm on here. Tell me how that is to be perceived?

 

[thenamingofcats]

"A lot of the things on this supposed "suicide" site are repulsive to me personally…I don't wish to self harm or be harmed in any way" in one sentence. All said in a post saying she feels like one of the only ones who doesn't self harm on here. Tell me how that is to be perceived?

Well yeah because you edited her sentence. This is what she actually wrote:

"Even a lot of the things on a supposed "suicide" site are repulsive to me personally, I just find this human species so tiresome as well, I was never meant to exist, I'm only meant for eternal nothingness, I don't wish to self harm or be harmed in any way."

 

[feverinjection]

People who self-harm don't exist to offend you or repulse you.

They self-harm typically because they don't have easy access to the beautiful release of death. They self-harm because there is no way out, because there is restrictions, or because they have extreme mental illness.

You don't want to harm yourself in any way? Great. Good for you! Im happy for you.

But just because someone else does, it shouldn't repulse you. It shouldn't make you feel "different." People can self-harm and still be suicidal. Frankly, they go hand-in-hand sometimes. Sometimes people self-harm for years and then end up CTB because they just can't take it anymore.

I understand that you are tired with humanity, I believe we all are. But you cannot blame your issues on innocent people who are just trying to get by, who are trying to feel better, and sometimes in a desperate attempt to do that, they harm themself.

Self-harm is a form of coping that uses physical pain to distract oneself from suicidal thoughts and other things of the like.

Please open your mind and your heart to others. You are not alone in your suffering.

 

[Sylveon]

Yeah, you are one of the only ones here who actually wants death; the rest of us are just suicidal for fun.

 

[Vul]

¿No es cruel cómo la humanidad encuentra la manera de hacernos sentir de alguna manera aunque no tengamos ningún deseo de continuar con la vida? ¿Por qué es aceptable que aquellos con 'enfermedades terminales' reciban asistencia adecuada en la muerte, pero aquellos de nosotros que vivimos nuestras vidas sin ningún deseo de continuar pero que no tenemos una manera fácil de escapar, estamos atrapados y obligados a quedarnos?

Dejé de sentir emociones o cualquier sensación de alegría después de mi primer intento de acabar con mi vida y desde entonces sólo he seguido existiendo para los deseos egoístas de los demás. ¿Por qué seguimos sufriendo por las emociones egoístas de los demás? No hay ningún efecto general que tengamos en existencia y quiero salir.

Porque vivimos en un mundo hipócrita y porque la otra mitad cree que los suicidas irán al infierno...

 

[billie]

Self-harm helps me get through the time until my death

 

[wisteria3]

I don't think it's true that people on here don't want to die. I think many want to, but similar to you, they aren't able to right now for various reasons (such as lack of access to peaceful methods). I think you can relate to that. But people have different coping mechanisms, like your coping mechanism may be venting about wanting to die. Others have that coping mechanism too. Others cope with self-harm, or venting about their relationships, or trying to salvage relationships. After all if you aren't going to ctb now for whatever reason despite wanting to, it's logical to try to reduce your suffering in some other way with a different coping mechanism or by trying to recover.

But, I understand how isolating it must feel to you if you feel like everyone else is participating in life, while you don't have any desire to. I also fundamentally don't want to participate in life, but sometimes I think it makes sense to make some effort if I'm not going to ctb now anyway.

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

Are you going to kill yourself soon? I have to.

 

[Worndown]

Everyone copes differently. Posting, self harm, drugs...whatever works for you.

 

[mapleboy]

Many people who are struggling with things like self harm, suicide, etc find solace on this forum. I'm sorry that you find it repulsive. You could always simply stop reading certain threads or find a new forum with content you wish to browse. Wishing you the best, FC.

 

[halleyscomet]

Just because people self harm, or vent about relationships doesn't mean they are any less suicidal. I appreciate your views, but I really dislike this whole thing of suicidal superiority. Just because people don't hate anything and everything, doesn't mean they are any less suicidal then you. Not everyone is suicidal for the same reasons, one reason is not more valid or more superior to the other.

Yes SaSu is mainly used to talk about suicide, but there are many different things that contribute and relate to suicide. Self harm and relationships can very closely tie with what can cause someone to develop or cope with suicidal feelings. SaSu also is pro choice for a reason, not everyone here intends to ctb and that's okay.

 

[yeh it's all gucci]

I don't relate to people on this site, honestly this place seems to be mostly about self harm and things like people's relationships these days.

It do be like that a lot. No idea why people come here for relationship advice.
I don't think a majority of people on here self harm, but the ones that do love bringing it up, maybe that's why it seems like there's always threads about it.
Most threads now are low tier drivel, I'm glad I'm back to gaming so I barely look here anymore.
Mostly I just read methods and people arguing with you for entertainment now.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Dude, you signed up to a suicide forum. It's well-known that there is a huge overlap between the self-harm and suicide communities. Posts from users talking about self-harm is to be expected. To imply that self-harmers are repulsive to you is just disgusting, especially since a lot of the self-harmers on here seem to be suffering a lot. If the human species is so tiresome to you then why are you hanging out here? Might as well just vent in a journal or something if you plan on constantly complaining about this site and making other users feel like shit.

It do be like that a lot. No idea why people come here for relationship advice.
I don't think a majority of people on here self harm, but the ones that do love bringing it up, maybe that's why it seems like there's always threads about it.
Most threads now are low tier drivel, I'm glad I'm back to gaming so I barely look here anymore.
Mostly I just read methods and people arguing with you for entertainment now.

First off, as I mentioned above, there is a huge overlap between the two communities, hence why self-harm is commonly brought up here. Along with that, there aren't that many places out there that allow for open discussions about self-harm, similar to how there aren't that many spaces that allow for open discussion about suicide, so it makes sense that a lot of self-harmers are going to open up about it on this site.

Secondly, most of your posts are also low-tier drivel. You aren't any better than than anyone else here. It's funny how it's always the same people making posts like these that end up doing the things they look down on others for, lol.

 

[anhedonya]

I feel for you. I really do, and I think you're a decent person who is struggling. I've seen you around a lot ever since before I joined and was still a lurker- and I still do wish the best for you. I have autistic traits if not straight up autism (who knows. no professional diagnosis for many reasons) and so I understand struggling with phrasing and things of that nature. I didn't know that about you until recently and your posts do make more sense because of it- but at this point I do feel like you're just ragebaiting. There is no fathomable way you don't see all the comments on your posts, over and over, every single time you make a post like this. You know saying this kind of stuff upsets people and makes them think badly of you. Yet you continue making comments of this sort about the others on here. I honestly think either you're ragebaiting or these kinds of posts ARE your form of self-harm. I can't make any other discernable logic to it whatsoever. You are more than this death and emptiness, you are also a person, and you deserve to be treated with basic decency- which means you owe the same to others. It's not okay to talk about people like this, even if you are in fact searching for people to think badly of you for one of the two previously mentioned reasons. I just wish you could see that about yourself- that you're not just this constant emptiness of black and white thinking type of death. You are real. You exist. I care about you and want the best for you. But people lose that kind of faith and benefit of the doubt, rightfully so, if you keep beating them down by making this kind of cruel commentary upon them.

 

[yeh it's all gucci]

a lot of self-harmers are going to open up about it on this site.

Lol, funny.

Secondly, most of your posts are also low-tier drivel. You aren't any better than than anyone else here. It's funny how it's always the same people making posts like these that end up doing the things they look down on others for, lol.

Not talking about comments, talking about the low tier threads on these subjects FC mentioned, which I stated. And I don't really make threads so.. Whatevs bro, don't harm yourself over it.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

Lol, funny.

Not talking about comments, talking about the low tier threads on these subjects FC mentioned, which I stated. And I don't really make threads so.. Whatevs bro, don't harm yourself over it.

Sounds like someone's getting defensive over being called out for making low-rier posts themself, lol.

 

[yeh it's all gucci]

Sounds like someone's getting defensive over being called out for making low-rier posts themself, lol.

"Secondly, most of your posts are also low-tier drivel"

Well you said also, so at least you're admitting all the self harm and relationship threads are drivel. Agreed, that's what I said in the first place.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

"Secondly, most of your posts are also low-tier drivel"

Well you said also, so at least you're admitting all the self harm and relationship threads are drivel. Agreed, that's what I said in the first place.

How? Damn, you have poor reading comprehension skills (which is saying a lot coming from me, lol). You do realize you are just making a fool of yourself, right?

 

[yeh it's all gucci]

How? Damn, you have poor reading comprehension skills (which is saying a lot coming from me, lol). You do realize you are just making a fool of yourself, right?

I literally quoted the how. And I'm the one who can't read, wow.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

I literally quoted the how. And I'm the one who can't read, wow.

Quoted what? It seems as though your superiority complex is causing your brain to malfunction.

 

[Sunshine]

I don't relate to people on this site, honestly this place seems to be mostly about self harm and things like people's relationships these days, it just reminds me of why I was never meant for the futile and torturous burden of existing as a human. Even a lot of the things on a supposed "suicide" site are repulsive to me personally, I just find this human species so tiresome as well, I was never meant to exist, I'm only meant for eternal nothingness, I don't wish to self harm or be harmed in any way.

I don't want to think, feel or experience anything, any kind of existence is beyond undesirable and I just don't wish for it, instead I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity, there's no value in being burdened with existence. I hope I fall asleep soon, I'm tired, it's sad how I'm still awake but the ultimate tragedy is how life even existed, I wish this meaningless existence could just disappear into nothingness, I want to sleep, humanity really is an abomination with so many humans just making me want to die even more, I wish I was peacefully unaware rather than still writing on here.

Are your for real? You treat this forum as your personal blog basically spamming posts for 4+ years now and then you tell others in here that you are one of the few people who actually want to die? You're here for almost 4+ years and you're not dead so how DESPERATELY can you possibly want to be dead? And then you say you find the human species tiresome yet at the same time can't stop spamming a forum filled with humans?

I'm not sure if you are trolling or literally just treat this website as your whiny spam blog because your posts never end but now you also insult other users with this statement.

 

[yeh it's all gucci]

Secondly, most of your posts are also low-tier drivel.

You see where you said this?

"Secondly, most of your posts are also low-tier drivel"

Well you said also, so at least you're admitting all the self harm and relationship threads are drivel. Agreed, that's what I said in the first place.

And then you see where I said this?

Quoted what? It seems as though your superiority complex is causing your brain to malfunction.

Yeh.. Clearly it's me with the messed up brain.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

You see where you said this?

And then you see where I said this?

Yeh.. Clearly it's me with the messed up brain.

What quotes? You didn't quote anything, lol.

 

[yeh it's all gucci]

"Secondly, most of your posts are also low-tier drivel"

Well you said also, so at least you're admitting all the self harm and relationship threads are drivel. Agreed, that's what I said in the first place.

What quotes? You didn't quote anything, lol.

See where I quoted what you said back to you? I'll help you out, it's the part in quotation marks.
Man, it's so hard debating with someone so stupid.
Enjoy the self harming, going to do something a little more productive myself.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

See where I quoted what you said back to you? I'll help you out, it's the part in quotation marks.
Man, it's so hard debating with someone so stupid.
Enjoy the self harming, going to do something a little more productive myself.

Mmmm... I don't think you know to quote things on here. You see, you need to press the icon that says "quote" on the post you want to quote. Then you need to go down to and you'll notice that right post timing icon (the one that says "now") there will be another icon that says "insert quotes". You press on that icon and then you press quote message. Hope that helps

I understand that this can be really confusing for some users, though I'm surprised by how much difficulty you are having, considering the fact that you've been on here longer than I have, lol.

 

[yeh it's all gucci]

Mmmm... I don't think you know to quote things on here. You see, you need to press the icon that says "quote" on the post you want to quote. Then you need to go down to and you'll notice that right post timing icon (the one that says "now") there will be another icon that says "insert quotes". You press on that icon and then you press quote message. Hope that helps

I understand that this can be really confusing for some users, though I'm surprised by how much difficulty you are having, considering the fact that you've been on here longer than I have, lol.

No shit, Sherlock. Obviously I did that so many times to you. It's not the only way to quote something. Like I said, too hard arguing with stupid. What a retort, telling someone how to quote. Wow. You're so smart and superior. I see why you harm yourself now.