Venting Starting my job tomorrow

[heirofvoid]

After a month of being anxious and planning CTB because of companies ghosting me for my interviews, I finally got a job offer last week. I passed all the interviews and signed the J.O on the same day. For a bit, it felt nice because I can be a functioning adult but not gonna lie I'm still so anxious about it. I'll be working as a CSR so I need to talk a lot. I'm a very shy and quiet person so this is out of my comfort zone but this is the only job that I can get with my educational attainment. My family is also okay with this job and this is probably the lowest I could get. If I tried for Service Crew/Barista they'll get mad at me and probably humiliate me.

I'm just so anxious because I haven't been in any class, and competitive setting for years. Obviously there will be training but since I dropped out of college six years ago I just feel like I'll be rusty. I'm so anxious about this going wrong and it's driving me crazy. I'm even anxious about the background check. Yes, they allow HS graduates and college undergraduates but when they asked for a scholastic documents I could only present my old college ID and my last registration card. Most of the stuff listed are TOR, Certified True Copy of Grades, and diploma. They said to present a HS diploma if undergraduate but my HS diploma has a fucking typo because my family never corrected me for 16 years that I actually do not have a middle name. I managed to fix that issue while I was enrolling in college because I was rushing to enroll so they let it be and just told me to fix it after. Which I didn't because of stress back then and I dropped out 6 months after so no reason to have it fixed(also contemplating CTB back then so I really forgot about it). Not sure how much will be the reprint be and I'm just too anxious to go back to my highschool. What if my teachers see me and still recognize me? I don't want them to know that me, a consistent honor student is a fucking college dropout. I also know that some people who work in my highschool knows my family so what if they got heard of it and suddenly tell my family? THIS IS DRIVING ME NUTS LIKE I COULD JUST GO ON ABOUT HOW THINGS WILL TURN OUT WRONG.

I already submitted my college ID and last registration card, and after 2 days they sent me the schedule for the orientation so I'm thinking that was fine? But it just makes me so anxious because what if they still ask for my diploma or grades? What if they suddenly pull me out because I couldn't present my HS documents because of that stupid fucking typo. I need this job because it's a good enough of a facade for my "graduating" status. My family doesn't ask about it now since I got a job so I'm planning to earn first before I tell them the truth.

I thought that after I get a job offer I'll be okay but there's still this dread. I could still feel so much fear and I feel like this would never end.

 

[d33per]

But, you managed to push through and got the job - despite all of your fears and your worries. That's excellent. And since you are on here, I would say, you should just relax and do your best. You will know in a few weeks, if this is sustainable for you. Don't bother with teachers and what your parents might think. You are doing your best right now and that is good. If everything goes downhill from here, you can at least tell yourself, that you have done everything you could. Dropping out of college is no biggie imho. Superficial thinking makes you cherish a person more or less because of things like that. It's meaningless. Do your best now and then we will see, won't we? I am happy for you and I get the fears, but just do your thing now. Don't push yourself until you collapse psychologically. I have far worse career options due to long-term sickness. I would not know when or how to start a career in this or the next year probably. You did it though at the moment, congratulations, you have a job. Now stop worrying and do your thing, man.
And fuck other people's expectations.

 

[Cathy Ames]

Congrats! You have made great progress here and should go ahead and recognize and celebrate that for a little bit.

Customer service is... let's say... tiring for quiet, shy, introverted people, but it's definitely not impossible. Take good notes in your training. You will acquire some "scripts" you can use, and eventually they'll become natural to you. Essentially, you are now getting paid to be an actress playing the role of a sociable person. It's okay, just tiring. I expect the diploma with a typo might be fine. Before taking additional trouble, I'd bring it in and see what they say. Try to focus on one thing at a time, even though that is VERY DIFFICULT sometimes. [Believe me, I know....]

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

Congratulations for getting a job :) I understand that could be stressful but just try to relax and not over thinking about that.
Once you start you will see that it will go better than you thought.
I wish you the best :) And good luck for your first day.

 

[Glowarm]

Congrats on the new job!!

I think starting any new job is rough and full of anxiety. But you through the interview process so that's a huge plus. And imo, if they do ask for a copy of the HS diploma, it's fine if it has a typo on it. They just want something to check off that they have a copy of it. That along with your college ID is way more than enough.

 

[MicropBaldCurrycel]

Anxiety comes from wanting a sense of control over the future, we cant control the future or the past.

Anxiety comes from worrying too much what others think. we cannot control other peoples mind's.

All we can do is do our best, whatever happens happens, stop stressing and let the cards fall where they may.

P.S. "You're not going to die. Here's the white-hot truth: if you go bankrupt, you'll still be okay. If you lose the gig, the lover, the house, you'll still be okay. If you sing off-key, get beat by the competition, have your heart shattered, get fired…it's not going to kill you. Ask anyone who's been through it." – Danielle LaPorte

 

[heirofvoid]

But, you managed to push through and got the job - despite all of your fears and your worries. That's excellent. And since you are on here, I would say, you should just relax and do your best. You will know in a few weeks, if this is sustainable for you. Don't bother with teachers and what your parents might think. You are doing your best right now and that is good. If everything goes downhill from here, you can at least tell yourself, that you have done everything you could. Dropping out of college is no biggie imho. Superficial thinking makes you cherish a person more or less because of things like that. It's meaningless. Do your best now and then we will see, won't we? I am happy for you and I get the fears, but just do your thing now. Don't push yourself until you collapse psychologically. I have far worse career options due to long-term sickness. I would not know when or how to start a career in this or the next year probably. You did it though at the moment, congratulations, you have a job. Now stop worrying and do your thing, man.
And fuck other people's expectations.

Thank you so much I'm still a huge bundle of fear so that might take a while to shake off but I'll try.

Congrats! You have made great progress here and should go ahead and recognize and celebrate that for a little bit.

Customer service is... let's say... tiring for quiet, shy, introverted people, but it's definitely not impossible. Take good notes in your training. You will acquire some "scripts" you can use, and eventually they'll become natural to you. Essentially, you are now getting paid to be an actress playing the role of a sociable person. It's okay, just tiring. I expect the diploma with a typo might be fine. Before taking additional trouble, I'd bring it in and see what they say. Try to focus on one thing at a time, even though that is VERY DIFFICULT sometimes. [Believe me, I know....]

thank you! Yea even though I'm mostly shy I think I just have a better chance with talking here because it's a job so it won't probably be as bad as trying to make friends.

Congratulations for getting a job :) I understand that could be stressful but just try to relax and not over thinking about that.
Once you start you will see that it will go better than you thought.
I wish you the best :) And good luck for your first day.

thank you!

Congrats on the new job!!

I think starting any new job is rough and full of anxiety. But you through the interview process so that's a huge plus. And imo, if they do ask for a copy of the HS diploma, it's fine if it has a typo on it. They just want something to check off that they have a copy of it. That along with your college ID is way more than enough.

thank you! Yea maybe I'm overreacting a bit since they're stricter with the other requirements instead so they probably won't look into it that much.