Story Starting my "CTB process"

[Novaaa]

Hello everyone, sorry for my bad english, it's my second language.

May 28, 2007, was my first CTB attempt. I was 18 years old.
I'm now twice that age and have survived seven CTB attempts. The third time I was in intensive care, and the fifth time I was in a coma for 30 hours.

I moved to another country 13 years ago to save myself, and I ended up in hell itself. It's one of the most violent countries in the world and one of the most femicide-prone countries.

Today, Monday, May 26, 2025, I'm sure I'll be leaving. If SaSu had existed 18 years ago, it would have been much better for me. Although I studied psychopharmacology, I finally understood that I'm not going to leave because of an overdose.

Today I applied to donate my body to science; the interview appointment is tomorrow.

I'm very sad, no one cares whether I leave or not, but at the same time I feel calm that everything is finally going to end.

PF

 

[catfriend]

heya, i'm sorry to hear that you're at this point; sounds like you've been fighting a long time. i hope you find peace. :)

if i may ask, what is your method?

 

[Novaaa]

heya, i'm sorry to hear that you're at this point; sounds like you've been fighting a long time. i hope you find peace. :)

if i may ask, what is your method?

Hello, my friend.
I choose NS. I can have all the "medicine". I'm seeing where i can get a good NS, here it's not difficult.

 

[bankai]

I always found the zebra in your profile picture hilarious. You definitely bought me laughter and joy.i will miss you but i envy you as well.be at peace Novaaa.

 

[Novaaa]

I always laughed at the zebra in your profile picture. You definitely bought me laughter and joy.i will miss you but i envy you as well.be at peace.

I started to cry when you said you will miss me. it's really good to know someone will miss me.

It's my company logo. I've never posted it anywhere, only here. I'm attaching it so you can see it; it's a zebra Cheems.
I didn't know anyone remembered my profile. Thanks for making me visible.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best in plans.

 

[bankai]

I started to cry when you said you will miss me. it's really good to know someone will miss me.

It's my company logo. I've never posted it anywhere, only here. I'm attaching it so you can see it; it's a zebra Cheems.
I didn't know anyone remembered my profile. Thanks for making me visible.

Those gifs are hilarious lol.Thanks for sharing.

I don't think the world knows what it's missing.It will be a poorer place with you gone.

That being said.just peace and happiness,that's what i wish for you.

 

[SVEN]

Best wishes for finding rest and peace.

 

[darksouls]

hope everything goes well for you

 

[lonesomedefeat]

Wish you all the best, hope you find peace <3 And yeah that pfp is awesome lol

 

[SmilingNoMore]

How have you been, and how is your "process" going? I read your story and I'm sorry for the pain you've experienced, since childhood. I think everyone here cares whether you stay or go, and I wish you all the best in whatever you decide. Sending love your way.

 

[Novaaa]

How have you been, and how is your "process" going? I read your story and I'm sorry for the pain you've experienced, since childhood. I think everyone here cares whether you stay or go, and I wish you all the best in whatever you decide. Sending love your way.

Hello.
I can't donate my body if I die a violent death, so that's bad news. I don't want my family coming from the other side of Latin America to complete the paperwork and repatriate my remains. I'm looking into whether there's a way for someone I trust to retrieve my remains and complete the paperwork.