Stabbing my heart with an axe until i die

[FriendDeath]

Aesthetics change over time.

I'd also caution over too much age-regression. If you live in the past too much, you'll eventually regret that too.

I think you are too focused on the smaller details to see the bigger picture here. Aesthetics don't really matter if you want to kill yourself. A gruesome death doesn't fit into any aesthetic. It will just be painful and traumatizing. There will never be anything "aesthetic" about suicide - if it's something you want to pursue, you'll need to understand that.

I would advise you to seek mental health help, especially for the hallucinations. You are quite young, and it's best to get treatment for these things while they're still relatively new. I would also advise you to think about what in your life has made you so fixated on aesthetics - I don't think this is a healthy or helpful thing for you at this time.

can i still enjoy them

 

[nir]

can i still enjoy them

You can still enjoy aesthetics, but they shouldn't rule your life. It's good to have moderation in these kinds of things, especially if they are getting in the way of recovery/you living your life.

 

[FriendDeath]

You can still enjoy aesthetics, but they shouldn't rule your life. It's good to have moderation in these kinds of things, especially if they are getting in the way of recovery/you living your life.

alright just uhh where do i begin with them right now tho