Hello, i think this is part of my destiny and unfortunately there is nothing i can do to change it.
My life is boring and the same cycle repeats itself every day. I wish i could have done more throughout my life, i wish i could live longer to try to enjoy the life the way it is, but there is nothing good that can be enjoyed. I've lost the will to live and everything is very gray and these bad thoughts won't leave my head.
I feel like crap, i wish i had simply never existed, and if there is a second life after death, i hope it is relatively better and i can receive love and affection on this other plane, but i highly doubt that will happen.