Discussion Spending life digging my grave.

[Achlys]

Shirking my responsibilities has only further entrenched me in the mire I currently find myself in. In the past, I've managed to maneuver out without fail, but I'm not so confident this time.

I've spent my life digging ever-deeper pits to jump into, only to scramble back out, draining the entirety of myself in the process. How much longer will delusions of a break in the monotony keep me climbing? How much longer can empty promises of happiness at the top prevent me from going still? For what purpose should I urge my weary soul upward once again?

All that awaits me at the crest is but another hole to dig.

It feels like this one might be my grave.

Is anyone else stuck in theirs?

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I feel like I've been stuck in the same hole for 4 years now. It would be nice to be above ground for a little while until the next sinkhole opens under me, but I haven't been able to get out of this one yet.

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case, over the years things have just gotten worse and I have wanted to leave this world more and more. There is nothing that could ever make me want to live. I do feel trapped, stuck in a depressing existence. Dying is the only thing that feels right for me, yet it is so difficult for me to leave this world, so instead I just suffer as I feel like I have no choice. In a way it feels like I have already died.

 

[Achlys]

I feel like I've been stuck in the same hole for 4 years now. It would be nice to be above ground for a little while until the next sinkhole opens under me, but I haven't been able to get out of this one yet.

I'm sorry to hear you've been stuck for so long. If I may be so bold, what keeps you going?

In a way it feels like I have already died.

I feel similarly. I've existed all these years on behalf of a distant future that would somehow make my suffering worthwhile. However, if all I do is bide my time, waiting in misery, when do I begin to live? I've begun doubting that I ever will.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

This post pretty clearly sums it up for me, too. My hole is pretty deep. I can't even begin to conceive of a way to get out at this point, or what it that would even look like. It hasn't shown itself in decades, actually, why would it all of a sudden now? Maybe I missed it along the way, somehow, but I don't think so. I know had I taken a different path in life at a very early age, things may be different now. But, that path wasn't available at that time for me. And that shipped sailed away long ago.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I'm sorry to hear you've been stuck for so long. If I may be so bold, what keeps you going?

Fear. I'm afraid of messing it up and making things worse and I'm afraid that I won't simply stop existing when I die, which would be a nice thing to believe if I was convinced of it.

 

[downndone2]

I've spent the last several years trying to dig my grave in quicksand, yet here I am. Your post is exactly how I feel