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spellbound

spellbound

My Great Guilt
Apr 25, 2026
36
My whole life, I've wanted to shoot myself in the head
But sometimes I feel like living
Not cause I'm scared, not cause I'm happy, not cause I have things to live for
Sometimes I just don't want to die
And this brings me too much sorrow, more so than life does
I spent all of my miserable life feeling suicidal
This wasted life of wanting a bullet in the head
I can't understand why I wouldn't want to die
Im a real suicidal
I'll kill myself
 
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2106lvsk

2106lvsk

Member
Dec 17, 2024
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the thought of living hurts me more than dying
 
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