takeyourshotfunboy
Smile...
- Oct 11, 2019
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Currently listening to Disorder by Joy Division, which I think is appropriate for obvious reasons. I have so, so much unfinished work. I can´t possibly graduate 12th grade. It´s not that I´m stupid or lazy, it´s that I just can´t seem to focus on anything except the thoughts in my head. Life isn´t fair. People only care if you´re some pretty skinny white girl. Me? I´m an ugly, fat trans guy with no redeeming qualities. I´m at the end of my rope. I´m so tired all the time. I have a therapist and loving parents, so I should be happy, right? But I´m not. Because I have no real friends. No SO, no love. That is the only thing that matters. It´s not even that I´m actually suicidal anymore. I don´t want to live, but I don´t want to die.