Where do I hire someone to kill me? Or they can take my body and organs for free just make the pain stop. I keep hurting myself but cant commit to suicide its so hard i just want it to be instant
please talk to me. I want to hear what's going on. I want to listen. I want to comfort you. I have bpd caused by chronic childhood abuse and domestic violence as an adult. I am only 22. I cut my wrists, tried to hang myself before, took a little bit of SN before, jumped into a river and I am still here. I know the frustration and I understand it. What is happening for you right now. Why do you want to die so badly? what is causing you such pain my dear. I just want to help relieve some of your pain if I can. Sometimes we just need someone who understands us to talk to. I understand you. I hate myself for still being alive but I can't change that.
Repeat after me
I am strong
I am beautiful
I am brave
I am smart
I am a good person
Now do something you enjoy, are you hungry? eat your favourite food. Are you cold? cuddle in your favoruite blanket and talk to me. Are you needing to relax? run yourself a nice hot bubble bath. Just know I am here and when you are ready to talk I am ready to listen =)