somehow i failed hanging and now i want to return to looking for the peaceful pill

[Zeir Anpin 729]

violent ends are so hard for someone like me who cant even kill the gangstalking thugs that shank me down every once in a while on the crime ridden streets of texas. A conservative country that uses liberals as a scapegoat for all of the problems that the lazy old boomers are fucking responsible for. anyway, i failed at hanging. i suck at life and i suck at dying because it requires conviction and yet i just dont believe in anything not even God. the darkness is not scary. its getting there that takes effort past my limits. now that i really know my limits i need a fucking peaceful pill. i need the drugs i need it now.

its not joever yet.

 

[unluckysadness]

I'ms sorry for your failed attempt. May I ask you if it is because of your SI (too much stress before the attempt) or because your plan / rope was not good enough ?

 

[nemesis_]

i feel you :( each one of my attempts ended with me pulling myself back up. i could never just let go and let myself pass out because i'm so scared of failing my attempt. i'd do anything for a peaceful way out.