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Earned it we have...
- May 4, 2022
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I have a handful of painfully embarassing moments where I not only made a social faux pas or, false step but, I would have come across as outright rude. Even worse is when others have noticed and naturally must have thought- Why the hell would she or wouldn't she do that? It's so weird to try and defend because I hate rudeness so- you'd think that would be enough to make me say something.
I'll give an example. The company I worked for took us all out to dinner which was so kind but kind of hell for me seeing as I hate eating in front of people. We all ordered and they mistakenly gave me the wrong drink. I didn't realise until I'd taken a swig. Then, obviously the person who should have got it noticed and spoke up. But, for some ridiculous reason, I didn't want to say anything. Partly because I'd already drunk a bit. I clocked that someone else had noticed- I'd ordered water and my drink was starting to fizz. But, that's a typical example.
I don't totally and utterly hate myself for it but I feel excruciatingly uncomfortabe about stuff like that. More, I don't fully understand myself sometimes. It's like- I don't want to speak up and make a fuss or inconvenience people but then, I fully realise that not doing so will ultimately make matters even worse and yet, I still do or don't do whatever it is. It probably sounds ridiculous to most people but I'm guessing there are going to be one or two here that understand?
I'll give an example. The company I worked for took us all out to dinner which was so kind but kind of hell for me seeing as I hate eating in front of people. We all ordered and they mistakenly gave me the wrong drink. I didn't realise until I'd taken a swig. Then, obviously the person who should have got it noticed and spoke up. But, for some ridiculous reason, I didn't want to say anything. Partly because I'd already drunk a bit. I clocked that someone else had noticed- I'd ordered water and my drink was starting to fizz. But, that's a typical example.
I don't totally and utterly hate myself for it but I feel excruciatingly uncomfortabe about stuff like that. More, I don't fully understand myself sometimes. It's like- I don't want to speak up and make a fuss or inconvenience people but then, I fully realise that not doing so will ultimately make matters even worse and yet, I still do or don't do whatever it is. It probably sounds ridiculous to most people but I'm guessing there are going to be one or two here that understand?