Hi
I've finally come to the end of my suffering from years of abuse leading to PTSD, I also have voices that do not give me a break from telling me I'm a burden to society, parents, NHS, telling me to go kill myself, go jump off a bridge, stab self in neck, and been very negative and torturing me constantly. There's also severe depression and anxiety too which has been kicking my arse for several months now despite asking for help from professionals.
Nobody can say that I haven't tried to get better, I've tried different types of therapy, different medications, worked with mental health services, rung helplines. Done volunteering, tried keeping busy, tried studying for a better future. Done it all and none of it has improved things.
I'm also done with living in constant physical pain, with no doctors or surgeons wanting to help. I can live with the pain it's the limitations to what I can and cannot do. I've had enough of been 28 in an old man's body.
I'm grateful for the people who have chatted to me here, talked to me whilst struggling with voices, stayed awake with me as I couldn't sleep. Thank you for making me feel less alone, less scared of the voices, flashbacks, panic attacks and just talking to me about general things.
Just to note for any prolifers lurking - this is fully my own decision, nobody has pushed me either way, they've spoke to me about everyday things like music,dogs,animals, drawings,PS4, Netflix and even coping strategies to get me through but there's only so long someone can live in pain, been tortured mentally and physically and I've tried all other options. Currently under crisis team who are aware I have plans to kill myself - I've been told that I have capacity and it is my decision
So stop targeting SS, target the mental health services in the UK who repeatedly let people down, or better yet set up something to help suicidal people.
Take good care everyone
TJ
I've finally come to the end of my suffering from years of abuse leading to PTSD, I also have voices that do not give me a break from telling me I'm a burden to society, parents, NHS, telling me to go kill myself, go jump off a bridge, stab self in neck, and been very negative and torturing me constantly. There's also severe depression and anxiety too which has been kicking my arse for several months now despite asking for help from professionals.
Nobody can say that I haven't tried to get better, I've tried different types of therapy, different medications, worked with mental health services, rung helplines. Done volunteering, tried keeping busy, tried studying for a better future. Done it all and none of it has improved things.
I'm also done with living in constant physical pain, with no doctors or surgeons wanting to help. I can live with the pain it's the limitations to what I can and cannot do. I've had enough of been 28 in an old man's body.
I'm grateful for the people who have chatted to me here, talked to me whilst struggling with voices, stayed awake with me as I couldn't sleep. Thank you for making me feel less alone, less scared of the voices, flashbacks, panic attacks and just talking to me about general things.
Just to note for any prolifers lurking - this is fully my own decision, nobody has pushed me either way, they've spoke to me about everyday things like music,dogs,animals, drawings,PS4, Netflix and even coping strategies to get me through but there's only so long someone can live in pain, been tortured mentally and physically and I've tried all other options. Currently under crisis team who are aware I have plans to kill myself - I've been told that I have capacity and it is my decision
So stop targeting SS, target the mental health services in the UK who repeatedly let people down, or better yet set up something to help suicidal people.
Take good care everyone
TJ
