Discussion so my mom found my suicide note lol pls tell my I'm not alone

[nofutureghost]

So, I've wrote some suicide notes through the years and of course my dumb ass forgot to throw it away since I still living with my parents n guess what? my mom found it :D daaaaamn I fuckin hate myself, have you ever been in such a shitty situation like that?

 

[noon]

I worked a cashier job and sometimes when it was slow, I would think of what I'd write in my note. I would take some receipt paper and write it down so I didn't forget. my supervisor found my notes as I forgot them at my register and was suspended for 1 day. really uh, embarrassing on my part, but upsetting because I was suspended instead of talked to about it.

 

[Fehler]

I left the forum open with practically the whole family at home; my brother-in-law stared at the screen for a few seconds before I realized it but didn't say anything.

 

[nofutureghost]

I worked a cashier job and sometimes when it was slow, I would think of what I'd write in my note. I would take some receipt paper and write it down so I didn't forget. my supervisor found my notes as I forgot them at my register and was suspended for 1 day. really uh, embarrassing on my part, but upsetting because I was suspended instead of talked to about it.

oh damn I feel sorry for ya, I can't even imagine how embarrassing it was but I think it would be worse if someone decide to talk to me about it, at least my mom just ignored it and I'm kinda thankful for that

 

[Sans]

Thankfully it hasn't happened to me, but my parents HAVE indeed snooped through my phone when I was younger and found conversations between myself and others about suicide. It wasn't easy to talk myself out of that one.

Also, for anyone reading this: If you want to write a suicide note or a draft of one but aren't ready to CTB, make a separate Google account and use Google Docs and log out when you're done. Just make sure you remember the password.

 

[nofutureghost]

I left the forum open with practically the whole family at home; my brother-in-law stared at the screen for a few seconds before I realized it but didn't say anything.

once I was hanging out with my friends I gave my phone password to one of them who wanted to take some pictures and went to the bathroom, when I came back I saw that ss was opened lol feel ya

 

[whywhywhy]

I worked a cashier job and sometimes when it was slow, I would think of what I'd write in my note. I would take some receipt paper and write it down so I didn't forget. my supervisor found my notes as I forgot them at my register and was suspended for 1 day. really uh, embarrassing on my part, but upsetting because I was suspended instead of talked to about it.

Holy fuck, what douchebags human beings. Suspending someone instead of actually trying to help of at least have some empathy

 

[nofutureghost]

Thankfully it hasn't happened to me, but my parents HAVE indeed snooped through my phone when I was younger and found conversations between myself and others about suicide. It wasn't easy to talk myself out of that one.

Also, for anyone reading this: If you want to write a suicide note or a draft of one but aren't ready to CTB, make a separate Google account and use Google Docs and log out when you're done. Just make sure you remember the password.

nowadays I have a secret twitter account to write my note and thoughts but not logged at my phone so if my parents take it they wouldn't see it (but if they read my conversations I would be fucked up anyways)

 

[Rob1984]

oh damn I feel sorry for ya, I can't even imagine how embarrassing it was but I think it would be worse if someone decide to talk to me about it, at least my mom just ignored it and I'm kinda thankful for that

She ignored it...? That's a little disconcerting.....

 

[filthyrottendirty]

It wasn't a suicide note but and angry note I heard you could write your feelings out as a form of therapy so I was really mad at her one day and I wrote this horrible note and hid it. My stepdad found and showed it to her, you can imagine how that went.

 

[Rob1984]

It wasn't a suicide note but and angry note I heard you could write your feelings out as a form of therapy so I was really mad at her one day and I wrote this horrible note and hid it. My stepdad found and showed it to her, you can imagine how that went.

Ohhhh gotcha. I misread/misunderstood your comment then. I was gonna say, if your mom ignored a suicide note........... yikes

 

[filthyrottendirty]

Ohhhh gotcha. I misread/misunderstood your comment then. I was gonna say, if your mom ignored a suicide note........... yikes

The whole thing would have been fine I would have thrown it away and I never felt so angry again, I was young (around 14 probably) so it really wasn't a big deal but I will always hate him for invading my privacy like that, fuck him

edit: just realized you probably meant to say this to the other person

 

[color_me_gone]

I will always hate him for invading my privacy like that, fuck him

Yeah, I was thinking the same thing. It was bad enough that he was snooping through your things deep enough to find something you had hidden, but then had the unmitigated gall to show it to your mother without confronting you first. Whatta dickhead.

 

[All Things Must Pass]

nowadays I have a secret twitter account to write my note and thoughts but not logged at my phone so if my parents take it they wouldn't see it (but if they read my conversations I would be fucked up anyways)

I hope you aren't providing private, possibly incriminating information to a public platform. Why isn't your phone password protected anyways?

 

[xkonstantinexx]

once I was hanging out with my friends I gave my phone password to one of them who wanted to take some pictures and went to the bathroom, when I came back I saw that ss was opened lol feel ya

Same thing happened to me.

Except that it was with my sister. She informed my parents about it. Thankfully I managed to convince them that it was just an emo/screamo forum.

 

[nofutureghost]

She ignored it...? That's a little disconcerting.....

I think she just don't wanna face the problem, her brother ctb months ago so maybe its easier to think I only need god n going to church

It wasn't a suicide note but and angry note I heard you could write your feelings out as a form of therapy so I was really mad at her one day and I wrote this horrible note and hid it. My stepdad found and showed it to her, you can imagine how that went.

it gets worse if they're religious af, I can't even have a conversation without both start yelling at me

 

[xkonstantinexx]

I think she just don't wanna face the problem, her brother ctb months ago so maybe its easier to think I only need god n going to church

My father has actually said something like this to my face. He was so disgusted when he found out i went to a psychotherapist and got diagnosed with depression. He said all I needed was a pair of testicles and God.

 

[nofutureghost]

I hope you aren't providing private, possibly incriminating information to a public platform. Why isn't your phone password protected anyways?

nah, no one follows it and tweets r protected, about my phone: I have controlling parents n even though I'm 19 if they ask for my password I'll have to give

My father has actually said something like this to my face. He was so disgusted when he found out i went to a psychotherapist and got diagnosed with depression. He said all I needed was a pair of testicles and God.

when I ask my mom if I could go to a psychologist she yelled at me and so my brother, I was 15 and several depressed they knew I was cutting myself and blame me for "having no faith", I feel sorry for ya ://

 

[All Things Must Pass]

nah, no one follows it and tweets r protected, about my phone:

Twitter admins can see everything you post there. I suggest you use something more private like monkkee.

 

[Seiba]

So, I've wrote some suicide notes through the years and of course my dumb ass forgot to throw it away since I still living with my parents n guess what? my mom found it :D daaaaamn I fuckin hate myself, have you ever been in such a shitty situation like that?

Well, sort of similar in the sense that my first failed attempt was known by mother. It's hard to translate the energy to written words but the selfish platitude and africans have it worse while being screamed at were top of the list. Not sure how similar your situation will be, but in my case it died down after about three weeks after my first attempt.

Twitter admins can see everything you post there. I suggest you use something more private like monkkee.

There's also rednotebook.

 

[All Things Must Pass]

There's also rednotebook.

That's neither online, password protected, nor for android/ios.

 

[JackTheStripper]

When I was 13 my Dad found the suicide letters I wrote for a few good friends.
He didn't tell me he found them. Just made an appointment with a therapist for me and forced me to go there with him.
Once we were in the room with the therapist, my Dad pulled the letters out and handed them to him.

Yh... That was kinda embarrassing^^"