Ravel
tired
- Dec 13, 2021
- 136
I'm in pain. I should have ended it all months ago but my family is living with me now. I dont have privacy, my method is sn and I need time for this. I've been trying to get better, have been trying since I was 14. I'm tired, haunted by my traumas, Im afraid of the future, and I feel a lot of pain and anguish from being alive. I need to end it, the si is strong but I think I can manage it with benzos. I wished I could have been a normal child, I'm a broken human being. The worst part is parents wanting me to behave normally like everyone else, but I don't know how. I'm mentally broken. Why have I only known bad people in my life? I can't take it anymore, living hurts too much, loneliness is causing me physical pain. I want to cease to exist. I'm tired.