So it’s a dick move to CTB on someone's birthday right?

[SuffrInSilence]

Like even if they don't care much. It would still be a shitty thing to do?
I have a plan, I have a date but today is really bad and I'm very close to just walking under a train.
my sibling used to tell me the best thing I could do for others is walk under a bus. But I don't think they thought that through, a bus is not a guarantee.
I'm a bit drunk. It's noon and I'm drunk but thats absolutely fine today. I shouldn't kill myself on my grandmothers birthday right?

 

[DarkRose]

hi,
First of all I don't think you should be drunk when ctb because any remorse or regret would be dimmed by the alcohol. But for the birthday part, yes I think that's not something I would want to happen on my birthday. Losing someone that's close due to suicide is already hard. But on someone's birthday? I think you should think this through and be sure of it.

 

[picofsuccess]

I remember reading a post where someone said they made a promise to themselves to not ctb on someone's bday or super close to holidays. I had a chance to do it in an empty house a week ago but I would have been found on someone's bday… I don't even think it would have affected that specific person but it would have affected the people around them and I didn't want to do that. Specific dates are dumb in my opinion, but I get how they mean a lot to certain people…

 

[SuffrInSilence]

hi,
First of all I don't think you should be drunk when ctb because any remorse or regret would be dimmed by the alcohol. But for the birthday part, yes I think that's not something I would want to happen on my birthday. Losing someone that's close due to suicide is already hard. But on someone's birthday? I think you should think this through and be sure of it.

that was slightly part of my plan for the date I choose. I planned to have vodka in case I needed help to do it. But there's a difference I guess in choosing to CTB and also take alcohol with you to help and CTBing when drunk?
I just don't want to be here anymore.
I think today is probably some kind of break down because I told my family that I'm not safe and that I'd rather kill myself than get out bed tomorrow but lucky me I have a family that don't care and no one really reacted. My sibling Has been threatening suicide for a decade to get what they want so I guess they're used to it.
i Feel like it's not the same because they didn't mean it. But I don't know. Maybe in their head they meant it. I've never said it before.
I just wanted help. I want someone to help me I don't care if I'm sectioned I just need help Jesus Christ.
but it's fine because no one cares anyway. So I will get drunk and try to hold out for my CTB date. It's all good.

 

[DarkRose]

that was slightly part of my plan for the date I choose. I planned to have vodka in case I needed help to do it. But there's a difference I guess in choosing to CTB and also take alcohol with you to help and CTBing when drunk?
I just don't want to be here anymore.
I think today is probably some kind of break down because I told my family that I'm not safe and that I'd rather kill myself than get out bed tomorrow but lucky me I have a family that don't care and no one really reacted. My sibling Has been threatening suicide for a decade to get what they want so I guess they're used to it.
i Feel like it's not the same because they didn't mean it. But I don't know. Maybe in their head they meant it. I've never said it before.
I just wanted help. I want someone to help me I don't care if I'm sectioned I just need help Jesus Christ.
but it's fine because no one cares anyway. So I will get drunk and try to hold out for my CTB date. It's all good.

You sound in distress, I'm sure your family does care but they might just have a hard time expressing their empathy or don't know how to react. I hope your going to find the peace your desperately looking for <3.

Lots of love

 

[Doom]

if they said that, u shouldnt give a fuck about their birthday

 

[SuffrInSilence]

You sound in distress, I'm sure your family does care but they might just have a hard time expressing their empathy or don't know how to react. I hope your going to find the peace your desperately looking for <3.

Lots of love

Thank you

if they said that, u shouldnt give a fuck about their birthday

its only sibling (don't wanna say gender) who tells me to kill myself. Other people are standard. Would freak at the idea of suicide but don't really know how to respond.
Its a grandmothers birthday. I'm not so bothered about her because she doesn't really know me and wont care. But my father would be sad and it will spoil his mother's birthday forever.
torn between guilt and the idea of release.

 

[SuffrInSilence]

So someone asked if I was drunk. I said this was about mental health not alcohol and they said they smelled vodka.
I guess I'm caught. Turns out, I don't care.

 

[makethepainstop]

Like even if they don't care much. It would still be a shitty thing to do?
I have a plan, I have a date but today is really bad and I'm very close to just walking under a train.
my sibling used to tell me the best thing I could do for others is walk under a bus. But I don't think they thought that through, a bus is not a guarantee.
I'm a bit drunk. It's noon and I'm drunk but thats absolutely fine today. I shouldn't kill myself on my grandmothers birthday right?

Uh dude I care! I think it's great your drunk. Doesn't it feel just so damn good, to be drunk or stoned. (And now comes another shameless plug for THC gummies)! VIVA La THC gummies! But really bro,lets talk when your sober. Of course if you wanna talk now, I'm stoned, your drunk, WOW! We know how to have fun. If you need to talk PM me.

 

[FuneralCry]

My view is that people should be able to ctb whenever they want. It's our life and our decision and I think that nobody should have to stay here a second longer than they want to. Why should others have any say in this, it's not their life and it isn't as though any of us asked to be here in the first place anyway.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

If you've waited this long, what's another day or two?

 

[makethepainstop]

If you've waited this long, what's another day or two?

It does give one time to enjoy another day of alcoholic and THC-induced bliss! Love to all Cheers!