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waistcoat

waistcoat

wow, i have a lot of people to disappoint :o
Aug 10, 2024
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i have moved from my previous country where all forms of MAiD are illegal, to the netherlands.
after some searching, it turns out that under dutch law i pretty much tick every box for assisted suicide,,
and that it is not a dehumanising process unlike other countries,,

while reading this info i literally started crying of happiness and said yay outloud a couple times,
there's finally a dignified escape for me,

i might even be able to get a fast-tracked assistance
i'm so happy,

i will ask my doctors about this when i am able to sign up
 
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QuincyME

QuincyME

Student
Feb 23, 2024
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i have moved from my previous country where all forms of MAiD are illegal, to the netherlands.
after some searching, it turns out that under dutch law i pretty much tick every box for assisted suicide,,
and that it is not a dehumanising process unlike other countries,,

while reading this info i literally started crying of happiness and said yay outloud a couple times,
there's finally a dignified escape for me,

i might even be able to get a fast-tracked assistance
i'm so happy,

i will ask my doctors about this when i am able to sign up
Congratulations. A lot of people envy you.
 
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waistcoat

wow, i have a lot of people to disappoint :o
Aug 10, 2024
429
Congratulations. A lot of people envy you.
no one should envy the physical pain i have been in, it's awful.
i'm not depressed. i'm just exhausted of fighting to breathe.
 
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QuincyME

QuincyME

Student
Feb 23, 2024
121
no one should envy the physical pain i have been in, it's awful.
i'm not depressed. i'm just exhausted of fighting to breathe.
I meant envious of your ability to qualify for MAID not your medical condition.
I meant envious of your ability to qualify for MAID not your medical condition.
What is your medical condition if you don't mind me asking?
 
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waistcoat

wow, i have a lot of people to disappoint :o
Aug 10, 2024
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What is your medical condition if you don't mind me asking?
ha thats the thing they don't know
doctors who specialise in treating the symptoms i have are refusing to even give me an appointment because of how severe mine is :D

im just in pain, constantly, with my organs slowly failing, and have been since 6/7
 
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EternalShore

EternalShore

Hardworking Lass who Dreams of Love~ 💕✨
Jun 9, 2023
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hehe~ welp, congrats on being able to qualify for it~ I'm so sorry for all the pain and stuff that you must be feeling constantly to make it so that you do qualify for it~ :(
 
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ElTopo

ElTopo

Don't listen to me, I am drunk
Mar 30, 2025
258
i have moved from my previous country where all forms of MAiD are illegal, to the netherlands.
after some searching, it turns out that under dutch law i pretty much tick every box for assisted suicide,,
and that it is not a dehumanising process unlike other countries,,

while reading this info i literally started crying of happiness and said yay outloud a couple times,
there's finally a dignified escape for me,

i might even be able to get a fast-tracked assistance
i'm so happy,

i will ask my doctors about this when i am able to sign up
I'm glad you have an option for peace right now.
<3
 
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bankai

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Mar 16, 2025
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I'm genuinely happy for you. A lot of people would love this option. But it isn't available to them.

Sounds weird to congratulate someone on dying though.
 
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waistcoat

wow, i have a lot of people to disappoint :o
Aug 10, 2024
429
hehe~ welp, congrats on being able to qualify for it~ I'm so sorry for all the pain and stuff that you must be feeling constantly to make it so that you do qualify for it~ :(
I'm glad you have an option for peace right now.
<3
I'm genuinely happy for you. A lot of people would love this option. But it isn't available to them.

Sounds weird to congratulate someone on dying though.
thank you all ~<3

it probably will take me like,, 2, maybe 3 years as they will need to redo all of the tests and treatments my other country did first, but if it means i can have a dignified death and not be alone that will motivate me to stick around,

not looking forward to being forced to live longer but we ball 🫂
 
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Pale_Rider

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Apr 21, 2025
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God speed.
 
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Daphne

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Jul 23, 2025
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In the meantime, hopefully they can treat your pain
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,486
I understand why you'd feel relieved, it really sounds like you've suffered so much in this cruel existence, I hope you find peace.
 
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TBONTB

Enlightened
May 31, 2025
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Sending best wishes for good doctors ahead. Glad you have this pathway
 
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waistcoat

wow, i have a lot of people to disappoint :o
Aug 10, 2024
429
In the meantime, hopefully they can treat your pain
for them to agree to let me have MAiD it needs to be untreatable,, so i'll either get cured or they'll give me death, kinda a sweet deal if u ask me
 
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waistcoat

wow, i have a lot of people to disappoint :o
Aug 10, 2024
429
so..
people who have been following my story will know i'm fairly open and honest with my friends and tell them most things with regards to my mental health.

i decided to be up front with them and tell them what i found in regards to me being eligible for MAiD,

it was very well received. they are much more accepting of me passing via MAiD than "normal" suicide, it also acts as a way to prove i am truly beyond hope, as MAiD requires no available treatment to work

i'm happy now, i'll finally be taken both seriously by medical professionals, and not seen as weak by those around me, as they will have irrefutable evidence of my suffering
 
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Daphne

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for them to agree to let me have MAiD it needs to be untreatable,, so i'll either get cured or they'll give me death, kinda a sweet deal if u ask me
Government bureaucracy is pretty bad in my state. Trying to get decent care on Medicaid is a constant struggle. If you are poor, you'll get the runaround. Some states do offer an Assisted CTB program for the terminally ill and it seems well managed. My state doesn't have that option but they'd probably make it next to impossible to use even if they did.

Canada seems more progressive than the states!
 
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waistcoat

wow, i have a lot of people to disappoint :o
Aug 10, 2024
429
Government bureaucracy is pretty bad in my state. Trying to get decent care on Medicaid is a constant struggle. If you are poor, you'll get the runaround. Some states do offer an Assisted CTB program for the terminally ill and it seems well managed. My state doesn't have that option but they'd probably make it next to impossible to use even if they did.

Canada seems more progressive than the states!
thankfully i live in the netherlands, im sorry to hear it's so rough over in the usa
 
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Daphne

Arcanist
Jul 23, 2025
409
Even more progressive. I recall a young man with incurable mental illness recently utilizing the medical assisted ctb program there. Sounds like he really tried to get better but ran out of treatment options. His decision was pragmatic and not based on impulse or emotion. Our politicians in the west would never allow it, they are unable to reason.
 
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atarax1a

In physical pain
Aug 21, 2025
10
Between netherlands, belgium and swizterland which one has the most liberal laws?

I dont apply for Assisted death in USA (i planned to move there, i am legal). My health condotion despite being horrific does not count so seems i will have to do suicide tourism. To a country in europe
 
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princexhhn

did i make a mistake?
Sep 26, 2023
474
Congrats!! I hope you can find peace now. Best of luck! :)
 
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bankai

Visionary
Mar 16, 2025
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thank you all ~<3

it probably will take me like,, 2, maybe 3 years as they will need to redo all of the tests and treatments my other country did first, but if it means i can have a dignified death and not be alone that will motivate me to stick around,

not looking forward to being forced to live longer but we ball 🫂
I have a doubt. Let's say someone does the two or three years of tests and it's approved and they say come on over. So now we can can we schedule it for whenever we want? Let's say I want to enjoy the next year of my life and schedule it for a year from when they approve it. Is that possible?
 
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waistcoat

wow, i have a lot of people to disappoint :o
Aug 10, 2024
429
I have a doubt. Let's say someone does the two or three years of tests and it's approved and they say come on over. So now we can can we schedule it for whenever we want? Let's say I want to enjoy the next year of my life and schedule it for a year from when they approve it. Is that possible?
from my research yes you can plan the exact time
 
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(in)sane

"If you are alone you belong entirely to yourself"
Jun 9, 2024
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ha thats the thing they don't know
doctors who specialise in treating the symptoms i have are refusing to even give me an appointment because of how severe mine is :D

im just in pain, constantly, with my organs slowly failing, and have been since 6/7
I'm so sorry. I hope you you're healthy and thriving in your next life and get to do all the things you want❤️
 
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