So im giving myself a week.

[GoneBeforeChristmas]

I think I'm going to just give myself a week, see if I get on income support, or see if I figure something else out, and if I don't I'm just going through with it i think.

I think I'm just going to stick with my plan of wandering on to the LRT tracks in the middle of the night after they lock up and walking. Not sure if they still run the trains over night, but if they dont I can just wait fairly deep into the tunnels until they start again.

I've barely been eating the last few days, though not because I don't have food, but because I just cant be bothered.

I'd rather not go through with this, but I feel like it's my only option if I cant figure out how to get our of being homeless.
Nothing I've tried has been working out and I'm starting to think it's just not worth wading through all the bullshit bureaucracy that comes with trying to get any sort of support...

 

[LoveYoux]

There's more support out there than you think, do you know of any food banks/hostels/community centres? x

 

[GoneBeforeChristmas]

There's more support out there than you think, do you know of any food banks/hostels/community centres? x

That's what I've been looking into for the past two weeks and basically everything is awful where I live. Yes there are supports but they take way longer than they should to go anywhere. I can get a place to stay overnight but its fucking miserable, I can get an ok amount of food but that barely matters. The issue is that if that's what my life is going to be for months I'd rather not live. Anything that would get me more long term shelter/housing takes months and I really cant handle that.

 

[Darkover]

life sure is shit to lot of us being homeless is one of the worst things you'll have to go through, if it was gonna be fine it already would be the only way it be fine is if your gone for good.

 

[LoveYoux]

That's what I've been looking into for the past two weeks and basically everything is awful where I live. Yes there are supports but they take way longer than they should to go anywhere. I can get a place to stay overnight but its fucking miserable, I can get an ok amount of food but that barely matters. The issue is that if that's what my life is going to be for months I'd rather not live. Anything that would get me more long term shelter/housing takes months and I really cant handle that.

That's good that you have somewhere to go at night, are you open to any mental health services at all? x

 

[GoneBeforeChristmas]

That's good that you have somewhere to go at night, are you open to any mental health services at all? x

Hard to get any because if I leave the shelter my bed is just gone. They have a therapist that can come in to the youth shelter though and I've heard hes fairly good. I might try to see him during the week, see if that helps, but as it stands I dont think it will.

 

[LoveYoux]

Hard to get any because if I leave the shelter my bed is just gone. They have a therapist that can come in to the youth shelter though and I've heard hes fairly good. I might try to see him during the week, see if that helps, but as it stands I dont think it will.

Definitely worth seeing if you can get some time with him, in the meantime are you okay for meals and for sleep? x

 

[GoneBeforeChristmas]

Definitely worth seeing if you can get some time with him, in the meantime are you okay for meals and for sleep? x

Like I said I dont have an appetite at all rn, so I havent eaten in a couple of days. I do have food if I feel like eating though.

 

[LoveYoux]

Like I said I dont have an appetite at all rn, so I havent eaten in a couple of days. I do have food if I feel like eating though.

Good, stay hydrated and stay safe, you're always welcome to PM me x

 

[Lost in a Dream]

In your place, I wouldn't want to wait longer than a week either. Hopefully something works out so you don't have to CTB so soon, but whatever you decide to do at the end of the next 7 days, I hope the results are better than what you're going through now.

If you do get to see the therapist before then, hopefully it isn't a waste of your time.

 

[Downandout82]

sorry you are going through this as what seems a young age. i no it takes time there is help sometimes am currently in a psych ward due to how bad i got and people seeing it and unluckily for me saving what seems like the hell i live in. try and see if there is anything. biggest problem ur in the city which is always worst as there is so many ppl am here if u need to talk and if i lived closer would off gave u my spare room. life may seem bad at the min but am in a psych ward and been told to wait to see someone to help me even though i need them now so this place isn't much better i promise u that. again am sorry ur going through this

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds like a really awful situation to be in, and I'm sorry that it has come to this point for you. To me, it is horrifying that such a thing as homelessness even exists. This life really is so unfair. The train does sound like an horrible way to leave this world to me, but I understand being desperate. It is sad how so much suffering exists in this world. I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do.

 

[rationaltake]

There's more support out there than you think, do you know of any food banks/hostels/community centres? x

I know from experience that saying "It's gonna be fine" doesn't make it fine.

It's great to make suggestions but please remember that people posting here have often explored lots of options already.

Maybe you've received the support you need but not everyone does.

 

[LoveYoux]

I know from experience that saying "It's gonna be fine" doesn't make it fine.

It's great to make suggestions but please remember that people posting here have often explored lots of options already.

Maybe you've received the support you need but not everyone does.

All I can do is offer a set of ears and explore options with people x
You're right, it doesn't make it fine, eventually it will be, until then it's just maintaining immediate safety and wellbeing x

 

[rationaltake]

I think I'm going to just give myself a week, see if I get on income support, or see if I figure something else out, and if I don't I'm just going through with it i think.

I think I'm just going to stick with my plan of wandering on to the LRT tracks in the middle of the night after they lock up and walking. Not sure if they still run the trains over night, but if they dont I can just wait fairly deep into the tunnels until they start again.

I've barely been eating the last few days, though not because I don't have food, but because I just cant be bothered.

I'd rather not go through with this, but I feel like it's my only option if I cant figure out how to get our of being homeless.
Nothing I've tried has been working out and I'm starting to think it's just not worth wading through all the bullshit bureaucracy that comes with trying to get any sort of support...

I'm so sorry you're in this position. I really wish you could get the help you need and deserve.

I've got a couple of ideas if you live in the UK. Somebody I know got housed by contacting their local MP. It cut through all the red tape.

The Citizens Advice Bureau has helped me in the past.

Sorry if this isn't helpful.

My life is hell but it would be even worse if I was homeless.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

All I can do is offer a set of ears and explore options with people x
You're right, it doesn't make it fine, eventually it will be, until then it's just maintaining immediate safety and wellbeing x

Not always for people. This is coming off as one of those garden variety reddit platitudes that most, if not all in this section have heard a million times. How do you know with absolute 100% certainty that things will "fine" for them other than the fact that things (may) have turned out fine for you? What do you define as "fine"??

 

[LoveYoux]

Not always for people. This is coming off as one of those garden variety reddit platitudes that most, if not all in this section have heard a million times. How do you know with absolute 100% certainty that things will "fine" for them other than the fact that things (may) have turned out fine for you? What do you define as "fine"??

It's not for me define what fine is, I'm just offering some reassurance to him x

 

[WorthlessTrash]

It's not for me define what fine is, I'm just offering some reassurance to him x

Wouldn't that be false hope though since you don't even seem to know with 100% certainty that it would be fine?

Also, since you're trying to push the narrative that things will be "fine", you must have a definition of what fine is, otherwise how do you know?

 

[LoveYoux]

Wouldn't that be false hope though since you don't even seem to know with 100% certainty that it would be fine?

Also, since you're trying to push the narrative that things will be "fine", you must have a definition of what fine is, otherwise how do you know?

It's just a soothing gif, it's not a testament, and like I say I'm just offering some help, I can't practically help his life or situation in anyway, all I can do is make sure he's aware of options, and that he's safe for the time being x

 

[WorthlessTrash]

It's just a soothing gif, it's not a testament, and like I say I'm just offering some help, I can't practically help his life or situation in anyway, all I can do is make sure he's aware of options, and that he's safe for the time being x

Are you by any chance against people having the right to decide to CTB regardless of their circumstances? (Not specifically talking about the OP's situation, more in general)

 

[LoveYoux]

Are you by any chance against people having the right to decide to CTB regardless of their circumstances? (Not specifically talking about the OP's situation, more in general)

No, I'm sincerely not, I actually think the knowledge of viable and 'safe' methods documented on this site are valuable. I think it's fantastic that we have this community that doesn't flinch at the discussion. I'm not discouraging suicide, at all, I'm just advising ways to alleviate present discomfort x

 

[WorthlessTrash]

No, I'm sincerely not, I actually think the knowledge of viable and 'safe' methods documented on this site are valuable. I think it's fantastic that we have this community that doesn't flinch at the discussion. I'm not discouraging suicide, at all, I'm just advising ways to alleviate present discomfort x

I respect that fully then.

 

[GoneBeforeChristmas]

Are you by any chance against people having the right to decide to CTB regardless of their circumstances? (Not specifically talking about the OP's situation, more in general)

Theres no need to start anything here, I appreciate the sentiment especially considering it is much easier to get help here at a young age.

 

[LoveYoux]

Theres no need to start anything here, I appreciate the sentiment especially considering it is much easier to get help here at a young age.

Sorry for hijacking your thread there, mods will probably shout at us x

 

[lymestolemylife]

I think I'm going to just give myself a week, see if I get on income support, or see if I figure something else out, and if I don't I'm just going through with it i think.

I think I'm just going to stick with my plan of wandering on to the LRT tracks in the middle of the night after they lock up and walking. Not sure if they still run the trains over night, but if they dont I can just wait fairly deep into the tunnels until they start again.

I've barely been eating the last few days, though not because I don't have food, but because I just cant be bothered.

I'd rather not go through with this, but I feel like it's my only option if I cant figure out how to get our of being homeless.
Nothing I've tried has been working out and I'm starting to think it's just not worth wading through all the bullshit bureaucracy that comes with trying to get any sort of support...

I think I have 2-3 days. Can barely hang in there for that. U still here?

 

[GoneBeforeChristmas]

I think I have 2-3 days. Can barely hang in there for that. U still here?

Yeah I'm here, I'm starting to re consider things since a friend I thought I had lost started talking to me again and therapy went well. I'm still not doing great, but at I think I'll give myself more time. I'm 100% going to have somewhere to stay by around the 18th, so that's something I guess.

 

[Zegers]

your post makes me think that things can always get worse, I'm sick and I tend to feel bad most of the day but being homeless would just be like x2 worse.

Good luck in whatever you do.