So I got a dog

[dustyfurcollector]

So I came here in December I think. It was in response to the NYT article and I felt like I had finally found my place. There was a wonderful person who helped me out often when I first started asking questions. I've forgotten her name, but I want to thank her. She uses abbreviations for words. Anyway, thanks so much for all the points in the right direction.

I had to put the love of my life dog down in October last year and along with all the other ways I'm created out of lesser things than other ppl and will never be enough or am too much. Anyway. I got my SN. I've gotten everything but meto. I'm ready to go whenever and am thinking abt it incessantly, planning out things to be responsible in death and I've found so many thoughtful things here.

But in February I let my mom convince me I needed another dog. So I went to the local shelter and adopted a super sweet and very silly 2yo dog. She's a Chihuahua-beagle mix. I love her a lot and I don't wanna hurt her or make her sad bc she had a hard time before she came with me. She has been a stray, had a litter they didn't find and in the 4 days she was in the shelter they caged her, fixed her, dried up her milk. She was so shell shocked it took her a week to not have to touch me every waking minute.

I have a "friend" who's said she'll take my pets if I did from covid, so I'm assuming the same thing would happen, but she has lots of cats and I'm not sure Daisy would get along. And they work long hours. Daisy would walk all day if she could and she's used to (now) walking around the block every 2 hours.

But I still think abt ctb all the time. She's only 2. She could live another 14 years or more.

I am a drain on taxpayers bc I can't work. I have no friends. Well, supposedly I have a friend I made in hs almost 40 years ago, but she hardly ever talks to me. She almost never answers my texts. I talk to my mom and 8x a day just to have someone to talk to and I've only been an also ran child to her. My brother is her favorite and he doesn't even realize it bc it's always been that way. He's the first boss in GENERATIONS on my mom's side of the family.

Anyway. Now I have a dog. I also have a very mellow cat, but I don't think he'd care of he went somewhere else. He's just never in his life been without me.

I'm sorry this is so long. Thanks to the person who was kind to me. If you know her, pls pass this appreciation on to her. I appreciate all of you on here even though I never have anything much to interject.

Thanks again

 

[rationaltake]

So I came here in December I think. It was in response to the NYT article and I felt like I had finally found my place. There was a wonderful person who helped me out often when I first started asking questions. I've forgotten her name, but I want to thank her. She uses abbreviations for words. Anyway, thanks so much for all the points in the right direction.

Thanks to the person who was kind to me. If you know her, pls pass this appreciation on to her.

That will be @Dot. I've not interacted with Dot personally but I really appreciate Dot's posts.

 

[FuneralCry]

Animals can certainly be better than humans, I believe that having a pet can be one of the only positive things about this life. I'm sorry that you are suffering. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[CameronFrye]

Very similar to you Im a newer member and just got a dog as well. I had to put my dog I had since I was a kid down in December, which was incredibly difficult. But recently I rescued a dog from the shelter and while it doesn't fix the problems in my life, it's a source of light I desperately needed. She was a stray like yours, and I want to be able to be there for her because she never had someone. I still might ctb one day, but for now I'm going to stay a little longer to take care of her.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

Hi. I'm happy that you rescued a dog. Animals are amazing. They are genuine and never leave us. Take care of that dog as much as you can. He deserves.

 

[Dot]

@Iamchickenhat Am gld 2 b abl 2 hlp in n.ewy- srry r stll strgglng bt also gld u hve nw dg 2 kp u cmpny

Apprci8 @rationaltake fr tggng slf s/ cld C ths

 

[rationaltake]

Apprci8 @rationaltake fr tggng slf s/ cld C ths

You're welcome.

 

[dustyfurcollector]

@Iamchickenhat Am gld 2 b abl 2 hlp in n.ewy- srry r stll strgglng bt also gld u hve nw dg 2 kp u cmpny

Apprci8 @rationaltake fr tggng slf s/ cld C ths

I really appreciate the time it took you to help me. You are a good person. I hope that doesn't make you uncomfortable.

You're welcome.

Thank you

That will be @Dot. I've not interacted with Dot personally but I really appreciate Dot's posts.

THANK YOU! I feel terrible not remembering her name. I wish I knew how to find ppl specifically instead of just reading threads.

Very similar to you Im a newer member and just got a dog as well. I had to put my dog I had since I was a kid down in December, which was incredibly difficult. But recently I rescued a dog from the shelter and while it doesn't fix the problems in my life, it's a source of light I desperately needed. She was a stray like yours, and I want to be able to be there for her because she never had someone. I still might ctb one day, but for now I'm going to stay a little longer to take care of her.

That's mostly how I feel and she doesn't lack for a thing except for the puppies she lost. She's a very good girl. My mom says she's too spoiled, but can you really spoil a dog? I just didn't see myself living for 14 more years. Ugh. But it looks like I will. It nice you got a dog. Hugs to your dear girl. And you. If that's not yucky. Thank you for rescuing.

Animals can certainly be better than humans, I believe that having a pet can be one of the only positive things about this life. I'm sorry that you are suffering. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

. It seems we all are a lot. Thank you

 

[rationaltake]

THANK YOU! I feel terrible not remembering her name. I wish I knew how to find ppl specifically instead of just reading threads.

Don't feel terrible. We often find it hard to remember things when we're suffering.

You can look up members' names if that's what you mean? Tap on the three lines and members comes up under the menu.

Take care ❤

 

[dustyfurcollector]

Don't feel terrible. We often find it hard to remember things when we're suffering.

You can look up members' names if that's what you mean? Tap on the three lines and members comes up under the menu.

Take care ❤

Tyvm!

 

[Seafoam]

That's great that you've found a companion! I've always wanted a pet but don't really trust myself to take proper care of one lol.

 

[Lost Magic]

I went to a dog home a couple of years back. I realised that I wasn't fit to have one so I left. I love dogs and cats but there is no way I am hanging around for years to look after them. It is risky for suicidal people to care for animals because they might outlive you and then they have to go through the system of re-homing all over again. It's just not worth it, in my opinion. Now if the animals help people recover and overcome their health challenges then, maybe that's a good thing. Good luck anyway!

 

[dustyfurcollector]

I went to a dog home a couple of years back. I realised that I wasn't fit to have one so I left. I love dogs and cats but there is no way I am hanging around for years to look after them. It is risky for suicidal people to care for animals because they might outlive you and then they have to go through the system of re-homing all over again. It's just not worth it, in my opinion. Now if the animals help people recover and overcome their health challenges then, maybe that's a good thing. Good luck anyway!

I appreciate that. And I've only had older dogs before. 8-10yo. I didn't expect to find a 2yo who latched on to me. When I wake up the first thing I think is, welp. It's not gonna happen today bc I have to take care of daisy's pure heart.

I still think of it every day. Many times now that I've got my SN in the bathroom sitting next to my tagamet. But yeah. I get it. Thanks!

That's great that you've found a companion! I've always wanted a pet but don't really trust myself to take proper care of one lol.

Thanks so much. Her heart is so soft and pure. We walk a total of 2 miles a day spread over every 2 hours all day. I hope to be her heaven.