Help So i fucked up a big time....

[dabedoc]

Hey,
Long story short for people who don't know. I tried partial suspension and the rope broke. I got frustrated or something so I started cutting. My family realized that when they saw the scars that I was cutting. So they are now getting me to a hospital. They have also been watching me closely since if I do something bad, their reputation will degrade. At least that's what they think. After all, it's India. Having a son lost to suicide will just spread rumours and bad rep in the family. I don't have acess to charcoal, alcohol, drugs or anything that is readily available. If I ask for something suspicious, I will just raise the alarm. I can't get nitrogen or helium so those methods don't work either. I don't wanna end up like a vegetable so partial wouldn't work since they would find me. They check in my room every night so fuck that. I have no god way to fucking die. I can't jump from a tall building because they don't exist here. Remote area. Can't get too far away from home. I have social anxiety so it just freaks me out and I start having panic attacks.
I don't know what way I can end myself .any way possible? Water poisoning?some way stop breathing? Drowning in a bucket? Cuttings vein? Some random hit at neck that can instantly take me out?
I would really appreciate any methods that are at least achievable. Going without food to die is just impossible and seems unlikely to result in anything major. Dehydration ? Someone will find you when you are unconscious.

 

[janedoep]

I don't know about India but in America you can choose to stop eating and drinking and eventually die and if you refuse medical assistance they are not allowed to force it on you. It takes a long time and is difficult, though. Stopping drinking takes days and days to work. I know I've gone for more than 5 days without liquids and was still alive, and it feels like it will never end. But it is possible, if you have no other option.

 

[Lovemykids]

Do u have money to rent Airbnb
If yes then rent it and order sn to that address

 

[Lovemykids]

Or get mail forwarding service which they usually hold your mail and forward to the address u want when u want it

 

[Zzzzz]

Do they ever leave the house?

 

[Made4TV]

Do u have money to rent Airbnb
If yes then rent it and order sn to that address

Remote area in India with Airbnb's?

 

[Lovemykids]

Remote area in India with Airbnb's?

You never know
Worth to try

 

[Lovemykids]

OP if u don't mind me asking which continent u in

 

[Made4TV]

The country of India is located in the continent of Asia.

 

[Lovemykids]

My typo lol suppose to ask which province

 

[Lovemykids]

I know there is very remote places like village area it will be Sucks it OP in remote village area like that

 

[couldntthinkofaname]

buy a tent and do the charcoal method

 

[am0]

Hey,
Long story short for people who don't know. I tried partial suspension and the rope broke. I got frustrated or something so I started cutting. My family realized that when they saw the scars that I was cutting. So they are now getting me to a hospital. They have also been watching me closely since if I do something bad, their reputation will degrade. At least that's what they think. After all, it's India. Having a son lost to suicide will just spread rumours and bad rep in the family. I don't have acess to charcoal, alcohol, drugs or anything that is readily available. If I ask for something suspicious, I will just raise the alarm. I can't get nitrogen or helium so those methods don't work either. I don't wanna end up like a vegetable so partial wouldn't work since they would find me. They check in my room every night so fuck that. I have no god way to fucking die. I can't jump from a tall building because they don't exist here. Remote area. Can't get too far away from home. I have social anxiety so it just freaks me out and I start having panic attacks.
I don't know what way I can end myself .any way possible? Water poisoning?some way stop breathing? Drowning in a bucket? Cuttings vein? Some random hit at neck that can instantly take me out?
I would really appreciate any methods that are at least achievable. Going without food to die is just impossible and seems unlikely to result in anything major. Dehydration ? Someone will find you when you are unconscious.

Dude, your situation sounds horrible. I can fully appreciate you want to die as soon as possible, but it is something that is best to do with a clear mind when the circumstances are right. If your family is watching you closely it is best to play the long game. Get a little bit healthier and show some improvement so they are off your back, maybe get some money together and come up with a plan. If you do something that is improvised and they catch you again, you might be in hospital a lot longer. I know this is probably what you don't want to hear right now, but death is not running away, you will get there if that's what you want, but you have to do it smart.

 

[bigj75]

I don't know about India but in America you can choose to stop eating and drinking and eventually die and if you refuse medical assistance they are not allowed to force it on you. It takes a long time and is difficult, though. Stopping drinking takes days and days to work. I know I've gone for more than 5 days without liquids and was still alive, and it feels like it will never end. But it is possible, if you have no other option.

That's a hardcore way to go. Wouldn't advise it but possible.

 

[dabedoc]

I know there is very remote places like village area it will be Sucks it OP in remote village area like that

Yes it is a remote town. So no AIRBNB

 

[dabedoc]

Do they ever leave the house?

Nope, at least my step mom

 

[Lovemykids]

Tent and charcoal would be the best
Both these thing u should be able to get easy

 

[dabedoc]

buy a tent and do the charcoal method

That's the most suspicious thing to do lol. I can't just go outside and place a tent. Also, It's a town but there is no woods to say. India is highly populated whereever you go. I don't have a car either. I am not allowed to drive anyways.

 

[Lovemykids]

I wonder which town u in have no woods

 

[Lovemykids]

Full suspension hanging

 

[Lovemykids]

That means U gotta put a little effort to it, honestly if u have the willingness to ctb patience is virtue and u will need to out put some efforts

Do some search her or partial/full hanging there is many ppl do it even with door knob etc

 

[couldntthinkofaname]

how old are you?