Angel79
Me in male form!
- Apr 25, 2020
- 11
After being a lurker on this site for months and an eternal amount of research on my method i finally have everything I need to CTB. All this time I assumed that the minute I had everything in my possession I wouldn't hesitate to get on that bus (minus some time to take care of some affairs) but interestingly now that I have the control I have been craving for so long I now feel like I don't need to rush it. Just knowing it's there and that I know everything I need to know to put it into action (yes, i have a spreadsheet with my schedule and timing listed out and yes, I know I'm a control freak!) makes me feel comforted and in many ways more in control of my life than I have been in years. Does this make me even more unstable than I already knew i was or is this more common than I realise?
I'd be interested to hear how others feel in this situation.
I'd be interested to hear how others feel in this situation.