so everyone, big news!

[Ghost girl]

I tried to kill myself by taking hand fulls of allergy meds and passed out before I could take enough to kill me. Here's how it went; my heart started beating excessively fast and skipping beats. I fell right asleep. I woke up dizzy, fell out of bed and was too dizzy to get up. It felt like a magnetic force was pulling me down every time I tried to get up. Then I passed out and started dreaming, I dreamt that I threw up and I think I actually did. I was asleep for a day and a half and when I was woken up I was so dizzy the ground was pulsating and it felt like I was being brought down by a magnetic force. My vision was blurry for three more days and my heart was still beating excessively fast . That's what its like to almost die from allergy med overdose. As you can see, not the worst way to go. I'll probably try it again. I think thats how i'll kill myself because i hate life and people. we all have reasons we are on here, here are mine; pcos, my enemies, izzy, corina, mrs. watson, sister petra, the people who bullied me when i was locked up, the people who bullied me when i worked at chipotle, my mental retardation, and ugliness, the way everyday life is so boring and pointless, my anxiety, my despression, my anger issue. i have 0 reason to live and i don't want to. F everyone im out.

 

[Midgardsorm]

Hello.

I don't think the allergy meds will do enough damage to ctb. If you manage to take a huge amount you might have long lasting damage, even be paralyzed for quite some time, but not dead.
For what you wrote, I assume you live alone, so no one will find you and you might be lying there for a long time.

There are other options, you will find lots of alternative methods here on the resources section.

If you can get hold of the necessary ingredients, I think it would be better. You will have a higher chance of succeeding.

I'm sorry life led you to this.
I wish you peace.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

How old are you? You say you will try allergy pills again? What? This is not a way to croak.

What exactly is the 'big news'? That you took an ineffective drug and say you will try again? That you feel awful? Join the club. Slow down and think about shit before taking over the counter allergy meds.

 

[newave3]

Hello.

I don't think the allergy meds will do enough damage to ctb. If you manage to take a huge amount you might have long lasting damage, even be paralyzed for quite some time, but not dead.
For what you wrote, I assume you live alone, so no one will find you and you might be lying there for a long time.

There are other options, you will find lots of alternative methods here on the resources section.

If you can get hold of the necessary ingredients, I think it would be better. You will have a higher chance of succeeding.

I'm sorry life led you to
I wish you peace.

Agree 100%. Overdosing on allergy meds like Benadryl is not likely to kill you.
There are better methods. Please take some time and read through the megathreads before you try this again.
Life blows. I want out too but I will wait until I have all the necessary things for CO poisoning.

 

[Worndown]

There are few over the counter medications that can kill you. The worst that can happen is they will damage your liver or kidneys or some other organ. You will likely live but in a debilitated condition. This can only make life worse than it is now.

 

[xBrialesana]

If you're talking Benadryl please please I don't know you but I do care, please be careful!

also I'm too withered and despondent to lie- you are NOT ugly and I hope that thought doesn't go through your head! You're a cutie! Although for your safety I wouldn't post the picture publicly.!

my dms and heart are open if you're struggling. Sending love

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

co poisoning sounds good fill me in on how to do it! i want to kill myself because i'll never be successful and I'm mentally retarded. life has been horrible, because i'm never smart enough and people are the devil. pls message me on how to do it.

thankyou, where is the resources section? Can you send a link? I've already tried co but i don't think my car makes enough to kill me.
View attachment 72159so be honest am i ugly? i'm the one with the dark hair.

You're cute. I like your smile and hair. Being a real estate agent doesn't take much smarts. Idk. I relate to feeling stupid. You look nice. The person you are with looks like they care about you.

It's very hard to figure out a career if one is not good at math/science. I relate. You look fresh-faced. I wish it could work out...and be good for you.

 

[Midgardsorm]

co poisoning sounds good fill me in on how to do it! i want to kill myself because i'll never be successful and I'm mentally retarded. life has been horrible, because i'm never smart enough and people are the devil. pls message me on how to do it.

thankyou, where is the resources section? Can you send a link? I've already tried co but i don't think my car makes enough to kill me.
View attachment 72159so be honest am i ugly? i'm the one with the dark hair.

You are very beautiful. You look like nice and loving.

Here are the resources:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/suicide-resource-compilation.3/

Most people choose the N method because it's faster and painless. But it's really difficult to obtain and expensive too.
The SN method is a cheaper and more available alternative depending on your country.
Yet, there are several other methods.

However, just one thing...

I know that people are the devil and living can be really painful.
But that's why people like you should live, otherwise, there will be no one left in this world besides the devils.

Consider recovery, if you can. It would be awesome to see you turn things around and live happy.
You can chat in the recovery section of the forum. People here are very warm-hearted and will understand you.

But obviously, I don't know what you have been through and for how long you have been suffering.

Wishing you the best. May you have peace, in whatever path you choose.

 

[newave3]

I love everything that @Midgardsorm has written on this thread.
I also agree with @xBrialesana. It's not a good idea to post a picture of yourself however you have a wonderful, pretty face.
On another post I believe you said you are almost 22 years old. That's very young. I understand you have mental and physical issues. Perhaps with the right treatment you can turn things around and feel better.

 

[FuneralCry]

I agree with what the others have said about overdoses, I have read about many failed attempts and I do not consider that a method I would possibly use. I'm sorry you are suffering, living really is painful. I wish you well.

 

[Worndown]

co poisoning sounds good fill me in on how to do it! i want to kill myself because i'll never be successful and I'm mentally retarded. life has been horrible, because i'm never smart enough and people are the devil. pls message me on how to do it.

thankyou, where is the resources section? Can you send a link? I've already tried co but i don't think my car makes enough to kill me.
View attachment 72159so be honest am i ugly? i'm the one with the dark hair.

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder unless the beholder is ourselves. Let others make that choice. I personally see nothing to consider negative.

 

[EOL4ME]

I would date you in a heartbeat ..... NOT ugly.

 

[chocolatebar]

You sound desperate and we rarely make good decisions when in such state. Trying many methods without doing much research will likely only damage your health. Please, try to take a breath, read more and think more before you go acting.

I see you're new around, so, be welcome and feel free to read all sections and talk about anything here, even about your problems in life.

I don't want to be repetitive, because I already told this to another user, but I would advise not to post personal photos here, because there are some bad people around and they may target you or someone may try to identify you on the real life. Since you asked if you're ugly, I think you may have self-image issues. Many of us around here have issues with our appearance as well and, while showing photos could help us, we understand the risks of doing so.

 

[one.way.out]

You really, really shouldn't post images on here.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

You really, really shouldn't post images on here.

People have explained why...but I sort of don't understand the problem with posting pictures. Most don't know of SS and no one's going to figure out where she lives based on a picture. Why is this a really really bad?

 

[one.way.out]

People have explained why...but I sort of don't understand the problem with posting pictures. Most don't know of SS and no one's going to figure out where she lives based on a picture. Why is this a really really bad?

Police, Fixthe26 browsing the website

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

Police, Fixthe26 browsing the website

Who is Fixthe26? She talked about allergy meds. Do you think a police officer/investigator for her exact town is trolling SS? I really doubt this. And even if they were I don't think they can id her just based off a picture.

 

[one.way.out]

Who is Fixthe26? She talked about allergy meds. Do you think a police officer/investigator for her exact town is trolling SS? I really doubt this. And even if they were I don't think they can id her just based off a picture.

There's technology nowadays that can identify people from pictures. Either way, I'd rather be safe than sorry.

 

[Flippy]

You look like a bonny lass to me! I know it can be hard to see yourself this way when things seem so dark and miserable. It maybe isn't too wise to post images of yourself on here as others have said for a multitude of reasons.

Also as others have said, it's a bad idea to take high doses of anti allergy meds. The likelihood is that you will damage your internal organs after a while. When I was around your age, I took a lot of ibuprofen in a bid to end my life. I believed it would work, it was a different world back then, the internet wasn't so full of information and from what little I did know I thought it would work. Pretty dumb in retrospect, but I wasn't firing on all cylinders.

It wasn't a pleasant experience and I felt really rough afterwards, with the added worry that I had potentially done lasting harm and trying to act normal for a couple of weeks not knowing if something would land me in the hospital and they would figure out what I had attempted.

I seem to have quite a lot of physical problems these days. They're probably unrelated, but I found out recently my liver looks a bit damaged and I have wondered if that attempt might have contributed. I suppose my point is you can't be sure what the hidden effect of an OD might be in the short or long term.

There's lots of people who are willing to talk here. You might find talking here helps take the edge off of the dark feelings. It can be quite therapeutic and you don't have to fear that a therapist etc might have you admitted to a hospital or something like that.

Please don't take any more anti allergy meds. In high doses they can have unpredictable effects, some can even cause hallucinations which can lead to a whole other load of potential problems.

 

[xBrialesana]

People have explained why...but I sort of don't understand the problem with posting pictures. Most don't know of SS and no one's going to figure out where she lives based on a picture. Why is this a really really bad?

It could be bad. A multitude of reasons. Also the fear isn't about predators finding her (which of course we should always fear with the internet). This girl is reaching out, we don't need her 51/50'd. Someone who knows of her could also be browsing coincidentally, you really never know. No the cops aren't gonna go after her for taking Benadryl of course but they can freely peruse this site as you and I can. There's also users on here that are sick in the head and could find her info and contact people.

Big factor too is the protection of this precious site that means SO much to so many of us.

(this isn't coming for OP!she did nothing wrong! And whoever said they would date her yes I agree she's a cutie! She has features in her face I would love!) but I want her, and our site, safe and protected.

(I made the mistake of using my previous username similar, I had one stalkery dude search the hell out of me and found this and all my lists and messaged me. Thankfully he didn't give a fuck to do anything but he COULDVE. And like I said most importantly put the site to risk.

 

[posec]

co poisoning sounds good fill me in on how to do it! i want to kill myself because i'll never be successful and I'm mentally retarded. life has been horrible, because i'm never smart enough and people are the devil. pls message me on how to do it.

thankyou, where is the resources section? Can you send a link? I've already tried co but i don't think my car makes enough to kill me.
View attachment 72159so be honest am i ugly? i'm the one with the dark hair.

You're beautiful, not ugly whatsoever, but like the others said, its really not a good idea to post photos of yourself here.

 

[Remember-Me-Not]

Bruh, you're actually really cute. There's just something about your rosy cheeks and smile that makes you really attractive.

But I'm sorry this is how you are feeling. I know it's hard to have all these negative thoughts and feelings. It took me a long time to realize that my brain was my own bully and we end up being our own worst critic. So please consider the fact that you are just being too harsh on yourself.

I suck at replying, but my messages are open if you want to vent or something.

And the others are right, you should delete your picture. I only say this because there are probably anti-SS people and trolls around here.

 

[Callie Arcale]

Hi there beautiful @Ghost girl

Please message a mod and ask them to delete your photo. It's not safe and you might regret it later.

I wish you all the best

 

[Huntfish34]

You're not ugly at all,. I wish you the best in whatever may happen. Try and keep your head up if possible.

 

[chocolatebar]

People have explained why...but I sort of don't understand the problem with posting pictures. Most don't know of SS and no one's going to figure out where she lives based on a picture. Why is this a really really bad?

One photo alone will hardly be enough to identify someone, but together with information the person exposes here and there, can help. There are many risks, like finding the person through reverse image search and finding useful info in the metadata. In this image, for example, she exposes her image, phone model, date of the photo and the surname of the woman she's with. Not really much, but it all adds up.

 

[Huntfish34]

Damn,. You pretty much summed it up.

I was just going to say I don't see a Major problem with posting a pic, but it comes with risks and just isn't the safest thing to put on a forum such as this.

But hey.... To each their own I suppose? -.

 

[BobMorane]

@Ghost girl If you're going to do things you have to do them right . I don't know where you live but if it's in USA you'll be able to get Sodium Nitrite quite easily. If you have some money, consider buying Nembutal from D. Both are reliable and peaceful deaths.
If you think you're on the edge, don't make a rash decision based on that for the moment. Like others said, checking out Recovery section might do you some good.
PS: you're beautiful !
PS2 : you should really delete that picture, there's ton of information on it bad people could use .