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[Amira]

Dont you feel like sometimes life gives you more and more reasons to ctb rather than giving you more reasons to live. The more i want to ctb and think about it , the more life gets worse. It scares me because it makes me realise that ctb is the only actual option i have. Many people say thst things get better. To me it seems to be getting worse. That fraustrates me alot especially if i dont have my hands on items that gurantee instant death and on top of being umemployed.
I hope that everyday that death would take me away. If i could CTB today then i would be the happiest girl . To be honest i dont even care about afterlife at this point.

 

[LetMeDiePlease]

I totally understand how you feel. I always feel as if there is an invisible hand encouraging me to end my own life by making my life worse and worse than it already is.

 

[Amira]

I totally understand how you feel. I always feel as if there is an invisible hand encouraging me to end my own life by making my life worse and worse than it already is.

Yes that is really true.I feel like that alot theese past months. To add to it my parents seem to be hating me more and more everyday. I guess its good becaise it makes me feel less guilty for wanting to ctb. But it also makes you feel lonely.

 

[Watson]

I feel exactly the same way...

I used to think that "life will get better".. it has to "get better"... and it just keeps getting worse. And it's all out of my control when it gets worse.

What's the point of trying to stay afloat when everything is constantly sinking around me, pulling me down.

For me, my final straw was when my dog died. When everything went to shit, at least I had Watson by my side. And just 2 days ago he died of heart failure.. he was supposed to have 6 months at the very least.. not 6 weeks.

I told myself if he gets taken away from me, then that's my sign to say adios. And well... now it's time. I just need to find the way I wanna ctb.

 

[Sinbad]

YES, I feel the same way myself.
My anxiety is over 9000 every since I dicided on killing myself. It's like a self fulfilling prophecy. Everything is going down hill. My motivation is gone, everything I enjoyed before is exhausting to me. My dreams are effected etc...

 

[Amira]

YES, I feel the same way myself.
My anxiety is over 9000 every since I dicided on killing myself. It's like a self fulfilling prophecy. Everything is going down hill. My motivation is gone, everything I enjoyed before is exhausting to me. My dreams are effected etc...

Yes its like life is saying "You wanna kill yourself? Okay i will give you more reasons too"...Meaning there is no point of return.

 

[Sinbad]

Yes its like life is saying "You wanna kill yourself? Okay i will give you more reasons too"...Meaning there is no point of return.

Haha exactly.. Nature's way of saying stop wasting space.. your not worth it.

 

[Justanotherconsumer]