So close..

[Lilaea]

So close (just waiting for the meto to get out of the airport) and I am genuinely the happiest I have been since my father was still around.. I don't have anyone to talk to about this and share my excitement with since I doubt they wouldn't understand. Does anyone else feel this way?

I'm still debating if I should do the 48 hr regime or do the stat dose. I really want this to work, after each failed attempt and being so hopeful I don't think I can bare waking up again after another failed attempt and deal with the same old stuff again.

 

[woxihuanni]

The regime is more reliable. Wish you peace, your joy breaks my heart...

 

[trynacbt]

I totally get what you mean about the excitement. Last week when I bought my meto there was a stupid grin on my face. No one in my life would understand it--I myself barely understand it. Nuts.

I wish you well. Gonna second @woxihuanni on the 48h regime.

 

[melancholy]

So close (just waiting for the meto to get out of the airport) and I am genuinely the happiest I have been since my father was still around.. I don't have anyone to talk to about this and share my excitement with since I doubt they wouldn't understand. Does anyone else feel this way?

I'm still debating if I should do the 48 hr regime or do the stat dose. I really want this to work, after each failed attempt and being so hopeful I don't think I can bare waking up again after another failed attempt and deal with the same old stuff again.

The nice thing about talking to other messed up people is they can relate and not moralfag you about how you feel.
Can I ask how many attempts with this had there been in past? why did you fail, what went wrong.
Good luck and try have a peaceful exit

 

[Lilaea]

The nice thing about talking to other messed up people is they can relate and not moralfag you about how you feel.
Can I ask how many attempts with this had there been in past? why did you fail, what went wrong.
Good luck and try have a peaceful exit

This is my first time trying with SN, my other attempts have been hanging, car, 3 Tylenol overdoses, drowning. Trying to suffocate myself. Alcohol posioning (hoping I choke on my vomit)

The regime is more reliable. Wish you peace, your joy breaks my heart...

I will take your advice, I'm sorry if I broke your heart. I never want to hurt anyone. Thank you for your wish peace, it means so very much to me.

I totally get what you mean about the excitement. Last week when I bought my meto there was a stupid grin on my face. No one in my life would understand it--I myself barely understand it. Nuts.

I wish you well. Gonna second @woxihuanni on the 48h regime.

Thank you for the well. I will do the 48h regime wondering if I should document it as I have fibromyalgia and other issues see how it react.

 

[okaoki]

i wish you all the luck and everything goes smoothly

 

[Kira]

Hopefully everything will go right this time. SN seems promising. I've been considering that method as well. Good luck!

 

[Haku]

I am glad that you will be well prepared and I wish you nothing but luck and I hope your departure is a painless and peaceful one

 

[heylightiforgot]

This is my first time trying with SN, my other attempts have been hanging, car, 3 Tylenol overdoses, drowning. Trying to suffocate myself. Alcohol posioning (hoping I choke on my vomit)

Why did drowning fail?

 

[Lilaea]

Why did drowning fail?

I was saved by someone. I was able to pretend after a while that I fell in by accident.

 

[heylightiforgot]

I was saved by someone. I was able to pretend after a while that I fell in by accident.

Was it fresh water or salt water? How did it feel before you were rescued? Any pain, terror etc.?

 

[Lilaea]

Was it fresh water or salt water? How did it feel before you were rescued? Any pain, terror etc.?

I'm sorry if my answer isn't the greatest but I don't remember much aside from being in the hospital after and being ask questions. I do remember it was by the river, a spot my ex had taken me before. I wrote in my diary how scared I was since waterboarding was a punishment for me existing when I was younger. So I am deathly afraid of water but my logic was if it something you really want isn't it worth it. I really am sorry i am not much help..


I just got my meto and I've taken my first dose.

 

[Eurus]

You sound happy,I've read about being happy right before you do it,I wish I could be that way,I wish you the luck in this endeavor