So, after much consideration. I'm going to catch the bus soon.

[TheLastGreySky]

I'm going to try partial suspension when my girlfriend goes to work. You know what I believed? My dumbass actually believed that
if I fought enough monsters, I could make up for being one before. I'll try to post a video, if anyone knows a livestreaming site that doesn't require a certain number of likes or fans, please pm me.
*Edit the love of my life showed me how much I had hurt her and I had a full blown breakdown. I am going to wait to see how things play out,
because she just messaged me about us moving forward.

 

[10000DaysTooMany]

I hope you find the peace you need friend.

 

[Centraloze]

Best of luck

 

[TheLastGreySky]

I hope you find the peace you need friend.

I posted this during a breakdown, I'm going to hold off a little longer, but I do what site/app recommendations.

 

[10000DaysTooMany]

I posted this during a breakdown, I'm going to hold off a little longer, but I do what site/app recommendations.

I see. Sorry I don't know much about streaming sites.

 

[TheLastGreySky]

I see. Sorry I don't know much about streaming sites.

I might just leave a "video confession" if you will

 

[oddetoad]

Can you explain how you were a monster please

 

[AtomicWaffles]

When do you plan on doing it? Whenever you do it I wish you the best of luck

 

[TheLastGreySky]

Can you explain how you were a monster please

How much time do you have? I seriously behaved like a sociopath and pursued all my endeavors aggressively. I would step on anyone and anything to feed my hunger. And well, to be vague and yet give you a good enough idea... I had a never ending appetite for destruction. It took the combination of my brother being murdered, my daughter being born and my wife of 12 years (from 17 to 28) leaving me for me to decide to not be the man/beast/trash that I was.

 

[VidFlumina]

I'm going to try partial suspension when my girlfriend goes to work. You know what I believed? My dumbass actually believed that
if I fought enough monsters, I could make up for being one before. I'll try to post a video, if anyone knows a livestreaming site that doesn't require a certain number of likes or fans, please pm me.
*Edit the love of my life showed me how much I had hurt her and I had a full blown breakdown. I am going to wait to see how things play out,
because she just messaged me about us moving forward.

If you care about what your girlfriend feels, then I think you should get a hotel room to commit suicide (from what I understand your gf lives with you). Seeing your dead body could mess her up even more than what you did, she can get PTSD from that. Or she could even save you and there's a possibility you would have to live with permanent brain damage.

 

[TheLastGreySky]

If you care about what your girlfriend feels, then I you should get a hotel room to suicide (from what I understand your gf lives with you). Seeing your dead body could mess her up even more than what you did, she can get PTSD from that. Or she could even save you and there's a possibility you would have to live with permanent brain damage.

I've never been abusive towards this girlfriend, but I honestly am talking with my ex fiancee about starting over from scratch, so I know that no matter what I do, I'm going to end up hurting her. I was considering getting a hold of my ex wife who has a protection order from me and giving her my address so she would call the cops and thus come in with a warrant, all while my gf is at work.
Oh, and if this is confusing...
St = ^Ex wife
Sa = The love of my life my ex fiancée that also wants to get back together with me.
J : my gf,
Ka : The girl I left for J.

I was a whore. I regret it, But Sa is honestly the ONLY person who could stop me from ctb.
I don't think anyone should ctb over a woman, however being with her was the only time in my life has ever felt real. I had broken a pinky by shattering a car windshield (my dumbass didn't know the bottom was the hardest part) and I seriously looked at my hand and said "Huh, fuckin' neat" and proceeded to continue.
I really don't feel anything outside of being with her. I'm not trying to a hypocrite. I just found a hot little red head who likes anime and making love all day everyday.
AND she listens to my long ass tangents.

 

[VidFlumina]

I've never been abusive towards this girlfriend, but I honestly am talking with my ex fiancee about starting over from scratch, so I know that no matter what I do, I'm going to end up hurting her. I was considering getting a hold of my ex wife who has a protection order from me and giving her my address so she would call the cops and thus come in with a warrant, all while my gf is at work.
Oh, and if this is confusing...
St = ^Ex wife
Sa = The love of my life my ex fiancée that also wants to get back together with me.
J : my gf,
Ka : The girl I left for J.

I was a whore. I regret it, But Sa is honestly the ONLY person who could stop me from ctb.
I don't think anyone should ctb over a woman, however being with her was the only time in my life has ever felt real. I had broken a pinky by shattering a car windshield (my dumbass didn't know the bottom was the hardest part) and I seriously looked at my hand and said "Huh, fuckin' neat" and proceeded to continue.
I really don't feel anything outside of being with her. I'm not trying to a hypocrite. I just found a hot little red head who likes anime and making love all day everyday.
AND she listens to my long ass tangents.

If you feel like going back to Sa would make your life worth living again, then I think it would be idea to try. Breaking up with your current gf would hurt her but I think it would be a right thing to do if you consider another woman the love of your life. You asked in previous posts about site recommendation and I don't know any either. Good luck, best wishes.

 

[TheLastGreySky]

If you feel like going back to Sa would make your life worth living again, then I think it would be idea to try. Breaking up with your current gf would hurt her but I think it would be a right thing to do if you consider another woman the love of your life. You asked in previous posts about site recommendation and I don't know any either. Good luck, best wishes.

Thank you, I really appreciate it. It's heartwarming for us to do this little back and forth of memories (and some are really naughty) I actually was playing footsies with her while my lawyer was telling us how I was going to go to prison. She's perfect, and I hope everyone finds a love like this, but please... don't make the mistakes I did.