So a few months ago I made a post about ODing in front of someoone..

[Walilamdzii]

There was a lot of response like surely it won't work because they will get medical intervention. So I've adapted my plan and I'm planning to superglue my body to the top of their vehicle in the night and then take the overdose, which would make it difficult for the medical intervention to take place, because I will be superglued to the vehicle. This is because I deem him culpable and I am also planning to write and publicise something to that effect, using my suicide to draw attention to the things that have happened.

I'm still trying to work out what overdose to take, and my preference is fentanyl but at the moment I can't source it. It is very easy to obtain glue that would affix my body instantaneously to the vehicle, protestors do this all the time.

What do you think?

Walilamdzi

 

[Judy Garland]

Superglue yourself to the top of their vehicle.........mmmmmkaaaaay?

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Well, to be truthful, I'm not really sure what to think about this. If your reasoning was just to thwart intervention, then I could see this as valid. But, you mention that it is coupled with that as a means of getting back at this someone to send them a message about their culpability in bringing you to this point in your life. I don't know. I guess for me it's just not a way I'd want to go out. I don't want to go out casting blame on anyone for my woes. I understand your reasons may be perfectly valid. It really comes down to if it's what you want to do and how you want to go out. Will this person even understand the message? Is there going to be some sort of note left, also, that explains the message you are sending to this person? These are all very personal decisions and you need to do what is best for you. I think I just want to get out, maybe on as high a note I can. I don't want to blame anyone. But, in your case, I have no idea what they did to you, so maybe it is warranted. You'll have to decide that. I wish you the best and hope you find the peace you seek however you need to.

 

[Walilamdzii]

Well, to be truthful, I'm not really sure what to think about this. If your reasoning was just to thwart intervention, then I could see this as valid. But, you mention that it is coupled with that as a means of getting back at this someone to send them a message about their culpability in bringing you to this point in your life. I don't know. I guess for me it's just not a way I'd want to go out. I don't want to go out casting blame on anyone for my woes. I understand your reasons may be perfectly valid. It really comes down to if it's what you want to do and how you want to go out. Will this person even understand the message? Is there going to be some sort of note left, also, that explains the message you are sending to this person? These are all very personal decisions and you need to do what is best for you. I think I just want to get out, maybe on as high a note I can. I don't want to blame anyone. But, in your case, I have no idea what they did to you, so maybe it is warranted. You'll have to decide that. I wish you the best and hope you find the peace you seek however you need to.

Well basically they were abusive towards me in a sexual context, so I was going to outline that and the various narcissistic gaslighting behaviours/unpleasant sexual experiences in a very detailed online post or blog and I was going to name names because there are a string of other victims essentially but they deny everything. But I think that if I did a stunt like this, then essentially it would be enough to make quite a lot of people talk and some would think I was just unstable but I think some people might get that someone wouldn't end their own life over nothing. So I was thinking of ruining his reputation for the rest of his life in the way that the trauma I have experienced has destroyed my ability to function normally.

Superglue yourself to the top of their vehicle.........mmmmmkaaaaay?

Yes. I want by their residence to be flooded with ambulances/police cars and for it to be a pain in the ass to remove my dead body.

 

[SamTam33]

They might rip you off the top of the car since they get real aggressive when trying to save lives.

They pull people from twisted piles of burning steel at crash sites.They just might snatch you off the roof and leave chunks of your skin behind. Or climb up there and administer aid where you lay.

Also, I'm not sure how you'd OD if you've already glued yourself down. Could you explain in a little more detail the logistics of this plan? TIA

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Well basically they were abusive towards me in a sexual context, so I was going to outline that and the various narcissistic gaslighting behaviours/unpleasant sexual experiences in a very detailed online post or blog and I was going to name names because there are a string of other victims essentially but they deny everything. But I think that if I did a stunt like this, then essentially it would be enough to make quite a lot of people talk and some would think I was just unstable but I think some people might get that someone wouldn't end their own life over nothing. So I was thinking of ruining his reputation for the rest of his life in the way that the trauma I have experienced has destroyed my ability to function normally.

I honestly can't say I blame you. You certainly need not justify your actions to me, only to yourself. That's really all that matters at this stage. Truth be told, I know I'd want to do the same thing if in your circumstances. You need to find your peace. I hope you find your peace.

 

[Walilamdzii]

They might rip you off the top of the car since they get real aggressive when trying to save lives.

They pull people from twisted piles of burning steel at crash sites.They just might snatch you off the roof and leave chunks of your skin behind. Or climb up there and administer aid where you lay.

Also, I'm not sure how you'd OD if you've already glued yourself down. Could you explain in a little more detail the logistics of this plan? TIA

So I was thinking of obtaining something in pill form, finding one of the five potential vehicles to affix myself to.. depending on the vehicle, I would either be able to climb onto it really easily or would also need to carry a fold-out ladder.

Then I was going to get a large amount of glue and glue down both my legs, and maybe more but leave one arm free... so if it was pill form, I would be able to take it with one arm free.

I'm not sure a normal paramedic would be equipped with the tools to do that? I mean, they seem to have quite a lot of trouble removing protestors so I was thinking that they quite possibly literally can't pull you off if you have securely glued yourself?

I also thought it would be funnier to try to glue myself to the windscreen, but also more likely to be caught. But it's quite quiet in the early hours of the morning so I was also relying on not really being noticed until the OD had happened RE being saved, etc.

I honestly can't say I blame you. You certainly need not justify your actions to me, only to yourself. That's really all that matters at this stage. Truth be told, I know I'd want to do the same thing if in your circumstances. You need to find your peace. I hope you find your peace.

I mean I have a lot of time to plan this, because it doesn't need to happen immediately and I would need to write something quite detailed. I don't really need to be convincing, because I'm articulate and I'm not having to write anything fictitious because it all happened so I'm literally just writing from the heart, really. At every point, he has made my life incalculably worse. I mean I think it would raise a few eyebrows if I executed this plan, it isn't every day that someone finds a corpse superglued to their van.

 

[LookingOverTheEdge]

I would strongly advise against this. I don't know what country you're from, though I think I could hazard a guess, but I genuinely believe that if your life is at stake, they will just rip you clean off and sort out that damage after they've stabilised you.
I'm sorry that life has brought you to this point.

 

[Walilamdzii]

I would strongly advise against this. I don't know what country you're from, though I think I could hazard a guess, but I genuinely believe that if your life is at stake, they will just rip you clean off and sort out that damage after they've stabilised you.
I'm sorry that life has brought you to this point.

Right okay, that sounds pretty uncomfortable. In which case I would definitely find the vehicle when it was parked somewhere where the OD would take place before anyone would notice, if I could find something fast-acting. Thanks for the sympathy.

 

[LookingOverTheEdge]

Right okay, that sounds pretty uncomfortable. In which case I would definitely find the vehicle when it was parked somewhere where the OD would take place before anyone would notice, if I could find something fast-acting. Thanks for the sympathy.

That's the thing about this place I think, we all have our own unique hells, but we're all suffering, and that creates empathy.
I wouldn't want you to suffer unnecessarily.
Whatever you do, I hope you find some peace

 

[Walilamdzii]

That's the thing about this place I think, we all have our own unique hells, but we're all suffering, and that creates empathy.
I wouldn't want you to suffer unnecessarily.
Whatever you do, I hope you find some peace

Yeah well I'm at that point really where a cessation of bodily functions would kind of be winning.

 

[LookingOverTheEdge]

Yeah well I'm at that point really where a cessation of bodily functions would kind of be winning.

Fully understand that. I'm the same myself. But I know for a fact if and when I decide to go, I definitely wouldn't want to wake up in a hospital missing a lot of flesh. I believe a person has a right to choose to die if that's what they wish, and I wouldn't take that from you. I just wouldn't want you to suffer

 

[Walilamdzii]

Fully understand that. I'm the same myself. But I know for a fact if and when I decide to go, I definitely wouldn't want to wake up in a hospital missing a lot of flesh. I believe a person has a right to choose to die if that's what they wish, and I wouldn't take that from you. I just wouldn't want you to suffer

That's definitely a point. Maybe there would be some other way to generate a lot of drama. But that was the main way that I came up with of generating inconvenience through my death.

 

[Walilamdzii]

I'm just bumping this in case anyone else has any inspiration for this.

 

[almaranthine]

does this person you are trying to get revenge on have a security system? If you survived do you think you would face charges for property damage and trespassing? It's just something to think about. I'm sorry they have harmed you and caused you so much suffering.

 

[makethepainstop]

There was a lot of response like surely it won't work because they will get medical intervention. So I've adapted my plan and I'm planning to superglue my body to the top of their vehicle in the night and then take the overdose, which would make it difficult for the medical intervention to take place, because I will be superglued to the vehicle. This is because I deem him culpable and I am also planning to write and publicise something to that effect, using my suicide to draw attention to the things that have happened.

I'm still trying to work out what overdose to take, and my preference is fentanyl but at the moment I can't source it. It is very easy to obtain glue that would affix my body instantaneously to the vehicle, protestors do this all the time.

What do you think?

Walilamdzi

Have you considered industrial-grade epoxy as an adhesive? Some varieties have a shear strength of 2000 pounds per square inch!

 

[Walilamdzii]

does this person you are trying to get revenge on have a security system? If you survived do you think you would face charges for property damage and trespassing? It's just something to think about. I'm sorry they have harmed you and caused you so much suffering.

There would be cctv because they're in a city, I wouldn't have to trespass though because they park on the road.