Sn while drunk

[forgotten15]

I don't know if this question was answered before, but I am wondering if I can take sn while drunk? Of course with the min 8 hour fast. Being drunk it's the only way I can overcome SI, this is why I am asking.
I can't do it anymore, I really need to put an end to my suffering.

 

[Well-Edited Chaos]

You could, but there are risks - mix up the SN wrong, don't drink it / all of it, vomit (more / more easily), don't drink a second glass if you vomit, knock the glass over before you've drunk any of it, etc.

 

[forgotten15]

You could, but there are risks - mix up the SN wrong, don't drink it / all of it, vomit (more / more easily), don't drink a second glass if you vomit, knock the glass over before you've drunk any of it, etc.

Thank for taking the time to answer. I knew there are risks but I am so tormented, all I think about is how to make the courage to ctb, my SI is so strong. I fear what there may be after death. But I can't go on like this any longer, I just have to do it so I can be free.

 

[Well-Edited Chaos]

I'm sorry you're in so much pain, and I wish I had sthg to offer that would be truly helpful (ie, more than those empty words).

 

[forgotten15]

I'm sorry you're in so much pain, and I wish I had sthg to offer that would be truly helpful (ie, more than those empty words).

Thank you, but nothing can fix me. I just want to dissappear, this life has been so horrible to me I cannot express. I will wait for the alchool to go away from my blood then will try to take sn. I hope I will have the courage to take it tomorrow. I need peace.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I think the reason why people suggest only taking the 50 ml of water is so the SN can absorbed easier as opposed to having other stuff in your system.

 

[wljourney]

Alcohol is a downer. It makes you feel sad and hopeless on top of your already existing sadness.
Maybe by the time you are sober you feel a bit less awful?
CTB should be a clear headed, rational decision. Not in a drunken stupor when the alcohol is talking.

Wishing you weren't in so much emotional agony.

Hugs

 

[forgotten15]

I think the reason why people suggest only taking the 50 ml of water is so the SN can absorbed easier as opposed to having other stuff in your system.

Yes, you are right. I was just hoping it will go well even if I am drunk k. It's stupid of me to think it will work if I have alcohol in my system. I am just so desperate to end it I don't know what to do. I am bipolar and severely depressed, but ny SI is extreme and is the reason why I haven't ctb yet.

Alcohol is a downer. It makes you feel sad and hopeless on top of your already existing sadness.
Maybe by the time you are sober you feel a bit less awful?
CTB should be a clear headed, rational decision. Not in a drunken stupor when the alcohol is talking.

Wishing you weren't in so much emotional agony.

Hugs

I am just a shadow honestly. Sober or not, the suffering I have endured in This life plus my mental illness give me no other option than to ctb. I have been suicidal all my life, it's just the fear of the unknown that it's holding me back. When i am drunk SI is diminished, but Even if I asked, I know taking sn while drunk is dangerous and 90% won't end good. I will wait until tomorrow to get the alcohol out of my system. I hope I will end my pain tomorrow.

 

[wljourney]

So very painful and exhausting.
What do you think: Would benzoes make you less suicidal while alcohol lowers that SI threshold?
TBH I don't think the alcohol would lower the likelihood of SN working. I'd just be worried about vomiting most up. That's when things get messy.

And yes, I understand your situation completely. It's been decades for me too and I'm ready to find peace.

I hope you get through this today. Make a decision with a clear head. If you can. But I understand if it all feels too much.

 

[forgotten15]

So very painful and exhausting.
What do you think: Would benzoes make you less suicidal while alcohol lowers that SI threshold?

I don't have acces to benzos unfortunately. I barely managed to get sn and meto. I live in such a shitty country it's hard to get these meds. But you know, The thing is nothing will ever help me. I suffered all my life. I am so alone and unwanted. Never felt love, never knew what happiness is. I am sorry, I am just breaking down you know.. I can't do it anymore, I am mentally ill and nothing will ever repair me. I just want all these feelings to go away. I need to sleep forever. I am so broken
I have sn from IC. Bought it in february. I saw a recent thread made be someone who had it from IC and didn't succed. I am afraid it is not legit. I will litteraly find the tallest building and throw my self from there of IC sn wont work. I am desperate.

 

[wljourney]

Yes I understand. i know the despair but also how a deep depression makes us remember only the shitty things and cancels out the good memories. The black and white thinking is quite painful and dangerous, but I'm sure you know that too.
The cycling from lowest low to highest high is so extremely exhausting.

I am very very sorry to hear that you can't see another way out. To be honest, I am not going to tell you there is. Often times there simply are no options left.
All therapies tried.
I don't blame you for not having the energy to continue to fight.

Sleep. For now. Tackle the rest tomorrow.

 

[forgotten15]

Yes I understand. i know the despair but also how a deep depression makes us remember only the shitty things and cancels out the good memories. The black and white thinking is quite painful and dangerous, but I'm sure you know that too.
The cycling from lowest low to highest high is so extremely exhausting.

I am very very sorry to hear that you can't see another way out. To be honest, I am not going to tell you there is. Often times there simply are no options left.
All therapies tried.
I don't blame you for not having the energy to continue to fight.

Sleep. For now. Tackle the rest tomorrow.

Your soul is so beautiful
Thank you for your kind words and for understanding me. It is what I need right now.

 

[wljourney]

That thread was very possibly a scam. So please don't take SN assuming it won't work.
It very very likely will and it will end your life. Just make sure that's what you want. Without the influence of alcohol.

 

[forgotten15]

That thread was very possibly a scam. So please don't take SN assuming it won't work.
It very very likely will and it will end your life. Just make sure that's what you want. Without the influence of alcohol.

Thank you! Honestly I had the same feeling, that it was a scam, but it stiill worried me you know. At least knowing this Sn is legit gives me comfort, my faith is in my hands and no one can take this from me. I will be free, it's just a matter of time, just to gather the courage to drink it. I really hope I will drink it tomorrow. There is nothing left for me here. I need eternal peace, i hope nothing bad awaits for me after death…

 

[wljourney]

Yes knowing that I have a way out means I am reclaiming a piece of control and power that I lost to my illness. Just knowing that you have a bit of control is often enough to make it through one more day. It's a tool of self-empowerment.

You'll get there. Be kind to yourself and give yourself the time to get to that point where you know it's right. And if today isn't that day, that's ok. You deserve to choose the best time. You deserve to make the best decision for you.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

I get it. I drink a goddawful lot myself and it's hard to imagine catching the bus sober but I guess with the ol' suicide salt you kinda have to. Though I did once make a thread considering mixing it with tequila ('cause salt goes well with tequila) but that thread didn't go down too well so I don't know. I guess I always figured there'd have to be a fast but then maybe I could take a couple of shots but that's just me.

 

[forgotten15]

I get it. I drink a goddawful lot myself and it's hard to imagine catching the bus sober but I guess with the ol' suicide salt you kinda have to. Though I did once make a thread considering mixing it with tequila ('cause salt goes well with tequila) but that thread didn't go down too well so I don't know. I guess I always figured there'd have to be a fast but then maybe I could take a couple of shots but that's just me.

I my head I knew it would be bad mixing it with alcohol…The thing is when I am drunk i feel much more determined to end it and my SI is diminished. I guess I have no choice than to take it when I am sober. This sucks so bad

 

[Sobreviviente]

I don't have acces to benzos unfortunately. I barely managed to get sn and meto. I live in such a shitty country it's hard to get these meds. But you know, The thing is nothing will ever help me. I suffered all my life. I am so alone and unwanted. Never felt love, never knew what happiness is. I am sorry, I am just breaking down you know.. I can't do it anymore, I am mentally ill and nothing will ever repair me. I just want all these feelings to go away. I need to sleep forever. I am so broken
I have sn from IC. Bought it in february. I saw a recent thread made be someone who had it from IC and didn't succed. I am afraid it is not legit. I will litteraly find the tallest building and throw my self from there of IC sn wont work. I am desperate.

I'm sorry for asking, but does IC ship to EU? What country does it ship from, Poland or Canada? Still have too few posts to write PM

 

[_Minsk]

I know that diazepam causes this drunk feeling to me, i will take a few before i ctb, maybe you could try to get them as replacement. I got them prescribed for panic attacks.
I'm also sad that I can't take alcohol with sn, it helps so much with si

 

[forgotten15]

I know that diazepam causes this drunk feeling to me, i will take a few before i ctb, maybe you could try to get them as replacement. I got them prescribed for panic attacks.
I'm also sad that I can't take alcohol with sn, it helps so much with si

Thank you for your advice. I would take diazepam if I had it, but unfortunately it's absolutely impossible for me to get it. All I have is sn, meto, rennie and concor(for heart palpitations).
I prepared 2 glasses with 50 ml room temperature water and didn't eat anything since yesterday. I was sleepy all day today from yesterday's alchool and from being so depressed. I don't know what to do, I have no reason to live any longer but dying is so hard and emotional

 

[forgotten15]

I'm sorry for asking, but does IC ship to EU? What country does it ship from, Poland or Canada? Still have too few posts to write PM

Hi, it's all on the site. I bought it in february and they shipped to eu at that time, I don't think something changed in that aspect in the meantime

 

[y0dha]

I fully understand you, I have the same issue, I've been preparing my ctb for 3 months but i can't get to do it due to SI even though I know i'm destroyed physically and mentally...
Only when I drink I have the courage to do it.
I'm still wandering if it should work though cause the only thing would be that it prolongate the time of absorbtion and increase risk of vomiting.
But anyway if vomiting is an issue i can still take more SN so that shouldn't be a problem.
Time of absorbtion might be more of a concern though because I'll feel the effects of SN for longer

I don't know in the end I'm still thinking it should work with alcohol

 

[london3]

@forgotten15

I would not recommend alcohol for you to stay calm when you are killing yourself.

Have you thought about other medicines like diazepam or propranolol to help relax you? Many other users have successfully used the drugs to stay calm and overcome survival instinct.

Or please research other medicines for anxiety that will help you