Help SN vomiting- abandon or keep going?

[trynacbt]

I too will try to take in more SN if I throw up, though I'm worried I may be found if my retching is too loud. Still, I think the process of going through the regimen, mentally preparing, etc is too taxing for me to give up because of some nausea.

 

[BleedingHeart]

@BleedingHeart If the phone has any sort of battery life it can be tracked nowadays. I've read a story or two on here even of members being located like this. One had said the police contacted Google to track down the phone and ultimately intervene in the attempt.

I plan to leave any traceable devices as far away as possible before any such attempt. Any sort of intervention could potentially render the attempt pointless in the first place.

That's what I was concerned about. It's just that I would like to have it with me for at least a portion of the day I sneak away so that I could possibly stall if husband/family tried contacting me. My memory is not great right now either so I'm trying to write down each step I need to take along the way for the day of; maybe I could keep phone for part of day and then leave it somewhere. I'd have to make sure I wouldn't need any last minute comfort etc. from this community before leaving phone somewhere. I'd hate to get to my destination and then have a question. Need to get all my ducks in a row.

thanks. I thought midnight was good for me because it would be easier to lay down and just imagine myself going to sleep and of course having all night to pass with less chance of interruption of any kind. I know I can adjust things I guess I'm just talking it all out and trying to formulate what's best for my situation.

And crap, @Brick In The Wall i just thought about them possibly tracking my car by GPS! Shit. I need GPS to get where I'm going. Ugh so many things to consider! I guess I'd have to already know how to get to where I'm going and then leave phone and GPS elsewhere.

I too will try to take in more SN if I throw up, though I'm worried I may be found if my retching is too loud. Still, I think the process of going through the regimen, mentally preparing, etc is too taxing for me to give up because of some nausea.

I feel the same.

 

[fightingsioux]

I think you need to take yourselves on a case by case basis. I will say that if you factor in failing as part of your plan, then you will likely fail and that brings a whole new world of worry. I never like to use the word 'attempt' as it means I am considering failure. I am going to do it and I will be successful because I know the aftermath of being caught or calling for help through the stories here are a new level of Hell. So yeah, there is a chance of being sick. I will keep going until its done. 50ml in reality is not a lot to keep down, especially if you have done the fast and not drunk any liquid for a couple of hours.

Being prepared for when things go a bit wrong is good (like having more than one glass of SN) but planning for failure such as having your phone nearby to call for help or doing it at a time that you think is a good chance you will be found is not. If you find yourself in the second camp, then I would suggest you are not ready for any method and should look at a more positive way of getting the attention you may be looking for.

You couldn't be more correct when it comes to the human psyche. If you think you can you're right; if you think you can't you're right.

As a much more minor example than CTB, I was a distance runner and coached distance runners for many years. Many people come to the starting line with an excuse already tucked into their waistbands (figuratively speaking). They've got an excuse prepared, it's in their mind, just in case: "I was sick/I hurt my leg/it was too hot/it was too cold/the course was too hilly/the course was too flat", on & on & on.

If you've got a prepared excuse in the back of your mind (tucked into your waistband so to speak), when things get tough, when the race is at its most difficult point, when you're feeling your absolute worst, you will pull out that excuse and use it. Guaranteed.

You must come to the line with no excuses.

 

[BleedingHeart]

You couldn't be more correct when it comes to the human psyche. If you think you can you're right; if you think you can't you're right.

As a much more minor example than CTB, I was a distance runner and coached distance runners for many years. Many people come to the starting line with an excuse already tucked into their waistbands (figuratively speaking). They've got an excuse prepared, it's in their mind, just in case: "I was sick/I hurt my leg/it was too hot/it was too cold/the course was too hilly/the course was too flat", on & on & on.

If you've got a prepared excuse in the back of your mind (tucked into your waistband so to speak), when things get tough, when the race is at its most difficult point, when you're feeling your absolute worst, you will pull out that excuse and use it. Guaranteed.

You must come to the line with no excuses.

I totally get that but for some of us it's easier said than done when you've spent your life not being able to trust your mind and doing what you said- not making excuses. It's hard not to think of what ifs and trying to make a solid plan. I want to get there.