SN Tonight: I’m finally leaving!

[riven1431]

All of my plan as come to fruition. Got an anta-acid and antiemetic from my doctor today. Just waiting for the SN to get delivered tonight at around 6pm. I'm doing a one day regime using zofran as an antiemetic cuz i'm already on an antipsychotic med that works as a beta blocker. And then i'm using omeprazole as the anta-acid. What i don't know to do this successfully is how much of the anta acid should i take before the sn. The antiemetic i took gave me a euphoric and dizzy experience, really makes you feel good about ctbing, so ill prolly take like 60mg in my final hour. Wish me luck guys

 

[WhyIsLife56]

Good luck and hope things go well :)

 

[Squiddy]

I wish you peace

 

[Hotsackage]

Gl and pleasant journey

 

[riven1431]

I will keep you guys posted about the effects of doing a 1day regime. I would have done 2 days but i'm just too impatient to wait that long. About 6-7hrs till i ctb, going to take one more antiemetic

 

[reapandsow918]

Rest easy!

 

[LMLN]

I pray you find the peace you desire. ❤❤❤

 

[lymestolemylife]

You're brave, I need to make up my mind to do this, I hope all goes well and you find rest with what you decide. Thanks for posting about 24 hr. I can't imagine doing two days of this. I need it to be done and final. I can't have my husband knowing either and need to pick the best day, it can't be 2 days. I will get emotional and psych out, I love him too much, only doing this because I have Lyme and other Parasites and will never get better. Just getting worse all the time. Anyway thank you very much. Hope you have peace with your decision whatever that is, and if you change your mind thats ok too.

 

[riven1431]

You're brave, I need to make up my mind to do this, I hope all goes well and you find rest with what you decide. Thanks for posting about 24 hr. I can't imagine doing two days of this. I need it to be done and final. I can't have my husband knowing either and need to pick the best day, it can't be 2 days. I will get emotional and psych out, I love him too much, only doing this because I have Lyme and other Parasites and will never get better. Just getting worse all the time. Anyway thank you very much. Hope you have peace with your decision whatever that is, and if you change your mind thats ok too.

To be honest i was scared at first when i thought potassium cyanide was the only way to go quick and fast and maybe a bit painful, but then i read others who ctb'd on sn without any pain, and that finally gave me the courage to do it without hesitation. The only people i care about don't want anything to do with me, so what's the point of staying any longer lol

 

[LonelyLight]

Very best of luck to you. I hope your journey is peaceful

 

[lymestolemylife]

To be honest i was scared at first when i thought potassium cyanide was the only way to go quick and fast and maybe a bit painful, but then i read others who ctb'd on sn without any pain, and that finally gave me the courage to do it without hesitation. The only people i care about don't want anything to do with me, so what's the point of staying any longer lol

I'm sorry to hear about your loved ones. Sn scares me lol i'm so psyched out probably because I don't really want to do it I love my family but I am being faced with the realization i'm NEVER going to get better and my symptoms are daily Hell, ITS TIME. I had a target for November and here we are already in December. Life sucks eh? Sorry it has brought you to this point. How are you feeling?

 

[domedune]

Please have safety and rest, ok?

 

[riven1431]

I'm sorry to hear about your loved ones. Sn scares me lol i'm so psyched out probably because I don't really want to do it I love my family but I am being faced with the realization i'm NEVER going to get better and my symptoms are daily Hell, ITS TIME. I had a target for November and here we are already in December. Life sucks eh? Sorry it has brought you to this point. How are you feeling?

I love my fAmily too that's why i'm doing this. From what i believe feelings don't change until something drastic or dramatic happens. So i'm going to do this so they can feel the pain they put me through, and cuz i believe in reincarnation i know this is going to be my final life or i will just come back as a new born member of the same family just different ties. I'm feeling pretty good cuz of zofran, it's already giving me the euphoric feeling of dying so i feel pretty good about ctbing with SN

 

[jgm63]

You were asking about how much antacid ?

Spoiler: sn-a-comprehensive-guide-including-method

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sn-a-comprehensive-guide-including-method.25148

Stan's guide says : "Double dose of what is recommended on the label of the antacid."

If you decide to proceed then safe travels and sweet dreams


Note : As always, please note that I strongly encourage you to seek help with whatever is troubling you. With the right help things can improve. There are many sources of help if you look and reach out. Please seek assistance in any and every way possible. You alone must decide upon your actions and take full responsibility for them, and you should always favour seeking help and keeping out of harm's way.

 

[riven1431]

I'm sorry to hear about your loved ones. Sn scares me lol i'm so psyched out probably because I don't really want to do it I love my family but I am being faced with the realization i'm NEVER going to get better and my symptoms are daily Hell, ITS TIME. I had a target for November and here we are already in December. Life sucks eh? Sorry it has brought you to this point. How are you feeling?

You'll know when you're ready. You'll know because there will be nothing else you can do to improve the situation or life you want so your only choice will be to start again

 

[lymestolemylife]

I love my fAmily too that's why i'm doing this. From what i believe feelings don't change until something drastic or dramatic happens. So i'm going to do this so they can feel the pain they put me through, and cuz i believe in reincarnation i know this is going to be my final life or i will just come back as a new born member of the same family just different ties. I'm feeling pretty good cuz of zofran, it's already giving me the euphoric feeling of dying so i feel pretty good about ctbing with SN

I know about family pain my Mom and Dad put me through hell, I survived it though after a wayward time, and was happy till I caught Lyme, I think Life just really wants to kill me it wont stop until i'm dead. Do you want to die for you or for them? How much zofran are you taking? Glad you are feeling ok.

You'll know when you're ready. You'll know because there will be nothing else you can do to improve the situation or life you want so your only choice will be to start again

I'm at that point, I just have to make the decision to pull the trigger. Nothing helps nothing makes it better, i'm always sick and terribly disabled. Just have to decide on when i'm going to do it.

 

[riven1431]

You were asking about how much antacid ?

Spoiler: sn-a-comprehensive-guide-including-method

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sn-a-comprehensive-guide-including-method.25148

Stan's guide says : "Double dose of what is recommended on the label of the antacid."

If you decide to proceed then safe travels and sweet dreams


Note : As always, please note that I strongly encourage you to seek help with whatever is troubling you. With the right help things can improve. There are many sources of help if you look and reach out. Please seek assistance in any and every way possible. You alone must decide upon your actions and take full responsibility for them, and you should always favour seeking help and keeping out of harm's way.

My grandfather is white, my father is black. My white family doesn't want anything to do with the black family, and the black family doesn't want anything to do with the white family. I thought i could heal this rift but i only made it worse. I sacrificed a year of my life just to do this and failed. I my family was all that mattered to me, ive got no more reason to live

 

[lymestolemylife]

My grandfather is white, my father is black. My white family doesn't want anything to do with the black family, and the black family doesn't want anything to do with the white family. I thought i could heal this rift but i only made it worse. I sacrificed a year of my life just to do this and failed. I my family was all that mattered to me, ive got no more reason to live

Wow that's intense. Thats a noble cause for you to try.

 

[riven1431]

I know about family pain my Mom and Dad put me through hell, I survived it though after a wayward time, and was happy till I caught Lyme, I think Life just really wants to kill me it wont stop until i'm dead. Do you want to die for you or for them? How much zofran are you taking? Glad you are feeling ok.

I'm at that point, I just have to make the decision to pull the trigger. Nothing helps nothing makes it better, i'm always sick and terribly disabled. Just have to decide on when i'm going to do it.

I didn't

I know about family pain my Mom and Dad put me through hell, I survived it though after a wayward time, and was happy till I caught Lyme, I think Life just really wants to kill me it wont stop until i'm dead. Do you want to die for you or for them? How much zofran are you taking? Glad you are feeling ok.

I'm at that point, I just have to make the decision to pull the trigger. Nothing helps nothing makes it better, i'm always sick and terribly disabled. Just have to decide on when i'm going to do it.

I know i feel the same way. At first i was a happy go lucky type of person brightening the day of everyone cuz everything went well with me. Then i realized my true purpose in life was to heal the rift in my family. So i gave everything up to find out how i can accomplish that purpose. But after giving everything up, nothing would work. cant get a job, can't find a place to live in even though i have the money, no business venture ever worked out after that, so i'm pretty sure there's nothing more i can do

 

[Time]

Sorry that you've been brought to this point but, if you decide to go through with this, I hope that your transition goes as smoothly & as peacefully as possible. I'm rooting for you either way, riven1431.

 

[riven1431]

Sorry that you've been brought to this point but, if you decide to go through with this, I hope that your transition goes as smoothly & as peacefully as possible. I'm rooting for you either way, riven1431.

Sorry that you've been brought to this point but, if you decide to go through with this, I hope that your transition goes as smoothly & as peacefully as possible. I'm rooting for you either way, riven1431.

Thanks a lot! I love how you can get support here for ctb, it's such a touchy subject no one wants to hear you say the word ctb, but in reality no one is really ok, and some of not all should be allowed to if they feel they are done

Wow that's intense. Thats a noble cause for you to try.

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Wow that's intense. Thats a noble cause for you to try.

I thought noble causes were worth fighting for, and it will be once i can ctb cuz it will affect both sides i know that for a fact cuz i think they all just want me to choose a side when in reality i got the best of both worlds

 

[Azzy69]

Hope your passing is peaceful friend
We are here if you decide to wait a bit longer xx

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

So sorry you came to this point. I wish you the best in whatever you decide to do. Hope you find peace

 

[Ark]

I hope you find the peace you deserve no matter how.

 

[enjoy]

rest well. i hope you find the peace you deserve. x

 

[Time]

Thanks a lot! I love how you can get support here for ctb, it's such a touchy subject no one wants to hear you say the word ctb, but in reality no one is really ok, and some of not all should be allowed to if they feel they are done

Completely agree. It's a comforting to be able to talk about this stuff.

 

[LegaliseIt!]

Sending peaceful and thoughts

 

[riven1431]

I'm having my last conversations with my best friend. He loves me so much no matter how i treat him(good/bad) he still respects me. I can't tell him what i'm about to do, but ill try to make our last moments memorable

 

[EmptyArms]

I'm having my last conversations with my best friend. He loves me so much no matter how i treat him(good/bad) he still respects me. I can't tell him what i'm about to do, but ill try to make our last moments memorable

Maybe you can let him know so he can comfort you and you wont be alone. Its lovely that you have a friend who accepts you no matter what .

 

[barty1013]

You're brave, I need to make up my mind to do this, I hope all goes well and you find rest with what you decide. Thanks for posting about 24 hr. I can't imagine doing two days of this. I need it to be done and final. I can't have my husband knowing either and need to pick the best day, it can't be 2 days. I will get emotional and psych out, I love him too much, only doing this because I have Lyme and other Parasites and will never get better. Just getting worse all the time. Anyway thank you very much. Hope you have peace with your decision whatever that is, and if you change your mind thats ok too.

I have Lyme also, among other things. It is very difficult, I'm sorry for anyone who goes thru it.