imsorrybear
Member
- Apr 3, 2020
- 22
Im about halfway through stans 48 hour SN regimen. Meto gives me heightened anxiety and some weird side effects which makes me feel like shit and im so scared ill back out because i really have nothing much left to give to my loved ones or myself. Im loved but ive got nothing to give . Im useless. I want to go but im so nervous, and metos side effevts on me are not helping haha.
Anyway, tested my SN with an aquarium nitrite test kit (+ve), wiped browser, search and youtube history as well as laptop files. Threw out suicide note drafts, and things thatll be useless after i die. Yeah thats about it ... Im scared.
Anyway, tested my SN with an aquarium nitrite test kit (+ve), wiped browser, search and youtube history as well as laptop files. Threw out suicide note drafts, and things thatll be useless after i die. Yeah thats about it ... Im scared.