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Hello everybody. I signed up on this site like 3 years ago - but, as my health has wavered, I kind of hung on. Now finally, look's like it's time. SN is the only option available to me. I have stripped down Stan's guide on here to the following steps:
The right time to go here, is about 11:00 PM. So, this what I have:

t - 8 hours (2-3 PM): Fast - stop solid foods
t - 2 hours (9PM): Stop liquids and preferably even water
t - 1 hour: Acetaminophen
t - 45 minutes: Anti-emetic
t - 30 minutes: Acidity pills
t: 30g SN in 50 ml water. 2 more glasses from 2 other sources (TBD) as back-up.

One other thing. I am a big, muscular guy. Around 280 lbs, 6' with a generally fast metabolism. Do I need more than 30g?
Personally: I never throw up or stuff, got a stomach for anything. Zero risk of anyone finding me. No one may even find me gone for days. Plan is to take it, and start up some binge-watch on Netflix, and just slip away.

Could people who know this well confirm if this is enough?
Thanks for reading.
 
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According to a table that has been floating around the site, 30 grams is just slightly over the recommended amount for your weight. Someone said just yesterday that there may be an update on this. A copy of the table is below. The plan loos solid. A good estimate is that this works maybe 80% of the time, and for some people it then works on the second try. You plan is really solid so the success chance may be higher.

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According to a table that has been floating around the site, 30 grams is just slightly over the recommended amount for your weight. Someone said just yesterday that there may be an update on this. A copy of the table is below. The plan loos solid. A good estimate is that this works maybe 80% of the time, and for some people it then works on the second try. You plan is really solid so the success chance may be higher.

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Thanks for the comments and table. Yeah - need a SOLID plan because of where I'm stuck after the pandemic... I am from North America, but am now stuck in India. If I get "caught"... they got a nice gift for you here - jail!
That thought really scares me... given my condition, I cannot go back home just to CTB... but, if I, a westerner get "caught" in a failed SN... I might be in quite a pickle... So, I am really nervous. Got to make sure it works. The first time around.
 
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Hello everybody. I signed up on this site like 3 years ago - but, as my health has wavered, I kind of hung on. Now finally, look's like it's time. SN is the only option available to me. I have stripped down Stan's guide on here to the following steps:
The right time to go here, is about 11:00 PM. So, this what I have:

t - 8 hours (2-3 PM): Fast - stop solid foods
t - 2 hours (9PM): Stop liquids and preferably even water
t - 1 hour: Acetaminophen
t - 45 minutes: Anti-emetic
t - 30 minutes: Acidity pills
t: 30g SN in 50 ml water. 2 more glasses from 2 other sources (TBD) as back-up.

One other thing. I am a big, muscular guy. Around 280 lbs, 6' with a generally fast metabolism. Do I need more than 30g?
Personally: I never throw up or stuff, got a stomach for anything. Zero risk of anyone finding me. No one may even find me gone for days. Plan is to take it, and start up some binge-watch on Netflix, and just slip away.

Could people who know this well confirm if this is enough?
Thanks for reading.
Awww....I'm sorry it's come to this, big muscular man. I think your schedule is fine. Be well in whatever you choose to do. I just read you're stuck in the Middle East. I wouldn't know what to do if I were in your shoes. I hope everything works out, to however you want it.:-(
 
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Apr 9, 2022
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Hello everybody. I signed up on this site like 3 years ago - but, as my health has wavered, I kind of hung on. Now finally, look's like it's time. SN is the only option available to me. I have stripped down Stan's guide on here to the following steps:
The right time to go here, is about 11:00 PM. So, this what I have:

t - 8 hours (2-3 PM): Fast - stop solid foods
t - 2 hours (9PM): Stop liquids and preferably even water
t - 1 hour: Acetaminophen
t - 45 minutes: Anti-emetic
t - 30 minutes: Acidity pills
t: 30g SN in 50 ml water. 2 more glasses from 2 other sources (TBD) as back-up.

One other thing. I am a big, muscular guy. Around 280 lbs, 6' with a generally fast metabolism. Do I need more than 30g?
Personally: I never throw up or stuff, got a stomach for anything. Zero risk of anyone finding me. No one may even find me gone for days. Plan is to take it, and start up some binge-watch on Netflix, and just slip away.

Could people who know this well confirm if this is enough?
Thanks for reading.
Why do you want to ctb if I may ask?
 
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Why do you want to ctb if I may ask?
Ultra-ultra-rare illness... they played pass-the-parcel with me to the top 3-4 hospitals in the US for some years... then I just fell through the cracks... if I were well-known like Lou Gehrig, they'd probably name it after me...
I hate the whole self-pity thing, so weak. But, I am a strange case...inside, am falling apart and they can't say why... excepting some loose idea that it's genetic and mysterious. And of course, over this long saga of illness all the other problems of daily life tacked on, and made "living" ridiculous...
Awww....I'm sorry it's come to this, big muscular man. I think your schedule is fine. Be well in whatever you choose to do. I just read you're stuck in the Middle East. I wouldn't know what to do if I were in your shoes. I hope everything works out, to however you want it.:-(
India... here, if they catch you, apparently they may jail you... keep you alive in humiliation and desolation... you can get 6 months to 1 year to think about one more way how you stink at life...
Middle-east, I think the tougher areas are better on this. I may be wrong, but, if you fail, and they catch you, I think as punishment, they help you complete the process. After a short trial of course. :))
 
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According to a table that has been floating around the site, 30 grams is just slightly over the recommended amount for your weight. Someone said just yesterday that there may be an update on this. A copy of the table is below. The plan loos solid. A good estimate is that this works maybe 80% of the time, and for some people it then works on the second try. You plan is really solid so the success chance may be higher.

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Measurements are different for each country. The measuring spoons hold different weights. Someone here in th us I believe measured out a tablespoon and it was 15 grams I believe.
Not that three gram difference is that much
 
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Measurements are different for each country. The measuring spoons hold different weights. Someone here in th us I believe measured out a tablespoon and it was 15 grams I believe.
Not that three gram difference is that much
Yes, am painfully aware. I look for gallon bottles of milk then find "litres" the largest size here. A little over a quart. For accuracy, I have a "metric" measuring spoon/cup set, where 1 cup is 235ml and the teaspoon is calibrated for 5ml. I also have one of those "previous metal" weighing scales, which have accuracy to the second decimal. So.... measurements I'm good. SN source too seems safe - at least 2 of them. Just don't know how my body will react with all my weird-ass problems. Wish I had someone to help in case something's botched, like in those PPH clinics in Oregon or wherever. But, cannot, as even if I CTB, they'd be jailed for abetting... Indians seem to want to hang on to life in any form.... what about quality of life, huh?
 
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Measurements are different for each country. The measuring spoons hold different weights. Someone here in th us I believe measured out a tablespoon and it was 15 grams I believe.
Not that three gram difference is that much
That's interesting. It is known that Sn varies, and you really should be giuded by weight, not so much by the volume. A small scale that works for these weights costs $10 on amazon. I didn't know it would vary by that much, though.
 
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That's interesting. It is known that Sn varies, and you really should be giuded by weight, not so much by the volume. A small scale that works for these weights costs $10 on amazon. I didn't know it would vary by that much, though.
You can't risk measuring SN. Got to weigh it. I have always thought that was a given. Yup, I got one of those little "precious metal" scales that measures up to 200g like i said earlier. It's in my CTB kit that I have been keeping near my bed for like 2 years now... "come the day...
 
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Kitchen scale might work? Not too sure. I'm wondering how precise you have to be.
You do need to be precise, so it depends on your kitchen scale. BUt scales in the right measuring range cost about $10 plus shipping on amazon.
 
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Most kitchen scales that measure to 10lbs/5kg WILL NOT work for small weights. You need a more precise thing like in the pic. Big river site has 1000s of choices.
 

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