SN method not possible anymore, i will have to try DWI (scared)

[wiinterfrost]

(ugh i had something written out but i accidentally clicked on something and have to write this all over again! fucking frustrating.)

(DWI = deep wrist injury / cutting/slashing the wrist)

so i had originally planned to catch the bus via SN but acquiring it didn't work out in the end. i am too dumb and online things just weren't as expected. since i am pretty broke and have panic i can only get the ressources for a dwi suicide. i'll get razorblades from a normal drugstore and alcohol from a "kiosk". (which will both be incredibly nerve-wracking since i haven't been inside a store for over a year (aforementioned panic)). (oh and hanging is not something i want to try because that really freaks me out for some reason.)

my plan is to get very drunk (i haven't drank alcohol in over a year either! so i might get drunk pretty fast) with some hard-alc (probably vodka?) mixed with lots of orange juice and get stoned with the little bit of weed i have left and take lots of ibuprofen, then slash my wrists in the right places (i hope) when i am hopefully numb enough.

i have been looking at diagrams all afternoon to figure out where the veins are the most accessible and have been reading scientific reports and papers (those that are accessible to the public anyway) to find out more about the potential damage if one survives. from what i understood, dwi can have long-lasting effects if you cut the tendons and you can like lose mobility or something? in the hands. if i were to survive and miraculously end up living a few more years but had irreperable hand damage that would be worse than anything because i am a musician and my hands are literally the most important things (with my ears).

so it's risky... and i would have to make absolute sure that i do die because if i survive i don't know if i could try it again, for a while. i'm actually really scared and a part of me doesn't want to die but i have exhausted every other option of help there is and there is no other possibility and i am sick and tired of forcing myself to stay here.

maybe someone has helpful tips for dwi ? (or anything else ig)

also i guess i am scared of the pain... knife slashes make me cringe but there is also some familiarity because i used to cut with scissors as a teen.



(sorry if my writing might be a little stilted and awkward it's just hard re-writing something that at first came out as an emotional rush and try to re-create certain sentences whilst being frustrated that it all got deleted.)

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Op, I don't think that would be a wise decision considering how very low of a chance there is to actually ctb with DWI. Just my two cents even if you've done some time researching it beforehand but there's gotta be better methods if you are still considering ctb.

 

[ThisIsLife]

I don't think slashing wrists ever worked out for anyone, OP. Take into account that you're on a suicide forum and it's not part of the methods, it must be for a valid reason.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I'm sorry you have to go through that but I think that's a very bad idea and it will most likely fail. Have you considered other methods if CTB is what you really want? Please reconsider your method.

 

[hermestrimegistus]

possibly one of the must unreliable methods. Even worse if you're drunk. Reconsider OP

 

[Division Day]

I'll echo everyone else that cutting is almost certainly not going to do it and you're probably more likely to lose use of a hand from cutting a tendon or nerve.

 

[wiinterfrost]

I'm sorry you have to go through that but I think that's a very bad idea and it will most likely fail. Have you considered other methods if CTB is what you really want? Please reconsider your method.

i have... but every other method requires me to acquire materials in a more complicated way than just going to the everyday drugstore. i've read the pph and the threads but i am not in much of a position to try anything else (as something like hanging would freak me out too much)

I'll echo everyone else that cutting is almost certainly not going to do it and you're probably more likely to lose use of a hand from cutting a tendon or nerve.

i mean, i've read some reports where bleeding out and dying happens, even accidentally. i just though that if i know the exact points to cut it could work

 

[Praestat_Mori]

i have... but every other method requires me to acquire materials in a more complicated way than just going to the everyday drugstore. i've read the pph and the threads but i am not in much of a position to try anything else (as something like hanging would freak me out too much)

I understand, hanging wouldn't be my choice, too. Have you considered seppuku? That'd be effective. But I still don't recommend it.

 

[Division Day]

I believe there's an anaesthetic cream available without prescription (at least in the UK) that's sold as numbing for tattoos or whatever. I considered it, but worried they wouldn't give it to someone with a mental health history.

 

[wiinterfrost]

I understand, hanging wouldn't be my choice, too. Have you considered seppuku? That'd be effective. But I still don't recommend it.

seppuku! i don't have a sword and couldn't afford one... but i will look into it as i will read everything just to be as well informed as possible. also i think i wouldn't have the guts for that (pun?). what make you mention that?

I believe there's an anaesthetic cream available without prescription (at least in the UK) that's sold as numbing for tattoos or whatever. I considered it, but worried they wouldn't give it to someone with a mental health history.

thanks for this info! this is actually very helpful. i had thought of that but forgot about this idea entirely.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

seppuku! i don't have a sword and couldn't afford one... but i will look into it as i will read everything just to be as well informed as possible. also i think i wouldn't have the guts for that (pun?). what make you mention that?

As cutting wrists has a very low success rate and u said you have no other options I suggested a method that has better success rates. You'd not need a sword, a very sharp knife would do imo.

I still don't recommend any kind of cutting/slitting/bleeding. When it comes to the decision of CTB I personally would want to be successful with my first attempt and having risks of failing reduced as much as possible.

It's your decision but I really hope you can find a better method bc nobody should suffer.

 

[Nx7]

I tried this...and failed miserably. It's not worth it. The pain is unbearable and I only got part of it. Now, I have to deal with a scar...and so it's not worth it. Most probably if you were a doctor or nurse your chances would fare better and you could even take some hard drugs to help with such an attempt

 

[wiinterfrost]

I tried this...and failed miserably. It's not worth it. The pain is unbearable and I only got part of it. Now, I have to deal with a scar...and so it's not worth it. Most probably if you were a doctor or nurse your chances would fare better and you could even take some hard drugs to help with such an attempt

would you mind sharing if you've had any long-lasting damage? and whether or not you were even able to pass out?

 

[Nx7]

Not at all. I used a huge ass kitchen knife (hindsight 20/20 if one wants to try this method they should go for a sashimi knife which cuts better).

I started slowly and midway when I started bleeding and I wasn't even in the middle of the process and couldn't get the right artery. I then decided not to go the hospital for the stitches because they would figure out that I tried suicide. So I had to to let it heal by itself which was hurtful as well and left the permanent scar.

I didn't pass out but got slightly dizzy. Seeing the blood and the damage you're doing is crazy to say the least but I was desperate at that point.

From what I read if you wanna do this method correctly you should either be a nurse or doctor, have access to high potent drugs. The only other choice if you're not a medical professional is to use an electric kitchen saw (those that can even cut bones) but that also means you have the risk of losing your hand. Thus for for this method...in my honest opinion: only if youre a doctor/nurse or related

I guess we get the idea fro this nethod because of movies/tv dramas or books. Byt going through with it is wild to say the least

would you mind sharing if you've had any long-lasting damage? and whether or not you were even able to pass out?

Off topic - but the one process that gave me long lasting damage was hanging. I hanged on the stairs of an apartment. When SI kicked I tried to untie the knot...I took a heavy fall which left me with bruises all over the body but most notably affected my right arm. Now is a bit better...but the movement is bot the same anymore

 

[wiinterfrost]

@Nx7 thank you for your reply. sounds intense. sorry to hear about the fall.

From what I read if you wanna do this method correctly you should either be a nurse or doctor, have access to high potent drugs.

what do you mean with access to high potent drugs? in what way would that help the process?

 

[Nx7]

What I refer here are drugs for local anesthesia

"A local anaesthetic is used to numb a part of your body so that you do not feel pain. Local anaesthetics can be applied to the skin or injected. A local anaesthetic is generally used for minor surgeries or for pain relief after surgery."

The injection types would definitely work for this.

Therefore, only a doctor/nurse would be able to get their hands on these. And by the time the hospital staff noticed (because most hospitals have a control of the inventory) it would be a done deal

 

[silentcicada]

Please reconsider OP, I understand this is your last resort but you are extremely unlikely to succeed. https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/lost-all-hope-methods.129998/
The only advice I can give is either don't do it or make sure that you're alone for a while because it'll take forever for you to bleed out.

 

[Division Day]

What I refer here are drugs for local anesthesia

"A local anaesthetic is used to numb a part of your body so that you do not feel pain. Local anaesthetics can be applied to the skin or injected. A local anaesthetic is generally used for minor surgeries or for pain relief after surgery."

The injection types would definitely work for this.

Therefore, only a doctor/nurse would be able to get their hands on these. And by the time the hospital staff noticed (because most hospitals have a control of the inventory) it would be a done deal

I would assume a doctor or nurse who could steal that would be able to steal something that could do the job on its own.

 

[hi-okbye]

maybe since you do have access to emotionally numbing things (alcohol, weed, maybe even add sleeping pills), you could make your knot. then take those things, and then try hanging yourself. They might help in easing your nerves about it.

 

[wiinterfrost]

thank you for all of these messages of caution. i will keep them in mind.
i will still go ahead and procure these supplies for comfort (and because autism and The Plan lol) and backup if nothing else. i might do another sweep of research into methods and deliberate some more, though it's starting to get dire.

maybe since you do have access to emotionally numbing things (alcohol, weed, maybe even add sleeping pills), you could make your knot. then take those things, and then try hanging yourself. They might help in easing your nerves about it.

this might be an idea, thank you.

 

[TiredTurtle]

That sounds incredibly painful and unlikely to work, please rethink