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wishingdeath

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Oct 24, 2023
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I've been trying for ages to find a way to get SN but the UK is so regulated. Has anyone managed this?
Happy to pm
 
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Die.A.Ria

My medical condition ruined everything
Jul 17, 2026
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I've been trying for ages to find a way to get SN but the UK is so regulated. Has anyone managed this?
Happy to pm
Yes theres b&m sn on eBay
 
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RinneOfAragon

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Jan 2, 2025
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Please can someone give me hints or pm me on the B&M source. I'm in desperate need. 🙏
 
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discernment

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Aug 11, 2026
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it's really really hard to source SN in this country 🥺 so frustrating
 
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ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
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I hate it so much. I've been trying to look into alternatives that are easier to get
When i was in UK, i literally couldn't think of anything except using rope, or train track or drowning.
I failed at using rope..
I don't have enough guts to lie down on train track as one may end up alive with handicapped body
I didn't have any water body near me that was not being monitored so i couldn't contemplate this
 
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wishingdeath

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Oct 24, 2023
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When i was in UK, i literally couldn't think of anything except using rope, or train track or drowning.
I failed at using rope..
I don't have enough guts to lie down on train track as one may end up alive with handicapped body
I didn't have any water body near me that was not being monitored so i couldn't contemplate this
My friend passed on tracks so knowing the devastation it caused I couldn't do that personally. Drowning feels complicated and uncomfortable / risky. I was found with a rope, so get to live knowing how traumatised that person was. Thats why im so desperate for sn or alike, I don't want to traumatise people like that, but they seem to leave us with no other option.
 
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ctb_warrior

I wish to CTB asap
Feb 11, 2024
584
My friend passed on tracks so knowing the devastation it caused I couldn't do that personally. Drowning feels complicated and uncomfortable / risky. I was found with a rope, so get to live knowing how traumatised that person was. Thats why im so desperate for sn or alike, I don't want to traumatise people like that, but they seem to leave us with no other option.
Seriously, that's such a blocker. It feels like hands are handcuffed when it comes to planning ctb. I wish procuring N was easy. How about CO? If you don't have a fire alarm in your residence, that may work out in a small space.
In my room in the UK, there was a fire alarm, so I couldn't even use vape in the room
 
Die.A.Ria

Die.A.Ria

My medical condition ruined everything
Jul 17, 2026
265
Yeah I've already got them but I just wanted people to find me in a better way you know?

ive only seen 0.6%
B&m sn is not called SN so your probably searching for a wrong thing its called something else because it has a different purpose but has 98+% SN
 
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wishingdeath

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Oct 24, 2023
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Seriously, that's such a blocker. It feels like hands are handcuffed when it comes to planning ctb. I wish procuring N was easy. How about CO? If you don't have a fire alarm in your residence, that may work out in a small space.
In my room in the UK, there was a fire alarm, so I couldn't even use vape in the room
Yeah, fire alarms in here :/
B&m sn is not called SN so your probably searching for a wrong thing its called something else because it has a different purpose but has 98+% SN
Okay this might help thank you!
 
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