Venting SN finally arrived.

[Anxieyote]

And right after my recent gender transition. Knowing the struggles I'm going to face as a trans person going forward, I am tempted to just end things immediately. My life was already on hard mode, and now it's just going to get even harder.

 

[PrismHon]

How did you feel when getting it. I felt over the moon! It was like a "finally, things are going my way!" and in a way I feel it has actually made me feel better/kept me here longer because I have that "out" now, whereas before I was much more panicky

 

[Anxieyote]

How did you feel when getting it. I felt over the moon! It was like a "finally, things are going my way!" and in a way I feel it has actually made me feel better/kept me here longer because I have that "out" now, whereas before I was much more panicky

Pretty much how I feel too. I never thought I'd be able to get it again actually, and it was a miracle that I did. I actually had my SN almost get confiscated by police before, and the other bag I acquired before was tossed out by my Mom when she was doing spring cleaning.

But now that I realized I am a girl trapped in a man's body, it gives me equal parts hope and dread. I don't think I have the strength to do a proper transition irl, and i'm not satisfied with just expressing my feminine side online. Makes me want to just use it immediately and get this life over with