Help sn concerns

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i ordered sn, but there are some issues i have with the process of actually taking it.

first, the possibility of puking.
i'm not really concerned with the specific anti emetic. my main concern revolves around a personal health issue of mine.
i have issues regarding low blood sugar, it's been an issue ever since i was a toddler. if i go too long without eating or if i eat too little throughout the day, i end up puking and/or fainting. if my blood sugar drops even slightly below a normal level, i puke. i've greatly reduced my calorie intake somewhat recently and i'm always puking because of that. i've taken anti emetics for this (weak ones, to be fair), and they didn't really help. the puking only stops if i eat enough calories throughout the day.
i don't think i need to explain why this is a concern. i've done 24hr fasts before, i ended up puking.
i don't know what advice could be offered for this situation, but anything helps. puking and failing is currently my biggest fair. i need to die, i can't fail again.

second concern, survival instinct.
whenever i hear people voice their concerns about the possibility of dealing with si after taking sn, everyone just responds with "take benzos to reduce si".
i mean... duh. benzos are a bitch to access, so please tell me if there are any other ways to reduce si; or at least give me some resources, lol.
if there are no solutions, then whatever. it'll be unfortunate if i have to die feeling scared and filled with regret, but that's fine as long as i actually die.

thank you

 

[ihatemyselfwanttodi]

I have the same fear. I'm currently contemplating doing it soon but without AE as I haven't had luck finding any or getting it prescribed. I'm not sure what to do, some people make it sound 100% essential and others say it's just a nice to have.

 

[Alitaaqua6781]

I get this because I can't take even vitamins on an empty stomach I'll throw up. I also have low blood sugar and can't fast for 24 hours. I decided that a lot of peoples fasting isn't what is said in the PPH. I was thinking of eating something very easy to digest like soup. So there is something in my stomach so I can take the medications like anti nauseas. It's all the acid in the stomach it's awful

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I don't know about point 1 but, as for point 2, the unfortunate reality of being alive as a sentient being is that we will have to deal with SI no matter what since we all have to die. Regardless of whether you ctb with SN or die a natural death, you will always have to deal with SI unless if you were to die instantly without you knowing about it but that's really rare to happen. I guess I just made peace with the fact that I know that having SI in my entire life is inevitable so I just have to push through with it and, honestly, I'd rather have SI through a relatively peaceful method like SN than have SI being in absolute agony through having cancer or being in old age.

I will die scared and terrified but I'm okay with that because I'm doing this for the end result which is death which will prevent decades of pointless suffering and a more harmful dying process than SN. The prevention of the future bads will be my ultimate win here and this is what motivates me to just get it done with already