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Idkwhattopick

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Aug 29, 2024
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I'm getting closer to being able to order SN finally but I have some concerns that might mean it's not the right method for me

Firstly, I'm in the UK and I'm worried about welfare checks. I know from other posts people have said that they just deny knowledge etc. I have had considerable involvement from community mental health, and I have had dealings with the police for my mental health in the last couple years. I've been detained a few times. Is this gonna impact how they perceive me denying knowledge if they do visit?

Secondly, I'm worried about the consumption process. Before I knew much about how difficult overdoses are, I had quite a few overdose attempts. All with paracetamol. The last one was incredibly traumatic, I've never been so sick in my life and since then I'm incredibly sensitive to the taste, like I struggle to not gag when I just take a couple for a headache, and I have to tell myself I'm only taking two because I need pain relief.
Im not afraid of vomiting, but I'm worried the salty taste will kick that trauma in and I'll be sick before I can even really swallow any of the solution. I know that it's not advised to use empty pill capsules to get the SN down because of the potential effects with absorption, but what about making SN 'bombs', wrapping the measured amount in cigarette rizlas and swallowing them instead? The paper should break down almost instantly once swallowed?

I'm still debating whether SN is the right method, if not I will likely choose hanging
 
Kayla

Kayla

quetiapine <3
Dec 23, 2024
277
When I ordered SN last year one of my packages got seized and I had a welfare check. I've had previous involvement with police (136) and mental health services. He just referred me to the crisis team who instantly discharged me. The police came back because they needed me to sign a form for them to destroy the SN. I told him I had ordered more and had 500g of it. He didn't care and 3 days later I took that SN. I've overdosed with paracetamol before and I got to a point I couldn't swallow tablets because of the trauma. The SN is disgusting no matter what anyone says its disgusting. I threw up alot. I can't tell you what will work and what won't in terms of wrapping the sn up because I don't know.
 
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