SN attempt in 30 minutes -- klonopin question

[daikon]

I'm about to attempt with SN. I'm so scared. I can't stop crying. I don't want to die, but life has gotten so hard and it feels like there's no way out. I wish there was someone here to keep me company, but I guess that's why I'm doing this in the first place -- there's no one.

I'm following Stan's guide (https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sn-a-comprehensive-guide-including-method.25148/). Just took my ibuprofen (only 400mg but I'm hoping that'll be fine) and my meto (30 mg). I'm trying to figure out how to dose my klonopin. I have 16 0.5 mg pills -- 8 mg in all. Should I take all of them?

 

[hatelife]

I am here u can talk to me

 

[daikon]

wait for me im doing it tonight maybe if I can get the courage

I've already started the regimen, and I've put off the idea of having a partner. I'm also not in the US, so time zones would be hard. Maybe you can find someone else in the partners thread or the chat?

 

[n0505]

Goodluck,I hope you find the peace you seek. :(

 

[hatelife]

I've already started the regimen, and I've put off the idea of having a partner. I'm also not in the US, so time zones would be hard. Maybe you can find someone else in the partners thread or the chat?

thanks u, its okey, still not sure but everyday I plant on last meal before 12 pm
I will hopefuly also do stans guide, im just increase the meto to 60 mg to be sure

 

[Stan]

I'm about to attempt with SN. I'm so scared. I can't stop crying. I don't want to die, but life has gotten so hard and it feels like there's no way out. I wish there was someone here to keep me company, but I guess that's why I'm doing this in the first place -- there's no one.

I'm following Stan's guide (https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sn-a-comprehensive-guide-including-method.25148/). Just took my ibuprofen (only 400mg but I'm hoping that'll be fine) and my meto (30 mg). I'm trying to figure out how to dose my klonopin. I have 16 0.5 mg pills -- 8 mg in all. Should I take all of them?

I wish you a peaceful journey. When in doubt about a dose, only use what the doctor recommended to you,

 

[Jen0804]

I'm thinking of you.. My inbox is open, want to chat? X

 

[woxihuanni]

Wish you peace, but please don't be pressured to go through if you're not ready because you've done the regimen or created a goodbye thread. We are here for you.

 

[Shivani]

Hope you find peace

 

[passenger27]

Good luck to you on your travels. I wish you the best.

 

[metalchic_74]

Hugs

 

[hatelife]

did u take the SN keep us updated do u feel nausea

 

[khw777]

Good luck and peace be with you.

 

[daikon]

I won't be able to give updates because the hotel where I'm staying suddenly lost internet. Just my luck. I guess I'm going it alone.
@Stan Thank you for the advice, but the doctor recommend one .5 mg pill and it never did anything. I just looked up the max dose on Web MD (lol) which was 4 mg.

This is so terrifying, but it all comes down to whether I can drink the damn thing and keep myself from calling the hospital.

@hatelife I feel pretty nauseous after downing a bunch of pills on an empty stomach, but I haven't taken the SN yet.

 

[bigj75]

peace be with you

 

[hatelife]

I won't be able to give updates because the hotel where I'm staying suddenly lost internet. Just my luck. I guess I'm going it alone.
@Stan Thank you for the advice, but the doctor recommend one .5 mg pill and it never did anything. I just looked up the max dose on Web MD (lol) which was 4 mg.

This is so terrifying, but it all comes down to whether I can drink the damn thing and keep myself from calling the hospital.

@hatelife I feel pretty nauseous after downing a bunch of pills on an empty stomach, but I haven't taken the SN yet.

peace be with you, Im scared too specially at night I have to do it alone, but will post here maybe we will see if its tonight or another day, I feel like if I dont just do it its never getting done, but scared to fail so bad

 

[Stan]

@Stan Thank you for the advice, but the doctor recommend one .5 mg pill and it never did anything. I just looked up the max dose on Web MD (lol) which was 4 mg.

That's the kind of site I would have gone to so it is good that you are thinking clearly. You are in our thoughts.

 

[daikon]

peace be with you, Im scared too specially at night I have to do it alone, but will post here maybe we will see if its tonight or another day, I feel like if I dont just do it its never getting done, but scared to fail so bad

Well, SN failure usually isn't too bad. The emotionally fallout can be rough.

Mostly I just really want to eat something, this fast has been so goddamn long and everything smells so good...

 

[hatelife]

Well, SN failure usually isn't too bad. The emotionally fallout can be rough.

Mostly I just really want to eat something, this fast has been so goddamn long and everything smells so good...

it is for me, as I was in hospital just last month for failure of amitriptyline overdose

 

[daikon]

Okay - moment of truth! I'm using McDonald's internet to type this, so I have to go back to the dead zone of my hotel to take the SN. Thanks for the love and support, everything. Wish me well.

 

[Nikoson]

Good luck safe journey. I'm interested to know what the SN is like to drink. I measured 20g out in salt today and it doesn't seem as much as I was expecting.

 

[Jen0804]

It is terrifying.. I've been here pal. Even when you feel like you're ready it's still terrifying. I wish I could be there for you in some way or had been able to help you in some way in the past few weeks. Horrible the Internet cut off too.
Again if you put this off for another day/week/ month that's ok too. This isn't an easy thing to go through with, I drunk SN twice as well and survived after only drinking half of it because I freaked out with SI - lots of people find it hard so don't feel like it means anything / it's literally drinking something and passing away and takes so much courage :( it's hard. Thinking of you. Hugs !!!

 

[hatelife]

Okay - moment of truth! I'm using McDonald's internet to type this, so I have to go back to the dead zone of my hotel to take the SN. Thanks for the love and support, everything. Wish me well.

wish u well hugs

 

[lightsoutnow]

I'm sorry and empathize with you that life has gotten too hard to bear.. all the best on your journey

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

Smooth sailing to you, daikon. x

 

[CaptainT]

Fair winds and a safe voyage, see you on the other side brother. Love and light to you

 

[Morphosis]

I'm using McDonald's internet to type this,

You've more self-control than me - I don't think I would've been able to resist a last Big Mac, if you're in McD's AND hungry! I know it would ruin your fast though.
Sending hugs and hope you find peace

 

[okaoki]

hope everything goes smoothly

 

[trynacbt]

Hope your transition was peaceful. Hope to join you soon.

 

[Moon Flower]

Safe travels <3