SN arrived, what's next?

[celest]

My sn arrived this morning and though I haven't tested it yet, it's supposed to be %99 purity lab grade. But for some reason I have a feeling that it won't be enough to kill me. It's easily obtainable in my area and maybe that's why but I feel as if it's just an ordinary chemical and will feel similar to an od if I take it. Did anyone else experience this or am I delusional lol? I have meto as ae and wil try getting something else pescribed because I'm scared of the neurological side effects (ironic coming from someone about to ingest a deadly poison) unfortunately I've always been a bit of a hypochondriac.
Anyways this all feels so surreal but it's nice that now I have the choice to end it. I lowkey regret waiting for so long

 

[chahan.trading]

Next is your courage and decisiveness to choose if you really want to or not.

 

[celest]

Next is your courage and decisiveness to choose if you really want to or not.

I'd do it tomorrow if I knew I was gonna die without failing

 

[hellispink]

its normal to have doubts. I have had some sn sitting somewhere near me for a few months. Getting the courage to take it is the final most important step, it can take time it can take the worst crisis or the most worst horrible place to be mentally to do. Who knows. Only oneself will know the right timing.

 

[chahan.trading]

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I'd do it tomorrow if I knew I was gonna die without failing

If you had enough time to think through it, i wish you success.

Remember:

Successfully doing it will make the people who loves you heartbroken but with less obligation to spend for your hospitalizations for your recovery (if you survive) and such. If successful, You will get your peace, and you will leave them pain (temporary) with confusion why you did it (because it js unnatural death).

Unsuccessfully doing it will bring pain and obligations to your love ones. Hospital bills, recovery, etc.

Whatever happens, it's okay to be afraid but do it decisively.

 

[celest]

its normal to have doubts. I have had some sn sitting somewhere near me for a few months. Getting the courage to take it is the final most important step, it can take time it can take the worst crisis or the most worst horrible place to be mentally to do. Who knows. Only oneself will know the right timing.

Yes, as an emotionally driven person I know I'll do it impulsively and that's why planning out the right method is extra important. At least with a plan I'll know what to do when that last straw hits. Right we all should take our time and not feel pressured into doing anything we'll regret. I wish you the best of luck with your situation.

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If you had enough time to think through it, i wish you success.

Remember:

Successfully doing it will make the people who loves you heartbroken but with less obligation to spend for your hospitalizations for your recovery (if you survive) and such. If successful, You will get your peace, and you will leave them pain (temporary) with confusion why you did it (because it js unnatural death).

Unsuccessfully doing it will bring pain and obligations to your love ones. Hospital bills, recovery, etc.

Whatever happens, it's okay to be afraid but do it decisively.

Thank you. Failure comes with so many unpredictable drawbacks and it's worse than not committing at all, for sure.

 

[FuneralCry]

After all SN is a reliable method if done correctly as so many people have succeeded with it, I envy them and I think that those who are able to easily access SN are fortunate. But anyway best wishes.

 

[celest]

After all SN is a reliable method if done correctly as so many people have succeeded with it, I envy them and I think that those who are able to easily access SN are fortunate. But anyway best wishes.

Thank you. There's a slight chance of survival bias, as we wouldn't be able to tell say if someone went vegetable from sn. That's what makes me paranoid. But unless you're not found and apply the procedure accordingly it's much less violent than other methods ofc.

 

[kionu09]

Thank you. There's a slight chance of survival bias, as we wouldn't be able to tell say if someone went vegetable from sn. That's what makes me paranoid. But unless you're not found and apply the procedure accordingly it's much less violent than other methods ofc.

Actually you are right to be in doubt. since person gets in to hypoxic coma where cells of body die due to lack of o2. with enough brain cell death, you go into veggie state but i think
At this point you become beyond saveable. with other pyshical damaging methods there is a lot more of possibility to damage your brain or brain stem without fatality.
Final conclussion is SN kills whole body at equal rate.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

It must be so relieving to have SN at hands! I wish you all the best with your plans!

 

[LittleBlackCat]

I'd do it tomorrow if I knew I was gonna die without failing

Your avatar my favourite movie but so incredibly sad.

I hope you find peace whatever you decide.

Thank you. There's a slight chance of survival bias, as we wouldn't be able to tell say if someone went vegetable from sn. That's what makes me paranoid. But unless you're not found and apply the procedure accordingly it's much less violent than other methods ofc.

I will be following Stan's guide as closely as possible. (It's in the Wiki if you're not familiar) he was successful with SN and did a great deal of research beforehand. I wish you luck

 

[celest]

Your avatar my favourite movie but so incredibly sad.

I hope you find peace whatever you decide.

I will be following Stan's guide as closely as possible. (It's in the Wiki if you're not familiar) he was successful with SN and did a great deal of research beforehand. I wish you luck

It's my favorite movie as well, lilja will always have a special place in my heart <3
Thank you, best of luck to you also. You can pm me anytime if you ever need someone to talk!!

 

[neveragreedtothis]

After all SN is a reliable method if done correctly as so many people have succeeded with it, I envy them and I think that those who are able to easily access SN are fortunate. But anyway best wishes.

I saw you were here since 2020, SN had a lot of sources then like CCS and IC...was there any reason you weren't able to access them? Or N from D? Other than money...

Just curious, as you are a very active person on here.

 

[FireWalkWithMe]

Don't rush it. If you have access to it then that isn't going anywhere. The SN stays in the same place, you however do not if you choose to do it. So now you have it I would advise chilling and seeing how owning the product makes you feel. Some people find it brings back a bit of control and comfort in some strange way

Don't underestimate SN or think it won't kill you. It has a very high probability to.

 

[BetterInTheory]

My sn arrived this morning and though I haven't tested it yet, it's supposed to be %99 purity lab grade. But for some reason I have a feeling that it won't be enough to kill me. It's easily obtainable in my area and maybe that's why but I feel as if it's just an ordinary chemical and will feel similar to an od if I take it. Did anyone else experience this or am I delusional lol? I have meto as ae and wil try getting something else pescribed because I'm scared of the neurological side effects (ironic coming from someone about to ingest a deadly poison) unfortunately I've always been a bit of a hypochondriac.
Anyways this all feels so surreal but it's nice that now I have the choice to end it. I lowkey regret waiting for so long

I feel like I could've written this post... My SN arrived today morning too and it feels absolutely surreal now that this is a very real possibility for me. I feel like I've been sleepwalking the entire day, just staring at the box every few minutes.

Like you, I also have easy access to it but the fact that there are so many accounts on here describing successful SN attempts gives me some peace. You could simply follow the SN guideline compiled by other members. What comes next is entirely up to you...

 

[Nephis]

Let the travels that come next allow you to be carried by soft gentle winds, under a starry night where you may sleep peacefully.

~For you I hope, safe travels to the shores, where we may be friends

 

[celest]

I feel like I could've written this post... My SN arrived today morning too and it feels absolutely surreal now that this is a very real possibility for me. I feel like I've been sleepwalking the entire day, just staring at the box every few minutes.

Like you, I also have easy access to it but the fact that there are so many accounts on here describing successful SN attempts gives me some peace. You could simply follow the SN guideline compiled by other members. What comes next is entirely up to you...

Wow, what a coincidence. It's crazy to me that we're two strangers who went through the same exact thing, on the same day. Suicide was an abstract possibility and now it's in a box in front of me. Life really is weird.
I'd say don't do that to yourself and hide it somewhere. Overthinking is only gonna make you feel worse. Know you have the option and this is something that needs to be carefully evaluated. Temptations might lead to unpleasant outcomes. Take care and I wish you the best

 

[Deleted member 65988]

its normal to have doubts. I have had some sn sitting somewhere near me for a few months. Getting the courage to take it is the final most important step, it can take time it can take the worst crisis or the most worst horrible place to be mentally to do. Who knows. Only oneself will know the right timing.

Couldn't agree more, I've been doubts about sn despite acquiring it a week ago because I read past threads of members who had their experience with sn shared and it made worry about how long I'd be conscious for to experience anything very uncomfortable because although I already know how to deal with a fast heart rate, some nausea, headache and stomach pain that are some of the common symptoms of SN working, I don't know how bad it could possibly get as far as individual experience goes. I have SN and Meto and painkillers and potentially Propranolol all ready to use but I'm a bit hesitant because of time and because of those doubts

Don't rush it. If you have access to it then that isn't going anywhere. The SN stays in the same place, you however do not if you choose to do it. So now you have it I would advise chilling and seeing how owning the product makes you feel. Some people find it brings back a bit of control and comfort in some strange way

Don't underestimate SN or think it won't kill you. It has a very high probability to.

I think it's because, in OPs case, how it appears to be in a bottle or plastic so it doesn't feel like whatever is in it has the ability of killing you if you ingest a high enough dose.

 

[BetterInTheory]

Wow, what a coincidence. It's crazy to me that we're two strangers who went through the same exact thing, on the same day. Suicide was an abstract possibility and now it's in a box in front of me. Life really is weird.
I'd say don't do that to yourself and hide it somewhere. Overthinking is only gonna make you feel worse. Know you have the option and this is something that needs to be carefully evaluated. Temptations might lead to unpleasant outcomes. Take care and I wish you the best

I'm a chronic overthinker, but I think it's good in this case. It eliminates the possibility of me being impulsive and consuming it without proper prep.
But yeah, I'm going to put it away for now...it's a distracting presence in the house.
Wishing you the very best as well!

 

[Lost Magic]

It sure is a good feeling to have something in your possession like SN. It's like having an emergency button near you when shit gets too heavy. Best wishes on your journey, if that's what you choose.

 

[perfectstorm]

Don't rush it. If you have access to it then that isn't going anywhere. The SN stays in the same place, you however do not if you choose to do it. So now you have it I would advise chilling and seeing how owning the product makes you feel. Some people find it brings back a bit of control and comfort in some strange way

Don't underestimate SN or think it won't kill you. It has a very high probability to.

Firewalk I thought this would be easier to get. Can you pm me a source? I am having trouble finding it. These guides need to be updated.