heisenberg
maybe in another life.
- May 18, 2020
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sn from sd arrived. i ordered it on aug 14th and it came today to the usa (aug 23rd), it came from canada. the packaging itself was discrete and did not note anything about the contents at all. it did not even state it was from the company sd. i finally have everything for sn- meto, tylenol, propranolol, xanax, and sn now. i am considering doing the two day regimen for meto instead of the stat dose as originally planned. i have bulimia so i feel like i may be prone to vomit easier ? if anyone has any suggestions or advice please let me know. i'm gonna try my best not to purge leading up to my ctb date.
i have been highly debating either sending a letter or scheduling a text message to my ex boyfriend lately. he was my first favorite person and my mind refuses to let him go. in all honesty he was a terrible person for reasons i wont get into but at the same my brain just can't seem to rationalize it if that makes sense. i just think about all the good moments we had, it was like he was the first person that actually cared about me in my life when we were together. i don't even know what the point of the message would be though tbh. i just want to be speak to him one more time i guess. i cut him off due to the fact he is not a good person and he is not good at all for my mental health but he has found a way to imbed himself in my idiot brain anyway. i wish in another life he wasn't who he is and maybe things would have worked out. or maybe it was meant to be this way. regardless, i have my exit kit now and i am just planning a date. i am hoping before my birthday on october 2nd.
i have been highly debating either sending a letter or scheduling a text message to my ex boyfriend lately. he was my first favorite person and my mind refuses to let him go. in all honesty he was a terrible person for reasons i wont get into but at the same my brain just can't seem to rationalize it if that makes sense. i just think about all the good moments we had, it was like he was the first person that actually cared about me in my life when we were together. i don't even know what the point of the message would be though tbh. i just want to be speak to him one more time i guess. i cut him off due to the fact he is not a good person and he is not good at all for my mental health but he has found a way to imbed himself in my idiot brain anyway. i wish in another life he wasn't who he is and maybe things would have worked out. or maybe it was meant to be this way. regardless, i have my exit kit now and i am just planning a date. i am hoping before my birthday on october 2nd.
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