Venting Slipping further, day by day.

[Dangerdonkey333]

Slowly losing people, friends and family. Try to make new relationships, but I don't have the energy to keep up a conversation. Losing interest in the things I enjoyed doing. Video games, gardening, cooking, are all just things to pass the time now. I'd rather just spend the day sleeping. Thinking about ctb nearly every day. Been 2 months sober, the urge to continue getting blackout drunk every day is stronger than ever. I honestly don't know how much longer I can hold on.

 

[alwayssearching202]

Wow. 2 months sober is an incredible accomplishment. No wonder you don't have the energy to focus on much else right now. I'm struggling to make it more than 2 hours. Even with alcohol to numb myself, I'm thinking about ctb constantly.

Just think it's a remarkable accomplishment. If you've made it this long without family or friend support… well, I don't mean to sound trite when I say I'm in awe.

 

[enough of this]

Slowly losing people, friends and family. Try to make new relationships, but I don't have the energy to keep up a conversation. Losing interest in the things I enjoyed doing. Video games, gardening, cooking, are all just things to pass the time now. I'd rather just spend the day sleeping. Thinking about ctb nearly every day. Been 2 months sober, the urge to continue getting blackout drunk every day is stronger than ever. I honestly don't know how much longer I can hold on.

That's exactly how I feel and what I do. I don't know how long I can maintain just existing.