
eternalmelancholy
waiting for the bus
- Mar 24, 2021
- 1,169
Each night when we go to sleep we completely shut off from the external world. Yet none of us are afraid of sleep, we actually welcome it. Isn't death just a long sleep you never wake up from? Maybe knowing you won't wake up is the hard part.
I woke up this morning to the same dreadful realization that I am still alive, like every morning. With my latest failed attempt with partial suspension, I am starting to think maybe I need a better method where I can't back out the last second. I am going to try full suspension or jumping. I have put it off for so long making so many excuses. Maybe the secret to successfully ctb'ing is just brute forcing it against your SI. I think this is it.
I woke up this morning to the same dreadful realization that I am still alive, like every morning. With my latest failed attempt with partial suspension, I am starting to think maybe I need a better method where I can't back out the last second. I am going to try full suspension or jumping. I have put it off for so long making so many excuses. Maybe the secret to successfully ctb'ing is just brute forcing it against your SI. I think this is it.