Simply being alive is torcher

[Graham.N]

I welcome death with open arms. Simply being alive cause we to feel pain. In my mind, in my heart, and in my eyes. I hope I die of a heart attack in my sleep. Sorry can't be mad at me, I didn't kill myself, I died of natural causes. All of my hobby interests are out of reach. Financial gatekeeping is of the best method. To those who have helped me, I wish you success in all your endeavors x10. Be the best you can and please don't worry about me. Don't be sad either. Think of me like a feral dog, 10 minutes ago the dog was run over a city bus by both the front and rear wheels. It can more and nearly expresses pain. I've wanted this for almost 5 years. A blue heart shot to the rescue. Asperate the needle the red mist swirls with the hypnotic blue and whoosh, it's gone. Needle now dancing in it place. Wait for it to stop moving. Remove, check pulse, and the proceed with the Mourners Kadish. The second pill of amabien is starting to work. Try hard to understand what I am writing. Off to sleep, is it the past? Tune in for part to to find out. At least I'm not hurting anyone more

Yitgadal v'yitkadash sh'mei raba b'alma di v'ra chir'utei; v'yamlich malchutei b'hayeichon u-v'yomeichon, uv'hayei d'chol beit yisrael, ba-agala u-vi-z'man kariv, v'imru amen.
Y'hei sh'mei raba m'varach l'alam u-l'almei almaya.
Yitbarach v'yishtabah, v'yitpa'ar v'yitromam, v'yitnasei v'yit-hadar, v'yit'aleh v'yit'halal sh'mei d'kudsha, b'rich hu, l'ela min kol birchata v'shirata, tushb'hata v'nehemata, da-amiran b'alma, v'imru amen.
Y'hei sh'lama raba min sh'maya, v'hayim, aleinu v'al koi yisrael, v'imru amen.
Oseh shalom bi-m'romav, hu ya'aseh shalom aleinu v'al kol yisrael, v'imru amen.

Translation:

Magnified and sanctified is the great name of God throughout the world, which was created according to Divine will. May the rule of peace be established speedily in our time, unto us and unto the entire household of Israel. And let us say: Amen.
May God's great name be praised throughout all eternity. Glorified and celebrated, lauded and praised, acclaimed and honored, extolled and exalted ever be the name of thy Holy One, far beyond all song and psalm, beyond all hymns of glory which mortals can offer. And let us say: Amen.
May there be abundant peace from heaven, with life's goodness for us and for all thy people Israel. And let us say: Amen.
May the One who brings peace to the universe bring peace to us and to all the people Israel. And let us say: Amen.