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cazza82

cazza82

Can’tsufferanymore
Nov 20, 2024
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Well tried for 3 months to see if it would work see if I could get better CTB is all I can think about I just don't want to be here meant to see my drugs counsellor every 2 weeks haven't heard a peep from her since the 22nd may and the community treatment guy didn't show again at my home for our appointment just more people showing me that I don't matter I'm done trying gonna stop taking my venlafaxine tomorrow fuck the lot of them they don't give a shit about me
 
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Well tried for 3 months to see if it would work see if I could get better CTB is all I can think about I just don't want to be here meant to see my drugs counsellor every 2 weeks haven't heard a peep from her since the 22nd may and the community treatment guy didn't show again at my home for our appointment just more people showing me that I don't matter I'm done trying gonna stop taking my venlafaxine tomorrow fuck the lot of them they don't give a shit about me
If you like I'm happy to talk with you, don't feel you are all on your own. There is support
 
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Same I did intake to get treatment on the 24th and no one has followed up. No one wants the case
 
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plan c

plan c

My last resort.
Nov 8, 2022
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Well tried for 3 months to see if it would work see if I could get better CTB is all I can think about I just don't want to be here meant to see my drugs counsellor every 2 weeks haven't heard a peep from her since the 22nd may and the community treatment guy didn't show again at my home for our appointment just more people showing me that I don't matter I'm done trying gonna stop taking my venlafaxine tomorrow fuck the lot of them they don't give a shit about me
Hey cazza!!

This is a reminder that u're not casted aside. I'm worried about ur situation still but I'm truly delighted to know someone i could relate to. And I would give u the best listen I could if u wanna talk to us.

I don't always have the best availability but i won't ignore ur posts or pms on purpose. I'll try to keep judgemental statements and pushing words at a minima :)

However, u seem to have two separate issues: The feeling of being neglected, and a problem with your therapy. For the latter Im not saying or suggesting it's "your problem". I could relate to how our mental healthcare have failed us. As from what i experienced, medical treatments should be taken with extra care. Things end up either too ineffective, or too expensive, or too long to wait for. There's factor of luck tho. in terms of searching for treatments, but i would have u consider the possibility that your current choice might not suit u.

I went through a couple of poorly-configured treatments myself, in which the doctor or physician or whatever significantly lacked patience and agent, and were simply too busy/lazy to care... Those never didn't end up in a total mess. (not to mention I wasted too much money, they'd better have robbed me than have given me those, bc in that case I could've called the police!) I'd say that without frequent intervention and adjustments, those meds could be too risky and prone to side-effects or poisoning.

As a fellow wayfinder instead of professional I totally respect your choices to drop out of ur current treatment. However, I wouldn't advise cutting off ur dosage immediately bc the withdrawal-effect can be painful. Gradually decreasing ur dosage would be optimal. If u're unsure u could ask ai chatbots about this.

It's very desperate situation overall, yet from the look of things, there could still be a chance u haven't entirely lost hope in recovery, and maybe u'll try to find yourself some alternative treatments. Do ask yourself if that's genuinely the case, I'm not suggesting and dictating if that is, or isn't. Answer that to yourself and there's no need to compensate anyone else's expectations with that answer. U're not given "look-on-the-bright-side" lectures or blamed to be "pro-life" for either way.

Take care out there, mate. We're expecting ur updates <3
 
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cazza82

cazza82

Can’tsufferanymore
Nov 20, 2024
168
Hey cazza!!

This is a reminder that u're not casted aside. I'm worried about ur situation still but I'm truly delighted to know someone i could relate to. And I would give u the best listen I could if u wanna talk to us.

I don't always have the best availability but i won't ignore ur posts or pms on purpose. I'll try to keep judgemental statements and pushing words at a minima :)

However, u seem to have two separate issues: The feeling of being neglected, and a problem with your therapy. For the latter Im not saying or suggesting it's "your problem". I could relate to how our mental healthcare have failed us. As from what i experienced, medical treatments should be taken with extra care. Things end up either too ineffective, or too expensive, or too long to wait for. There's factor of luck tho. in terms of searching for treatments, but i would have u consider the possibility that your current choice might not suit u.

I went through a couple of poorly-configured treatments myself, in which the doctor or physician or whatever significantly lacked patience and agent, and were simply too busy/lazy to care... Those never didn't end up in a total mess. (not to mention I wasted too much money, they'd better have robbed me than have given me those, bc in that case I could've called the police!) I'd say that without frequent intervention and adjustments, those meds could be too risky and prone to side-effects or poisoning.

As a fellow wayfinder instead of professional I totally respect your choices to drop out of ur current treatment. However, I wouldn't advise cutting off ur dosage immediately bc the withdrawal-effect can be painful. Gradually decreasing ur dosage would be optimal. If u're unsure u could ask ai chatbots about this.

It's very desperate situation overall, yet from the look of things, there could still be a chance u haven't entirely lost hope in recovery, and maybe u'll try to find yourself some alternative treatments. Do ask yourself if that's genuinely the case, I'm not suggesting and dictating if that is, or isn't. Answer that to yourself and there's no need to compensate anyone else's expectations with that answer. U're not given "look-on-the-bright-side" lectures or blamed to be "pro-life" for either way.

Take care out there, mate. We're expecting ur updates <3
I have a drugs counselor as I'm an ex addict clean 19 years now but I see her because they thought I could be at risk of relapse with my situation she's totally given up on me she definitely doesn't care and when you already know you don't matter and your worthless it makes you feel worse But I have a mental health counselor who I see every week she's amazing I would already be gone if it wasn't for her no matter what she always shows up she's the only one that's supported me since October. She's one of the good ones I had 20 sessions then she spoke to my GP and got it so it was open ended which was so sweet and the GP foots the bill but recently I've been feeling like I'm wasting her time because I still feel like I don't want to be here I feel so hopeless she's been there for me more than anyone ever has when I'm in that room with her o feel safe. But I don't feel like I deserve all her help why does she want to help me and wry has she stuck with me I'm a worthless piece of crap
Same I did intake to get treatment on the 24th and no one has followed up. No one wants the case
That's awful it just makes you feel so alone I absolutely hate feeling all alone in this world
 
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plan c

My last resort.
Nov 8, 2022
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I have a drugs counselor as I'm an ex addict clean 19 years now but I see her because they thought I could be at risk of relapse with my situation she's totally given up on me she definitely doesn't care and when you already know you don't matter and your worthless it makes you feel worse But I have a mental health counselor who I see every week she's amazing I would already be gone if it wasn't for her no matter what she always shows up she's the only one that's supported me since October. She's one of the good ones I had 20 sessions then she spoke to my GP and got it so it was open ended which was so sweet and the GP foots the bill but recently I've been feeling like I'm wasting her time because I still feel like I don't want to be here I feel so hopeless she's been there for me more than anyone ever has when I'm in that room with her o feel safe. But I don't feel like I deserve all her help why does she want to help me and wry has she stuck with me I'm a worthless piece of crap

That's awful it just makes you feel so alone I absolutely hate feeling all alone in this world
Hey cazza <3 Thanks for sharing! Wow. I'd say u've done a pretty good job staying clean for 19 years as an ex-addict. I try not to judge u but that is definitely something and is well above average. It also seems that u have shown great compliance with whatever drug control u have gone through. (from ur tone u seem to approach to the drug counselor actively when they suspect u're gonna relapse, indicating u're probably self-driven and willing to comply to drug control. feel free to correct me if that isn't the case! ) These are no reason a proper drug counselor could've "totally given up" on u.

I'm not denying your feeling of being neglected tho. Yet there could be reasons. From what u said... (again my inference is not necessarily accurate!! few free to shake my magic-8-ball otherwise) U might have expected more care and emotional touch from your drug counselor, other than being given detoxification med and rehab training protocols. If that's the case it's more of a job of a mental counselor than a drug counselor sadly, it could be that ur drug counselor lacks the ability to make a proper response to, instead of neglecting your requests while thinking u're hopeless. Your drug counselor may not have the best emotional availability, as her personal issue but it boils down to how the drug counseling service is neglecting personal touch... so then again it's not your problem. U did great not failing yourself but the system somehow failed u. Blame the system!

And hey there are also reasons to think u still need your mental counselor and are def.ly not wasting your counselor's time. From my point of view it's a lot of work in the previous 20 sessions... from developing trust to receiving support, and loads of hard work. ( As an improper comparison, assuming 90-minute sessions, most university courses are no more than 20 sessions, and course lectures aren't usually as intensive as one-to-one counseling) So it would be a true waste of time if u somehow abandon all that work. Also, u cannot deny that u're in a time of great emotional need. U trust your counselor a lot, stating that u couldn't have made this far without her help, incidating a stability and certain degree of effectiveness in this counseling, as a reason of hard work paying off. If i were u i currently don't see any reason to leave the mental counseling, if financial situations aren't too dire. Unless there's still hidden factors I didn't notice and pls fill me on that if any <3

It could be that u've encountered certain obstacle in technical settings or over detailed problems in your counsellation. If that's the case, it's your counsellation that has picked up a problem for u. Again indicating it's useful and not useless. And no reason to blame yourself for that either. Given how much u trust your counselor, it's a viable option to directly consult your counselor about ur current feelings towards the counseling. It's like, counseling about counseling, or "meta-counseling" lol. Interesting isn't it, do try it if u haven't! U definitely deserve some help like this
 
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cazza82

cazza82

Can’tsufferanymore
Nov 20, 2024
168
Hey cazza <3 Thanks for sharing! Wow. I'd say u've done a pretty good job staying clean for 19 years as an ex-addict. I try not to judge u but that is definitely something and is well above average. It also seems that u have shown great compliance with whatever drug control u have gone through. (from ur tone u seem to approach to the drug counselor actively when they suspect u're gonna relapse, indicating u're probably self-driven and willing to comply to drug control. feel free to correct me if that isn't the case! ) These are no reason a proper drug counselor could've "totally given up" on u.

I'm not denying your feeling of being neglected tho. Yet there could be reasons. From what u said... (again my inference is not necessarily accurate!! few free to shake my magic-8-ball otherwise) U might have expected more care and emotional touch from your drug counselor, other than being given detoxification med and rehab training protocols. If that's the case it's more of a job of a mental counselor than a drug counselor sadly, it could be that ur drug counselor lacks the ability to make a proper response to, instead of neglecting your requests while thinking u're hopeless. Your drug counselor may not have the best emotional availability, as her personal issue but it boils down to how the drug counseling service is neglecting personal touch... so then again it's not your problem. U did great not failing yourself but the system somehow failed u. Blame the system!

And hey there are also reasons to think u still need your mental counselor and are def.ly not wasting your counselor's time. From my point of view it's a lot of work in the previous 20 sessions... from developing trust to receiving support, and loads of hard work. ( As an improper comparison, assuming 90-minute sessions, most university courses are no more than 20 sessions, and course lectures aren't usually as intensive as one-to-one counseling) So it would be a true waste of time if u somehow abandon all that work. Also, u cannot deny that u're in a time of great emotional need. U trust your counselor a lot, stating that u couldn't have made this far without her help, incidating a stability and certain degree of effectiveness in this counseling, as a reason of hard work paying off. If i were u i currently don't see any reason to leave the mental counseling, if financial situations aren't too dire. Unless there's still hidden factors I didn't notice and pls fill me on that if any <3

It could be that u've encountered certain obstacle in technical settings or over detailed problems in your counsellation. If that's the case, it's your counsellation that has picked up a problem for u. Again indicating it's useful and not useless. And no reason to blame yourself for that either. Given how much u trust your counselor, it's a viable option to directly consult your counselor about ur current feelings towards the counseling. It's like, counseling about counseling, or "meta-counseling" lol. Interesting isn't it, do try it if u haven't! U definitely deserve some help like this
I have a mental health counselor and a drugs counselor my mental health one is amazing but my drugs counselor is meant to see me every 2 to 3 weeks but haven't heard from her in a well over a month I always just give a sample and we chat for an hour maybe your right I am expecting to much from her she's clearly not interested she was just that bit of extra support I needed but I don't want to beg for appointments from her my mental health counselor got me open ended sessions so I have her until whenever I want I don't have to pay I see her every week for an hour I just needed that extra bit of help from my drugs counsellor as I am on buprenorphine injections because after my husband suffered a massive stroke when I was 7 months pregnant after I had my son I was taking codiene thinking it was helping me get through the day helping me cope but as an ex heroin addict codeine is a no no
 
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