
Lo$t95
Hello Darkness my old Friend
- Jul 16, 2024
- 266
The closer my date becomes the more SI is torturing my mind. Paralysed staring at the ceiling since last night going through loops in my head fighting with myself.
The only solution I can think of is continuing to abuse alcohol and disassociate until Friday night. I knew this would most likely happen so prepared as much as possible but this is just painful. I need to die and nothing else should matter - objectively it doesn't yet here I am struggling with my own mind.
Anybody who ever told you suicide is easy lied to you.
The only solution I can think of is continuing to abuse alcohol and disassociate until Friday night. I knew this would most likely happen so prepared as much as possible but this is just painful. I need to die and nothing else should matter - objectively it doesn't yet here I am struggling with my own mind.
Anybody who ever told you suicide is easy lied to you.