Should’ve gone tuesday

[openBottomJeans]

My phones shut off. Thursday nights will probably be busy at the lake. I don't have enough supplies to last until next Tuesday. I should've never checked my email either.. attorneys, bill collectors, … fuck

if I go tonight the chance of people being there is 85%. If I go around 2, 3am maybe 30%. I'm ready to ctb. I think I'm just more scared that it's not going to be as peaceful as I'd like it to be.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

it'd be a million times easier for me to kill myself if humans weren't everywhere. the only thing stopping me is that humans could send me to the ER hospital . they will take me to the ER and bring me back to life with more damage if they catch me before my Death. if there were no humans around or ER didn't exist i could be gone today or in the next few days

 

[fedup1982]

Dying is HARD. Every time I try, I end up realising I'd forgotten how fucking hard it is. Your mind fights you. Your body fights you. And HOW. I strongly suggest you have a backup plan so if your body and mind win against your conscious will, you aren't left with bills you can't pay.

Any person who thinks "I'm definitely going to kill myself on X day" imo is incredibly deluded about how easy they think it's going to be!!!