Sn00t
Member
- Mar 10, 2023
- 15
Hey all, I just want to share some thoughts I have about suicide and carrying it out.
So I've been pretty suicidal these few days, and have gone too my local bridge nearby to look out and calculate roughly what is the best place to land, the height etc. A very profound feeling of uneasiness, sickness, fear and anxiety came upon me as I looked at it. Intuitively, it was my natural instincts detecting I was posing some kinda danger to myself, and it kicked in once it realised legitimate danger was posed.
But, it made me think whether we should treat suicide as a big day or maybe just, well another day. I might make another post on the nature of life and death and how I think we are stuck in the predicament, and suicide isn't the obvious solution that solves our problems. In short, we are fucked whether we kill our selves or not, but suicide can be used to save our future selves from more torment. But suicide in itself really will never save you as you know it, you won't know you have been saved, and this brings us to further questions if death is a good or bad thing (The Human Predicament by David Benatar argues in his book death to be a bad thing, but could be the lesser evil).
Anyways, do you guys think it is a good idea to make a big deal out of the day of suicide or just casually treat it as an ordinary event? My sense on it is that big events make me very stressed, and I feel unable to do it. For my psychi, I think if I treat it as one jump to a freedom, like any other freedom or treat in life, it's more likely I can convince myself to do it. I guess I'm not saying you can't prepare for it or write notes or wills, but just not treating it in your head as the biggest event ever (even if it is the biggest event in your life).
So I've been pretty suicidal these few days, and have gone too my local bridge nearby to look out and calculate roughly what is the best place to land, the height etc. A very profound feeling of uneasiness, sickness, fear and anxiety came upon me as I looked at it. Intuitively, it was my natural instincts detecting I was posing some kinda danger to myself, and it kicked in once it realised legitimate danger was posed.
But, it made me think whether we should treat suicide as a big day or maybe just, well another day. I might make another post on the nature of life and death and how I think we are stuck in the predicament, and suicide isn't the obvious solution that solves our problems. In short, we are fucked whether we kill our selves or not, but suicide can be used to save our future selves from more torment. But suicide in itself really will never save you as you know it, you won't know you have been saved, and this brings us to further questions if death is a good or bad thing (The Human Predicament by David Benatar argues in his book death to be a bad thing, but could be the lesser evil).
Anyways, do you guys think it is a good idea to make a big deal out of the day of suicide or just casually treat it as an ordinary event? My sense on it is that big events make me very stressed, and I feel unable to do it. For my psychi, I think if I treat it as one jump to a freedom, like any other freedom or treat in life, it's more likely I can convince myself to do it. I guess I'm not saying you can't prepare for it or write notes or wills, but just not treating it in your head as the biggest event ever (even if it is the biggest event in your life).
