Venting Should I tell him I'm suicidal?

[VisionW0lf]

Met this guy about a year ago, we're both regulars at the small bar in town and know a lot of mutual people. We were just talking until a few months ago we became romantically involved. It's nothing serious atm but I feel like we could be... He's a really nice guy, seems responsible and he at least has some of his shit together.
He knows I've been "having trouble" mentally (he picked me up from Resi a couple times and it didn't seem to bother him), but I haven't told him the full extent of things, and he hasn't asked. Keeps telling me I can talk to him if I need to but...

Part of me doesn't want to scare him away while I also do. If I'm going to keep failing trying to ctb it's nice to have someone in my life, but it also doesn't feel fair to him. I don't want to lie and hide things from him, but if it pushes him away then that's concrete evidence I'm ?not good enough? Too sick to be loved? But the idea of him staying and supporting me is just as terrifying. I don't want to waste his time and lead him on if I do end up doing it. He deserves better.
After my last relationship ended it felt like ctb would be easier to go through with but it wasn't so idk anymore.

 

[TransTaxEvader]

if it gets serious then yes absolutely, but if it's not "i want to marry this person" then I personally wouldn't

 

[zappynomore]

Been there myself it's difficult because you don't want to burden the person.

Yeah I have had all those feelings aswell like you dont want to open up and get rejected because that is tough to take. But at the same time you dont want to lie and hide things.

Only advise I can give is to open up a little more and see how he reacts.

But anyone worth loving and caring about is going to want to know about such things and will help.

but its difficult for sure. I wish you well whatever you decide.