Discussion Should I stop taking my meds so i get worse?

[Jisatsu]

Like seriously why does it matter if I take them or not if I don't plan on living much longer?

Who cares if I get seizures or end up dying from stopping.

I don't like being here... I just wish it would just end .

 

[themisfell]

suicidality doesn't mean you should embrace misery. i empathize though, truthfully while I am unmedicated, there is a part of me that wants to just ruin things. to break the bottle of liquor behind my laptop, and throw my laptop with it. to put my hand to the stove and see if it catches. to put my hand into boiling water while i cook food...

but ultimately, you'd still be here. and you'd be feeling even worse. and if we say that you have a choice in suicide, then i don't want you to feel worse just because you suffer. because there is no relief in this choice, only a worsening of your situation. if you want to chat, or if there is anything i can do, i don't mind listening. i'm really sorry.

 

[TheShadowQueen]

I sometimes have the same thoughts but I'd rather suffer while being able to control myself than to ever go back to the thing I was before the medication. Even though I still plan on killing myself the pain is so so so so much less intense than it used to be and it still gives me the possibility I will get better even if it's a 1% chance.

 

[RadiantNumber]

Like seriously why does it matter if I take them or not if I don't plan on living much longer?

Who cares if I get seizures or end up dying from stopping.

I don't like being here... I just wish it would just end .

I think not, that could give you at least some rielef