Help Should i CTB tonight?

[0kcomputer]

Hi.
I'm sorry for asking such a stupid fucking question.
But living is just causing me pure agony at this point. I cant even lay down and exist without wanting to cry or scream.
I barely leave my house. I don't have friends and the one I'm trying to make purposely avoids me. The others that are my "friends" don't even like me.
Life is causing me pure fucking agony and pain every single day...and has been for years and years and I've gotten no help.
Should I give up and give myself peace?
Give my girlfriend peace as well? Give everyone peace from such a piece of shit and a burden? A waste of fucking space?

 

[Cherry Crumpet]

Well, why don't you try hanging on for one more day. I know life fucking sucks, but I'm holding out hoping that maybe, there's some tiny chance things will get somewhat better, or my brain will get somewhat better. I have felt aimless, without purpose and generally fallen into a deep depressive episode that's lasted since the middle of summer. often I ask myself why bother. what's the point. why teh fuck am I doing this?

I wish I had a good answer. But, even though much of it sucks.. there's little tiny bits that give me happiness, or at least contentment. Like holding my cat. And there was a time when these spirals into suicidal ideation let up for a while for me.

So, I guess what I'm trying to say is to give it a very long and hard thought. You can always wait and do it the following day, and maybe something might happen on that day that made it worth being alive for.. but if you end it now, you'll never know.

That's how I'm looking at it, at least. I hope this was somewhat coherent.

 

[undecided]

Yes. It sounds like you will not improve from your status and environment. You are too old now to make life changes, that should have been done in your teen years.

Don't leave a mess. Be considerate.

You're telling this person that they should ctb? Wtaf ?

 

[opheliaoveragain]

You're telling this person that they should ctb? Wtaf ?

I reported it. encouraging goes against site rules.

 

[AbyssalAlien]

You're telling this person that they should ctb? Wtaf ?

Its funny how you covert agents think you're slick in pretending to be one of the community. The Police must have a lot of time on their hands. Was the 4chan roster full?

 

[undecided]

Hi.
I'm sorry for asking such a stupid fucking question.
But living is just causing me pure agony at this point. I cant even lay down and exist without wanting to cry or scream.
I barely leave my house. I don't have friends and the one I'm trying to make purposely avoids me. The others that are my "friends" don't even like me.
Life is causing me pure fucking agony and pain every single day...and has been for years and years and I've gotten no help.
Should I give up and give myself peace?
Give my girlfriend peace as well? Give everyone peace from such a piece of shit and a burden? A waste of fucking space?

You have your girlfriend. So you DON'T have nobody who cares about you. Do some work on yourself. You think people don't like you. Try to find out WHY they don't like you, and work on those problems before making such a final decision.

Its funny how you covert agents think you're slick in pretending to be one of the community. The Police must have a lot of time on their hands. Was the 4chan roster full?

You're fkn VILE !!

Its funny how you covert agents think you're slick in pretending to be one of the community. The Police must have a lot of time on their hands. Was the 4chan roster full?

You're fkn VILE !!

Its funny how you covert agents think you're slick in pretending to be one of the community. The Police must have a lot of time on their hands. Was the 4chan roster full?

You're fkn VILE !!

 

[PI3.14]

Do people around you think this about you? Or is it you who think this about yourself?

You have a partner, this is a good sign unless they're toxic. You live at home, do your parents supports you emotionally?

Trust me, people who hate you will tell you this to your face. If the actions of the people around you scream love then don't assume they mean otherwise.

 

[AbyssalAlien]

You have your girlfriend. So you DON'T have nobody who cares about you. Do some work on yourself. You think people don't like you. Try to find out WHY they don't like you, and work on those problems before making such a final decision.

You're fkn VILE !!

You're fkn VILE !!

You're fkn VILE !!

Mad little cop.

 

[undecided]

Mad little cop.

Vile, little boy !!

 

[opheliaoveragain]

Vile, little boy !!

they're banned.

 

[DeathSleep]

I'm sorry for what happened on your thread.

If you're undecided maybe you should hold off on it for now. Just don't let what was said by one person here make the decision for you. It is not their decision to make.

I hope you find your peace whatever you decide to do.

 

[We Are Angels]

Make a bucket list and see if there are some things you want to do that are both manageable and realistic. Unless you are in a very very bad situation, there is no need to rush. Sounds like you are emotional right now, give it a few days.

 

[0kcomputer]

Very sorry I got someone banned for this :(
I wouldn't have minded if they encouraged it, I need that push. But I get it goes against rules.

 

[opheliaoveragain]

Very sorry I got someone banned for this :(
I wouldn't have minded if they encouraged it, I need that push. But I get it goes against rules.

nah it wasn't just your post. it was multiple things. don't worry please don't make a big choice on impulse. it's not going anywhere ultimately

 

[username90493486]

Wanted to reply yesterday but I had to go urgently.

Seeing how it turned up I should've replied tbh.

I hate this kind of threads because, as I thought I'd happen, they attract unsavory people. You are exposing yourself to people who want to see others dying regardless of what your circumstances are.

Apart of that, this site is pro-choice. It means you, and only you can decide when it's enough on normal circumstances, making this threads go against the idea of the website.

If you don't know if you want to die, you probably don't tho, but I can be wrong.

 

[NeoN0va]

If it's hard to decide for you, then you could try giving yourself another day to see how things go. Think about it, as in the end, it is your decision. Wishing you all the best and some well deserved rest, as it sounds painful as fuck.

 

[maniac116]

That's a question that really can't be answered by anyone but you!
Nobody in their right mind is going to tell you that you should "kill yourself today".
I'm sorry you're in such a situation & wish you peace