luyzSAD

luyzSAD

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Jun 8, 2023
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My life is being empty and depressing and I look around and see people living in peace and being happy and fulfilled. I always seem to be disgusted with the person I am sometimes I think my skin is rotting I've lost track of things I don't go to school and I also avoid the few people I talk to I don't want to leave the house anymore I see my relatives and friends don't care about me and with what I'm going through, I want to give my happiness a chance but when I give myself a chance I sink deeper into depression, I spent days thinking about CTB
 
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Huntfish34

Huntfish34

Enlightened
Mar 13, 2020
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Sadly I can relate all Too well, and I hate to say that only You are the 1 that can answer that question...... Life on life's terms..... wow, Fck I hate it.

Thank you for sharing, Thoughts and prayers Always. β™₯ Take care of yourself if possible. Godspeed-
 
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Goodgirlryeo101

Wizard
May 27, 2023
661
I don't think it's allowed here to encourage anyone to commit suicide as it's a very personal thing. You should be able to know that yourself without asking anyone's advice.

However, having said that I wish you all the best with whatever decision you decide to make.

Good luck
 
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bastard

bastard

i cut my wrist n play piano cuz im so depressed ;(
Jun 7, 2023
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My life is being empty and depressing and I look around and see people living in peace and being happy and fulfilled. I always seem to be disgusted with the person I am sometimes I think my skin is rotting I've lost track of things I don't go to school and I also avoid the few people I talk to I don't want to leave the house anymore I see my relatives and friends don't care about me and with what I'm going through, I want to give my happiness a chance but when I give myself a chance I sink deeper into depression, I spent days thinking about CTB
i dont think anyone has a say in this besides you, i dont think its right to encourage ctb but its up to you and if you decide thats whats you want to do its what you want to do if that makes sense.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
38,878
I really doubt that anyone truly exists in peace, I don't think there could ever be such a thing as peace in such a harmful, chaotic and dreadful world where there's unlimited potential to suffer, to me peace could only ever exist in the absence of everything.

And I bet that those people aren't as "happy" as they appear to be, the reality is that we don't know as to how much other people suffer inside and I doubt that many humans are ever truly satisfied with existence, there will always be problems and suffering no matter what and even if there wasn't that all that would remain is emptiness and awareness of how futile everything is. I think that the whole concept of true happiness is a delusion in this world and I also see my existence as being very empty, I wish you the best, it truly is something so dreadful having the ability to exist here.
 
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Anon1337

Mage
Oct 1, 2018
547
If you need to ask that question you shouldn't ctb.
 
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TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
6,871
I think most people are suffering, albeit the degree of suffering will vary from individual to individual. I too am suffering and just biding my time until the inevitable comes. I cannot say whether one should or should not CTB, as that is their choice and prerogative, however, if one is not ready, then one should wait and deliberate further before coming to a decision.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
11,508
I'm sorry what you have to go through but surely you have not given up yet and that is good. I wish you all the best!
 
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EmmaD

Specialist
Apr 11, 2023
357
If you need to ask that question you shouldn't ctb.
Note to pro-lifers.. no one is encouraged to ctb here! I bet you'll never screenshot this thread though will you?
 
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willitpass

willitpass

Don’t try to offer me help, I’ve tried everything
Mar 10, 2020
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Note to pro-lifers.. no one is encouraged to ctb here! I bet you'll never screenshot this thread though will you?
I mean it's a valid point to make. I don't think it's pro-life at all. If someone is unsure of whether or not they should do it then they aren't ready. That is not a choice that should be made out of uncertainty.
 
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EmmaD

Specialist
Apr 11, 2023
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I mean it's a valid point to make. I don't think it's pro-life at all. If someone is unsure of whether or not they should do it then they aren't ready. That is not a choice that should be made out of uncertainty.
Just to make clear I'm in support of @Anon1337 's comment, it's proof that SS doesn't tell people to ctb.
 
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Kasumi

Kasumi

tired
Mar 3, 2023
495
FIrst of, "ctb" is a synonym to "commit suicide" or "end your life", etc
it's not a synonym to "suicide" alone, so you don't "commit ctb" you "ctb" or you "commit suicide"

Regarding your question:
No one can answer this for you except yourself.
My personal opinion is you should try to find a way to live for as long as you can, since death is final, I think this should be your last option, essentially your last way out if nothing else can help you.
How long you should fight for depends on your personal limits, some people never give up hope and some of them eventually get better, other people will know at some point that it won't be getting better anymore.
 
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exhaustedperfection

exhaustedperfection

π‘­π’π’“π’ˆπ’†π’• 𝒂𝒃𝒐𝒖𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆 π’˜π’π’“π’π’…
Jun 6, 2023
7
There are two ways you can look at this game of life.

"Rome wasn't built in a day, but it burned in one."

and

"Rome wasn't built in a day, but they were laying bricks every hour."

No matter what, Rome was not built in one day. Either you give yourself the strength of will to force your way through life and do something or you simply do not do that. Rome has fallen and now you're back at square one. It is up to you on whether or not you want to restart, or not. Life is cruel, you build a sandcastle and the ocean will smother it back down. You can either move forwards and keep building sandcastles for your own amusement anyways cause who cares what life does? Or you can rest a little earlier than you would have normally. It's entirely up to you. If you think that there's a chance for you to have fun or have experiences that you can enjoy, go for it, even if you are uncertain. If that is not worth it to you or too much for you, then you have your answer.

Do not mistake either path as being easy, neither way will be. It's a pain to go through life and it's also a pain to end your life. In the end, you will eventually rest, so the only difference made is if you still have something to do or the potential of having something you still want to do. Most people do not have even that.

That is all you can do in this life. Endure, fake it till you make it, don't let it bother you, whatever you want to call it. Or, if you don't mind dying a little soon, you could rest. Dearh is guaranteed either way for us, so it really depends on what you are willing to tolerate.

At least, that is how I see it. I am certain that some people do not even consider such things and blissfully move forwards in life with an ignorance that I am quite envious of. And then, there are people like us who are extremely self aware or find ourselves burdened with life in a way unlike that of others. We are replaceable and common, so the only people who will care what you do are yourself and those close to you who you associate with in your own social circle (family, friends). Unless you are a celebrity, have great infamy, or gain fame after death then you are most likely to be forgotten and your death will cause no impact to those beyond the reach of your present social life. Life is too long to care about what others think of you, but you should still be mindful of it for your own sake as you give higher value to those who you know than those who you do not know. If you care about those in your own little world, that could be another factor to take into account when deciding. You may feel obligated to not make someone you know worry or experience the news or sight of your death, which is also completely understandable and I'm sure many of us are in that sort of situation, stuck between those who you care about and resting.

That's all from me, you can keep on going forwards for whatever reason you find yourself having, or die a little early. I can not decide for you, it is up to you to find out which one is worth more of your trouble.

It is not something that can be decided hastily, so debilitate over it extensively. Who knows, you may not feel like it now, but it could end up being worth it in the end. Or not, but that's something you'll have to decide that you want to find out.

Good luck, no matter your decision.
 
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