Should I borrow money form my relative to CTB?

[cjs0712]

I only have $130 dollars atm, but I could maybe get more from my uncle.
He has been saving the money for me and his other nephews since I was born. Now, it's around $1000.
When he first let me know that he has been saving money for me, I declined because I didn't think I needed the money.
We haven't been in contact for years other than the last phone call about the money.
I have nothing but good memories about him.
If I involve his money into this, he will feel extremely guilty for it.
I live in the east coast, and so far, I was only able to find one SN source (MDS), which has a dubious reputation, and I am afraid to try cheaper alternatives because I am a coward.
What should I do?

 

[Forever Sleep]

Personally, I'd try not to involve someone else in a suicide attempt. Anything indirect like borrowing money or a gun. Also, methods like train and forcing a cop to shoot you trouble me. But then, I do understand that some people's circumstances are so desperate that they feel backed into a corner.

 

[Void Bound]

It would be best not to. Bringing in someone without their knowledge till after the fact could inadvertently set off the proverbial butterfly effect and casue harmful ripples that transcend just going on your own with it. Let him keep that good memory of you as a healthy one should you choose to go.

 

[OrphicEnd]

I'm not sure "borrow" is the right term then. And $130 is more than enough for SN

 

[cjs0712]

I'm not sure "borrow" is the right term then. And $130 is more than enough for SN

Yeah, I decided not to. Also, now MDS is gone do you know any reliable sources? I for some reason just can't find it..

 

[wagner2029]

Do not involve other people in your CTB.
borrow money only from a bank.
search about propranolol.

 

[OrphicEnd]

Yeah, I decided not to. Also, now MDS is gone do you know any reliable sources? I for some reason just can't find it..

Your account is not old enough and you don't have many messages, few people will trust you at the moment, I advise you to continue to be active and meet people. So you can ask for the new address of MDS

🎉SN Source MDS Is Now Called DMC With A New Site🎉

As the title says. Hopefully MDS has given you the new site but only people who have the old one can be given the new one. The new site is presumably to shed the problems plaguing the old one and I imagine it'll only be on the deep web now. Oh and henceforward he is known as DMC 😌

sanctioned-suicide.net

 

[cjs0712]

Your account is not old enough and you don't have many messages, few people will trust you at the moment, I advise you to continue to be active and meet people. So you can ask for the new address of MDS

🎉SN Source MDS Is Now Called DMC With A New Site🎉

As the title says. Hopefully MDS has given you the new site but only people who have the old one can be given the new one. The new site is presumably to shed the problems plaguing the old one and I imagine it'll only be on the deep web now. Oh and henceforward he is known as DMC 😌

sanctioned-suicide.net

Thanks, I didn't know there was a new website.
OP says only people who has the old one can be given the new one. I have the old one, but I wasn't notified of any of this..

 

[OrphicEnd]

Thanks, I didn't know there was a new website.
OP says only people who has the old one can be given the new one. I have the old one, but I wasn't notified of any of this..

You can still try to send a email but for the moment the site doesn't ship, the time for the scandal to subside as say the thread

 

[Pikmin]

I only have $130 dollars atm, but I could maybe get more from my uncle.
He has been saving the money for me and his other nephews since I was born. Now, it's around $1000.
When he first let me know that he has been saving money for me, I declined because I didn't think I needed the money.
We haven't been in contact for years other than the last phone call about the money.
I have nothing but good memories about him.
If I involve his money into this, he will feel extremely guilty for it.
I live in the east coast, and so far, I was only able to find one SN source (MDS), which has a dubious reputation, and I am afraid to try cheaper alternatives because I am a coward.
What should I do?

Just get a credit card.

 

[DefinitelyReady]

Personally, I'd try not to involve someone else in a suicide attempt. Anything indirect like borrowing money or a gun. Also, methods like train and forcing a cop to shoot you trouble me. But then, I do understand that some people's circumstances are so desperate that they feel backed into a corner.

I thought of trying suicide by cop with a knife, but I'm afraid he would be able to outfight me or not give up his gun, and Im not about to hurt him... so it'd be botched and I'd be worse off than I am now.

 

[theboy]

Ask the bank for money? I hope you find peace in another way.

 

[DefinitelyReady]

Just get a credit card.

Im thinking of that. Guns are so expensive. Id be ruining my credit so in the event that I wouldnt be able to purchase the gun or have to wait for it to arrive, it'd be worse. I dont drive and pawn shops have weird rules and it's more difficult to buy where I am. Not to mention distance. There's so much risk and no security, especially when you're so inexperienced and naive in life as I am. Not to mention without resources like driving.

Ask the bank for money? I hope you find peace in another way.

Even charging the $400 you're allowed to overcharge in my bank account wouldnt be enough for a gun. It's ridiculous

 

[Pikmin]

Do the exit bag method, you can make the bag for like 40 dollars, rent the nitrogen tank so you only have to put a deposit down, and buy a regulator for like 150 dollars. If you need money, go donate plasma.